Mustard Seed
Jackie Hill Perry Lyrics

There's only up from here
Things are only going to get better from here on out

My crew is never ever wack because we stand strong
My crew is always reliable and strong

I just saw my therapist
I recently saw my therapist

She talked about feelings, she said that I'm scared of it
My therapist spoke to me about my feelings and how I have a fear of expressing them

I made a habit of crashing and acting like terrorists
I have a habit of acting recklessly and causing chaos

I'd rather die 'fore I cry in front of the eyes of various
I would prefer to die before showing vulnerability to others

Everest still ain't move, maybe the mountain is me
I am the one who needs to change, not the circumstances that are holding me back

Ye of little faith, the grace of face it is peace
Even though I may have little faith, the grace of God brings me peace

Halloween around the corner with trace I'm taking to preach
With Halloween approaching, I am taking the opportunity to preach

About the freedom I don't believe in, I'm off the leash
I am free from the things I don't believe in and no longer feel constrained

As soon as I'm done there's hundreds of reasons to change
After I am finished with something, there are many reasons to make a change

One is Jesus, he wonders why I would underestimate
Jesus wonders why I would underestimate him

The one to one and the sum in the summer to investigate, it's sunny outside
I am investigating the one to one and the sum during the summer when it is sunny outside

It's time to abide
It is time to remain in one place or situation

I got a daddy in the ground and one in the sky
I have a father who has passed away and a father in heaven

R.I.P. to pain, it's famous to live in it
Rest in peace to pain, it is often prevalent in our lives

It's like it's painting a picture
Pain is often used to paint a picture of our experiences

Picture me free, who paid it pray for the sea
Imagine me being free, who paid for it? Pray for those who are still struggling

Who made it into the tree
Who was able to overcome their struggles and become successful?

I stood by and looked high
I watched from afar

And look why it won't prove where's my faith, will it move
I am questioning why my faith isn't changing my circumstances

Extremity in rhythm, yeah that's what ya heard
My music has a strong and powerful beat

Maybe I could find it if I tried to stop
Perhaps I could find what I am looking for if I stopped searching in other places

Looking in other places to cover traces of other cages
I am looking in other places to try to hide the fact that I am still trapped

I'm way way weaker than I was the other day but nobody knew
I am much weaker than I was before, but nobody knows

I was above the wave Peter who drowning who
I was above the wave, while Peter was drowning

I'm counted too
I am also counted among the struggling and broken

Finally somebody told me I was a fool for being honest
Someone criticized me for being honest about my struggles

They probably never knew how hard it was to move in bondage
They likely do not understand the difficulty of being trapped and unable to change

They probably never seen the conscience when it went to college
They probably have not had their conscience challenged or grown through higher education

And got more knowledge of some doctrine while remaining godless
They learned more about doctrine, yet remained without faith

I know more than I live most times
I am more knowledgeable than I am able to put into action

Women looking up to me, I swear I fear those eyes
I am afraid of the expectations of women who view me as a role model

I feel those lies, they louder than my voice sometimes
I feel the weight of the lies I tell myself, which are louder than my own voice at times

They clouding up my joy, I'm fine
The lies are preventing me from experiencing joy, even though I appear to be okay

This doubt in us ain't choice, I'm lying
I did not choose to have this doubt, but I am not being truthful when I say I am fine

Believe it or not, me tweeting for props
Believe it or not, I sometimes tweet just to get attention or validation

I'm done trying to prove I'm even with God
I am no longer trying to prove my worth to God

It's our aim at mirage came with the camouflage and God's tape
Our goal is to reveal the truth, which has been disguised and hidden by society and perception of God's word

The hidden scars we all waiting for healing 'til it's real as this song
We all have hidden scars that we are waiting to be healed, just as real as this song

I wanna be grown, I wanna suffer long
I want to mature and be able to endure hardships

I wanna be strong, I wanna be home
I want to be strong and feel a sense of belonging

I wanna belong
I want to feel like I belong somewhere

Only wanna be right but some of it wrong
I only want to be right, but I know I am also wrong about some things

But some of us on to something when we run to the throne
Those of us who turn to God for guidance are on the right path

I'm knowing some saints that bear fruit like it's honey they sown
I know some people who are doing good and having fruitful lives

They ain't got two faces like they coming with clones
They are genuine and do not act in a fake or deceitful manner

There's only up from here baby
Things are only going to improve from here on out

I know it's nothing, you flown
I know it may seem like nothing has changed, but you have moved forward