Conscience
Jacob Lee Lyrics
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You won′t believe what I ponder
I saw the world through a notch
Somewhere within I uncovered
Everything that I once was
Dwelling beyond my subconscious
I saw myself as a god
That's when I realised I wasn′t
When I asked how you colour the sky
And you told me I already knew
When I asked could I see through your eyes
And you told me I already do
Oh then why do I feel like a fool?
Tell me there's a path to take
Where I'll know
I will get another day
Tomorrow
If you could just elaborate
I′ll follow
′Cause I don't know if I′m awake
Let me become what I'm not
I don′t decide what I ponder
I saw the Earth as it was
The moment I fell to its aura
There I erased all my thoughts
Teaching myself to discover
Everything I thought I lost
Hiding right where I left off
When I asked how you colour the sky
And you told me I already knew
When I asked you to see through my eyes
And you told me you already do
Oh then why do I feel like a fool?
Tell me there's a path to take
Where I′ll know
Everything will be okay
Tomorrow
If you could just elaborate
I'll follow
'Cause I don′t know if I′m awake
I'm unsure if I should ask
But I question everything that I see
I venture into my past
Realising that it′s in front of me
I sit with hands in my lap
Piecing together these memories
I left you where I began
Knowing that I'm what he used to be
The lyrics of "Conscience" by Jacob Lee touches upon the theme of self-discovery and seeking answers. In the first stanza, Lee sings about yearning to become something different than who he currently is, and how he struggles to reconcile feelings of self-importance with a crushing sense of reality. He mentions the moment he believed himself to have god-like qualities before realizing he was far from it. In the second and third stanzas, Lee delves deeper into his past, questioning everything he encounters and seeking answers to the uncertainty he faces.
Line by Line Meaning
Let me become what I want
I want to change and become something different.
You won't believe what I ponder
I'm thinking about things that are difficult to understand.
I saw the world through a notch
I saw the world in a different way than normal.
Somewhere within I uncovered everything that I once was
I discovered hidden parts of myself from the past.
Dwelling beyond my subconscious
I am exploring parts of my mind that I don't normally think about.
I saw myself as a god
I imagined that I was all-powerful and could control everything.
That's when I realised I wasn't
I realized that I am not actually all-powerful and cannot control everything.
When I asked how you colour the sky
I asked a question about something that is impossible to do.
And you told me I already knew
You told me that the answer was something I already knew and understood.
When I asked could I see through your eyes
I asked to understand someone else's perspective.
And you told me I already do
You told me that I already understand their perspective, even if I don't realize it.
Oh then why do I feel like a fool?
Why do I still feel confused, even though I have all the information?
Tell me there's a path to take where I'll know
I need guidance and direction to find the right way forward.
I will get another day tomorrow
I hope for another chance to make things better in the future.
If you could just elaborate I'll follow
I am open to suggestions and guidance from others.
'Cause I don't know if I'm awake
I am questioning reality and whether or not I am really awake and aware.
Let me become what I'm not
I want to change in a way that is completely different from my current self.
I don't decide what I ponder
My thoughts sometimes seem to come from no particular source or decision of my own.
I saw the Earth as it was
I had a moment of clarity where I saw the world as it truly is.
The moment I fell to its aura
I had a powerful experience that drew me in and made me feel connected to the world.
There I erased all my thoughts
I let go of all of my past thoughts and beliefs and started fresh in that moment.
Teaching myself to discover
I am actively working to learn and understand new things.
Everything I thought I lost
I discovered things that I had forgotten and thought were lost to me forever.
Hiding right where I left off
The answers and memories I was searching for were there all along, waiting for me to rediscover.
I'm unsure if I should ask
I am hesitant to ask questions because I don't want to seem foolish or ignorant.
But I question everything that I see
I am curious and always seeking to learn more about the world around me.
I venture into my past
I am exploring my personal history and looking for insights and answers there.
Realising that it's in front of me
I am discovering that the answers I was looking for were right in front of me all along.
I sit with hands in my lap
I am patiently waiting and contemplating my next move.
Piecing together these memories
I am working to make sense of my past experiences and memories.
I left you where I began
I am back where I started, but I have learned and grown along the way.
Knowing that I'm what he used to be
I am aware that I have changed and grown, and I am no longer the same person I was in the past.
Writer(s): Jacob Lee Christian Blowes
Contributed by Carson Y. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@sugarrush9010
"Conscience"
Let me become what I want
You won't believe what I ponder
I saw the world through a notch
Somewhere within I uncovered
Everything that I once was
Dwelling beyond my subconscious
I saw myself as a god
That's when I realised I wasn't
When I asked how you colour the sky
And you told me I already knew
When I asked could I see through your eyes
And you told me I already do
Oh then why do I feel like a fool
Tell me there's a path to take
Where I'll know
I will get another day
Tomorrow
If you could just elaborate
I'll follow
Cause I don't know if I'm awake
Let me become what I'm not
I don't decide what I ponder
I saw the Earth as it was
The moment I fell to its aura
There I erased all my thoughts
Teaching myself to discover
Everything I thought I lost
Hiding right where I left off
When I asked how you colour the sky
And you told me I already knew
When I asked you to see through my eyes
And you told me you already do
Oh then why do I feel like a fool
Tell me there's a path to take
Where I'll know
Everything will be okay
Tomorrow
If you could just elaborate
I'll follow
Cause I don't know if I'm awake
I'm unsure if I should ask
But I question everything that I see
I venture into my past
Reliasing that it's in front of me
I sit with hands in my lap
Piecing together these memories
I left you where I began
Knowing that I'm what you used to be
@dcarr-kr7hk
First time listening to this song (5 times at least). The words feel like deja vu (to the point of being unsettling)...
As a young girl (just over 50 years ago) in my childlike way I was asking myself some of these same things. While I never saw myself as a god, I wondered and asked so many of these things.
He answered so many things and showed me there was a path to take. He made it simple enough for me to understand. He spoke. I listened. I learned.
And I have been following Him ever since.
Now?
Now I am old and returning back to that childlike place where I once dwelt. That place where children ask questions, know/believe they will be answered and, in time find a place bathed His rest.
So much gets covered up by the pain of this life but everyday (everyday) He's shown me the path to take...
I have had many, many questions answered (those asked and some I did know to ask). Although I still have many questions soon I'll be leaving to be where He is.
And there?
He will take time to answer every question I've pondered and finally -- all of my questions will be answered.
I found the path, Jacob, and (with all of my heart) I pray you will find it also. 💕
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