1000 Words
Jade Valerie Villalon Lyrics

I know that you're hiding things
I'm aware that you have secrets and are not being completely transparent with me

Using gentle words to shelter me
You're using kind language to protect my feelings

Your words were like a dream
The things you said sounded too good to be true, like something from a fantasy

But dreams could never fool me
I'm not easily deceived by idealistic imaginings

I acted so distant then
I kept my distance and was emotionally detached in the past

Didn't say goodbye before you left
I didn't properly say farewell before you departed

But I was listening
However, I was still paying attention to what you were saying and doing

You'll fight your battles far from me
You'll face your challenges without my help

Far too easily
You'll be able to handle them with little difficulty

"Save your tears 'cause I'll come back"
You declared that you'd return and urged me not to cry

I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door
I could faintly discern your voice as you left the room

But still I swore
Despite hearing your promise, I made a vow to myself

To hide the pain, when I turn back the pages
I made a decision to conceal my agony when revisiting old memories

Shouting might have been the answer
Yelling and expressing my sorrow could have been a solution

What if I cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart
What if I had pleaded with you and sobbed uncontrollably to make you stay

But now I'm not afraid to say what's in my heart
I'm now able to openly express my true feelings without fear or inhibition

Though a thousand words
Using numerous words

Have never been spoken
I've never actually said them aloud

They'll fly to you
My thoughts and emotions will reach you

Crossing over the time
Transcending time itself

And distance holding you, suspended on silver wings
Carrying and lifting you up, held within a beautiful and delicate mechanism

One thousand confessions
Numerous admissions

Will cradle you
Will comfort and support you

Making all of the pain you feel seem far away
Lessening the hurt you're experiencing and creating distance from it

They'll hold you forever
My thoughts and emotions will be with you for all time

The dream isn't over yet
The hope and longing for something better and idealized hasn't faded away

Though I often say I can't forget
Despite saying that I can't let go, I still try to

You've been there with me all the way
You've been a constant presence in my life throughout

Wait for me, I'll write you letters
Wait for me to communicate through written correspondence

I could see how you stammered with your eyes to the floor
I noticed how you stumbled over your words, avoiding eye contact

To hide the doubt when I turn back the pages
I don't want to show my skepticism when revisiting old memories

Anger might have been the answer
Reacting with fury may have been appropriate

What if I'd hung my head and said that I couldn't wait
What if I displayed vulnerability and said that I couldn't handle waiting

But now I'm strong enough to know it's not too late
Now I'm resilient and confident enough to know that there is still time

Call out through the ages
Echoing throughout time

Even though I can't see
Although I'm not physically able to witness it

I know they're reaching you, suspended on silver wings
I know my feelings are reaching you, being carried on delicate and graceful wings

One thousand embraces
Numerous gestures of affection

Making all of your weary days seem far away
Easing the stress and weariness you've been experiencing by creating space from them

They'll hold you forever
My feelings will support you indefinitely