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Jake Aarons Lyrics

I can't sleep
Rest eludes me, my mind is restless.

I'm scrolling Tumblr feed
I'm endlessly browsing through my Tumblr dashboard.

Waiting for your post
I am anticipating a message or update from you.

That might be about me
Hoping to find a hint or mention that connects to my existence.

I've been up all night
The hours have passed without any sleep, lost in thought.

And no post to be found
Despite my search, there's nothing new to discover.

Are you awake?
I wonder if you are also thinking of me.

Are you asleep?
Or perhaps you are lost in your own dreams, unaware of my thoughts.

Still waiting
I find myself in a state of anticipation that never seems to end.

Blue bit at the end
A sad feeling lingers, perhaps symbolized by the colors I see.

Love in pastel colors and
Beautiful memories of love painted softly in my mind.

Broken lost souls, where I used to be
Reflections of pain and confusion that once defined my identity.

But this part of me
Yet, I recognize that a faction of my being remains trapped.

Was killing me
This state of being consumes my energy and spirit.

Yeah, it's killing me
The toll it takes is profound and undeniable.

Yeah, yeah
Emphasizing the weight of my feelings.

Broken lost souls, where I used to be
A repeated reminder of a past filled with despair.

But this part of me
Still acknowledging that fragment of my essence.

Was killing me
A recurrent struggle that has been wearing me down.

Yeah, it's killing me
The pain echoes loud and clear in my thoughts.

So fuck it!
I reach a breaking point of frustration and determination.

Reblogging and
I am sharing and reposting as a means of expressing myself.

Hoping you will see
Yearning for you to notice my messages hidden within.

What I cannot say
There are words trapped inside that I cannot vocalize.

And is living inside of me
These unsaid feelings exist internally, weighing heavily.

Are you awake?
Once again, questioning if you share in this moment of reflection.

Are you asleep?
Or are you oblivious to the chaos in our hearts?

Still waiting
Continuing my vigil, stranded in this loop of anticipation.

Are you awake?
The question arises yet again, echoing my desires.

Are you asleep?
Imagining your peaceful slumber, while my thoughts race on.

Still waiting
A cyclic state, perpetually trapped in expecting something more.

Still waiting
Reiterating the frustrating stasis I find myself in.

Blue bit at the end
Remnants of sadness still linger in my emotional landscape.

Love in pastel colors and
The tender memories of affection still resonate within.

Broken lost souls, where I used to be
Echoing the lost pieces of myself that I cannot ignore.

But this part of me
Addressing the ongoing battle within my psyche.

Was killing me
Acknowledging that this internal struggle is destructive.

Yeah, it's killing me
Reiterating the gravity of my emotional pain.

Yeah, yeah
Affirming my feelings and the depths of my turmoil.

Broken lost souls, where I used to be
A final reflection on the shadows of my former self.

But this part of me
The lingering fragments of my identity come to the surface.

Was killing me
An acknowledgment of the ongoing pain I endure.

Yeah, it's killing me
The pain continues to resonate within my heart.

So fuck it!
I resolve to let go of the past that binds me.

Fuck what used to be
Dismissal of previous experiences and definitions of self.

That part of me
Recognizing the fragments of my old self that persist.

Was killing me
Acceptance of the harm that those remnants cause.

Yeah killing me
Affirming the destructiveness of what once was.

Yeah, yeah
Emphasizing the intense emotion behind my declarations.

Fuck what used to be
Reiterating my desire to move beyond the past.

That part of me
Identifying the remnants of my history that still linger.

Was killing me
Coming to terms with the level of pain I have endured.

Yeah killing me
Affirming the ongoing struggle with this hopelessness.

So fuck it!
I declare my intention to break free from these chains.

So fuck it...
Finally surrendering to the need for liberation from my past.