MEMORY
Jan A.P. Kaczmarek Lyrics


Jump to: Overall Meaning ↴  Line by Line Meaning ↴

Took a trip down memory lane
Nothing's the same
Searching for a person to blame
Learning with age
My demons wanna come out to play
But they in a cage
Fueled by depression and rage
Sorrow and pain
Speaking up the sorrow and pain
I'm running away
But I think that it's time for a change
A brand new slate
The Ice thin but still I skate
I Guess I'm brave
Or maybe it's the drugs taking over all this pain
I don't need an umbrella I guess I'm used to the rain
The way I act out in public you'd think I do it for the fame
But I'm true to the music my nigga this is not a game
Point to my wrist in the clutch and everybody loving my wave
I tried to work a 9-5 and that shit was slavery
But I stuck to my grind went to work and made it pay for me
These niggas gone hate, want me dead say they gone pay for me
And so I stay strapped wit that blick it ain't no catchin me
The woman the weed and the weather that shit the recipe
I carried my talents back to Lakeland think that was made for me
I still got a piece of my city won't stay away from me
You ask me how I'm doin inside it's day to day for me
My mama told me to watch my lungs they fading away
I smoke an ounce a day to keep depression away
Woods glass or wax which one should I choose today
I'm in love wit all the drugs they keep the pain away
It's like with every other hit I see a brighter day
Either that or them xannys they take the pain away
I been sippin so much purple turned my liver grey
Tryina fill this void but honestly too much fucking space
I been movin state to state I'm tryna find my place
Fucked around and found a super model give me face
Movin in this chally you would think I'm on the chase
150 on the dash but this is not a race
I'm on my own level
Yuh
can't nobody take my place
I need me a new bezel
Yuh
Fuck that shit I need a wraith
It's Petal to the metal
Yuh
Put my mom in new a space
I got it out the gutter
Yuh
I got Steak all on my plate
Fuck nigga you don't want static
Yuh
Pull up on me and my niggas gone spazz
I got skeletons in my closet
yuh
I don't GB but my entourage move when I move so don't to touch my Patek
Yuh
Don't be mistaken I keep that bitch on me them bullets they fly like lightening
I ain't really in to fightin naw
Me I rather I just knock em off
Shoot like curry I like to ball
And my glock hold 30 and all
Legal wit papers ain't dirty at all
Won't lose a wink about murdering y'all
You niggas pussy you fertile and all
I am not worried bout none of you niggas you niggas is goofy
What's wrong wit y'all
My mama told me to watch my lungs they fading away
I smoke an ounce a day to keep depression away
Woods glass or wax which one should I choose today
I'm in love wit all the drugs they keep the pain away
It's like with every other hit I see a brighter day
Either that or them xannys they take the pain away




I been sippin so much purple turned my liver grey
Tryina fill this void but honestly too much fucking space

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Jan A.P. Kaczmarek's "Memory" describe a journey through the past, where the singer is looking for someone to blame for how everything has changed. He speaks about having depression and rage, and his demons are caged but still want to come out and play. He feels sorrow and pain but is still brave enough to try to start over and create a brand new slate despite the thinness of the ice he's skating on. He chooses the drugs to keep the pain away, which might be the reason why he sees a brighter day, or maybe it's the Xanax. The lyrics also express how he has been moving from state to state, trying to find his place but still carrying a piece of his city with him. The song reveals how he has skeletons in his closet and won't lose a wink about murdering anyone giving him trouble.


Line by Line Meaning

Took a trip down memory lane
Reminiscing on past experiences


Nothing's the same
Realization that things have changed


Searching for a person to blame
Trying to find someone to attribute problems to


Learning with age
Growing wiser over time


My demons wanna come out to play
Inner struggles trying to surface


But they in a cage
Repressing inner demons


Fueled by depression and rage
Being driven by negative emotions


Sorrow and pain
Feelings of sadness and hurt


Speaking up the sorrow and pain
Expressing and acknowledging these difficult emotions


I'm running away
Trying to escape from problems


But I think that it's time for a change
Realization that change is needed


A brand new slate
Starting fresh


The Ice thin but still I skate
Moving forward despite obstacles


I Guess I'm brave
Acknowledging bravery in facing challenges


Or maybe it's the drugs taking over all this pain
Usage of drugs as a coping mechanism


I don't need an umbrella I guess I'm used to the rain
Being accustomed to difficulties and hardships


The way I act out in public you'd think I do it for the fame
Misunderstandings about one's true intentions


But I'm true to the music my nigga this is not a game
Staying committed to and passionate about music


Point to my wrist in the clutch and everybody loving my wave
Being successful and admired by others


I tried to work a 9-5 and that shit was slavery
Feeling oppressed by a traditional work schedule


But I stuck to my grind went to work and made it pay for me
Commitment to working hard and achieving success


These niggas gone hate, want me dead say they gone pay for me
Facing criticism and threats from others


And so I stay strapped wit that blick it ain't no catchin me
Protecting oneself from danger


The woman the weed and the weather that shit the recipe
Indulging in pleasures


I carried my talents back to Lakeland think that was made for me
Returning to one's hometown with a sense of purpose


I still got a piece of my city won't stay away from me
Taking pride in one's roots and connection to a place


You ask me how I'm doin inside it's day to day for me
Struggling with inner demons on a daily basis


My mama told me to watch my lungs they fading away
Concerns about the effects of drug usage on health


I smoke an ounce a day to keep depression away
Using drugs to cope with mental health issues


Woods glass or wax which one should I choose today
Choosing between different forms of drugs


I'm in love wit all the drugs they keep the pain away
Dependence on drugs for emotional relief


It's like with every other hit I see a brighter day
Finding temporary relief through drug usage


Either that or them xannys they take the pain away
Alternative drug usage for pain relief


I been sippin so much purple turned my liver grey
Harmful effects of drug usage


Tryina fill this void but honestly too much fucking space
Feeling empty and trying to cope with too much trauma


Fucked around and found a super model give me face
Unexpected positive events in the midst of difficult times


Movin in this chally you would think I'm on the chase
Giving the impression of chasing success


150 on the dash but this is not a race
Working towards success at one's own pace


I'm on my own level
Achieving unique levels of success and individuality


can't nobody take my place
Confidence in one's position and accomplishments


I need me a new bezel
Desire for upgraded material possessions


Fuck that shit I need a wraith
Aspiring towards even greater success and wealth


It's Petal to the metal
Not holding back in pursuit of success


Put my mom in new a space
Providing for family and loved ones


I got it out the gutter
Overcoming adversity and achieving success


I got Steak all on my plate
Achieving abundance in one's life


Fuck nigga you don't want static
Challenging those who may stand in the way of success


Pull up on me and my niggas gone spazz
Defending oneself and one's crew against threats


I got skeletons in my closet
Hiding shameful or embarrassing secrets


I don't GB but my entourage move when I move so don't to touch my Patek
Being surrounded by loyal friends and protectors


Don't be mistaken I keep that bitch on me them bullets they fly like lightening
Protecting oneself and one's success with weapons


I ain't really in to fightin naw
Avoiding physical altercations


Me I rather I just knock em off
Choosing more efficient and violent methods of retaliation


Shoot like curry I like to ball
Drawing comparisons to successful basketball player Steph Curry


And my glock hold 30 and all
Using a powerful gun for protection


Legal wit papers ain't dirty at all
Avoiding legal troubles


Won't lose a wink about murdering y'all
Lacking remorse for harming others


You niggas pussy you fertile and all
Expressing contempt for others' perceived weakness


I am not worried bout none of you niggas you niggas is goofy
Feeling superior to others and disregarding their opinions




Lyrics © DistroKid
Written by: Jamir Carter

Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
To comment on or correct specific content, highlight it

Genre not found
Artist not found
Album not found
Song not found

More Versions