Wondering
Jaymes Lyrics

Now my sheets grow, cold as I am sleeping
As I lay in bed, the sheets around me feel frigid despite my body heat.

Where my thoughts go, no one will be grieving
My mind drifts to places where no one else is aware, and therefore, no one will feel any sorrow for me.

But I can't stop, wondering how long it will be
Despite this loneliness, I cannot stop myself from pondering how long it will be until things change.

'Till I start wondering, I start wondering
My thoughts spin in circles, repeating with even greater intensity.

If you are even here at all
I wonder if you, whoever you may be, exist in my life or if I am truly alone.

Let the moonlight, keep me from the darkness
The light of the moon shining through my window offers me some comfort, shielding me from complete darkness.

Well soon I, will sleep beneath the forest
As I drift off to sleep, I imagine myself lying in a forest, surrounded by lost and wandering souls.

Of lost souls, wondering in and out of love
I imagine these lost souls drifting in and out of love, just as I do in my own life.

'Till I start wondering, I start wondering
The pattern continues, as I cannot escape these thoughts that plague me.

If you are ever here at all
Once again, I wonder if anyone is truly present in my life.

Remembering, the cold snow
Memories of the chilling snow and the coldness it brings flood my mind.

Remembering, if you love it all
I also recall wondering if you, whoever you may be, feel the same way that I do about the cold snow and everything else in life.

Just wait for I fall
I feel like I am teetering on the edge of a cliff, and soon I will fall into something abyssal and sorrowful.

I start wondering, I start wondering
Once again, my thoughts become consumed with wondering about my place in the world and whether anyone will be there with me.