Call Me Guilty
Jazmine Sullivan Lyrics

Mom?
The singer is seeking her mother's comfort and support in a moment of distress.

What's the matter, baby?
The mother is asking the singer what's wrong and showing concern.

He did it again, he hit me
The singer is reporting that someone has hit them again, likely a partner or spouse.

He did what? calm down
The mother is asking for clarification and urging the artist to calm down.

I'm gone kill him
The artist is expressing a desire to kill the person who hit them.

Listen to me
The mother is urging the singer to listen to her advice and guidance.

I'm gone kill him, I know I'm going to
The singer is reiterating their desire to kill the person who hit them.

Listen, get your stuff and come home
The mother is advising the artist to leave and come home with her.

I can't come home, I'm gone kill him, I'm gone do it
The artist is once again asserting their intention to kill the person who hit them and refusing to come home.

I'm sitting contemplating is it worth, should I take it
The artist is thinking about whether it's worth it to take the life of the person who hit them.

Take that shot and change my life
The singer is considering shooting the person to change their life and escape the abuse.

Get that glock and take his life
The artist is thinking about using a gun to take the life of the person who hit them.

Hospitals and bloody noses
The singer is recalling the physical abuse they've suffered and the injuries they've sustained.

This would end all, I suppose that I could leave
The singer believes that killing the person who hit them would end the abuse and allow them to leave the relationship.

Knowing I can't leave
The singer recognizes that leaving the relationship is difficult, perhaps due to fear or financial dependence.

So it's either him or me
The artist feels that they must choose between themselves and the person who is abusing them.

Cause he gone kill me if I stay, I know
The artist is certain that if they stay, the person who is abusing them will kill them eventually.

Gone kill me, he can't change, I know
The singer recognizes that the person who is abusing them is unlikely to change, and that staying will only lead to more violence.

From the first time that he did it,
The singer is reflecting on how the abuse started from the beginning of the relationship.

Made a promise that he'd quit it, shh
The person who is abusing the artist has promised to stop, but their promises are empty.

God, it's so much work
Dealing with the abuse is exhausting and takes a toll on the artist.

Don't wanna end up in a hearse
The artist doesn't want to die as a result of the abuse they're suffering.

I guess I gotta do it first
The singer believes they must take action to protect themselves, even if that means killing the person who is abusing them.

I can't go back now, back now I'm running
The artist has taken action and is now fleeing the scene of the crime.

Away from those cops, I hear them coming
The singer is on the run from the police, who are pursuing them for the crime they committed.

And if they catch me, I still ain't sorry
The singer doesn't regret what they did and would do it again if given the chance.

If that was wrong just
The singer believes that their actions were justified, regardless of whether they were legal.

Call me guilty
The artist is admitting that they are guilty of a crime and are willing to face the consequences of their actions.

I did it, pulled the trigger
The artist is admitting to shooting the person who was abusing them.

It wasn't so hard, go figure
The singer is surprised at how easy it was to take a life.

Before I did it, I said
The singer is reflecting on their thoughts and feelings prior to committing the crime.

This was for all the blood I shed
The artist believes that their actions were in self-defense and were necessary to stop the abuse they were suffering.

For all the women who go through this ish
The artist is doing this not only for themselves, but for all women who suffer from domestic violence and abuse.

Can't think of what to do, this ish
The artist is overwhelmed and doesn't know how to respond to the abuse they're experiencing.

Done torn them up inside and out
The abuse has had a lasting impact on the singer's physical and emotional well-being.

Whose still trying to get out
The artist is trying to escape the abusive relationship.

You know I'm right
The singer is confident in their beliefs and is asserting that they're correct.

Don't wanna see him take a life
The singer doesn't want to the person who was abusing them to continue hurting anyone else.

And it will only just get worse
The singer believes that the abuse would have continued and gotten worse if they hadn't taken action.

It's so much blood I grabbed my stuff
The artist is horrified by the amount of blood that was spilled as a result of their actions, but is still trying to leave the situation.

But before I could leave, the cops busted in
The artist is interrupted in their attempt to leave by the arrival of the police.

(You have the right to remain silent)
The singer is read their Miranda rights as they are being arrested by the police.

No I have the right to stay alive
The singer believes that their right to self-preservation is more important than their right to remain silent.

Guess what?, I'd do it again
The artist is unrepentant and would take the same action again if given the choice.

He would have killed me before I killed him
The artist believes that they acted in self-defense and that the person they killed would have eventually killed them anyway.

It would have been him up in this building
The artist believes that if they hadn't taken action, the person they killed would have likely continued to be abusive and hurt others.

It would have been him faking tears but what's funny is I'm the one standing here
The singer believes that if the person who was abusing them had been the one to survive, they would have been the one to face legal repercussions, not him.

Just lock me up and call me guilty
The artist is willing to accept responsibility for their actions and is willing to be punished for them.