Razorblade Salvation
Jedi Mind Tricks Lyrics


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I know that times were hard
I know that you've been feelin' down
If you only knew how I'm feelin' for you
If I could take your pain
I wish that I could wash it all away
If you only knew how I'm feelin'

Mommy I'm sorry if my first letter made you cry
To be honest with you I don't think that I wanna die
Sometimes I feel like that I'm cancerous in others lives
That's prolley why I drink at night and sleep till 4 or 5
It's kinda hard walking through life with my distorted eyes
When I was younger I was stupid and I thought I thrived
I thought a lot about everything I said in the letter
And questioned whether or not if I was dead you'd be better
You think my shorty would be happy if I never met her
It's too late now mommy I could never forget her
Could never forget how she told me to love
'cause my father and my grandmother is always above
It's glory above you know that daddy taught me to thug
And everytime we was with nanny she'd bombard me with hugs[damn]
I MISS 'EM mommy and it's hard to believe
That I've grown and I don't understand that why did they leave

(Better to die and sleep then never wake and sleep
Then linger on and dare to live when your souls life is gone)

You've been runnin' around for so long
You've been hurting yourself too much
You keep messin' around with darkness
You're the one whose losin x2

Mommy I think I'm'a that try to stick around a while
I got a niece and my nephews they need me around a while
I think they need me 'cause they hittin that age
And they ain't tryin to speak to Lenny 'cause they spittin' they rage
And mommy speakin of Lenny I think my brother need me
And we Italian so you know my mother loved to feed me
And it's the little things you do for me that make it worth it
Like when I play a joint that we did and you say it's perfect
And when Jay got knocked you knew that I was hurt
You told me to my heart in a song and it worked
I promised him I'd be there when he got out the bing
You ain't raised me to be a liar ma' that's not my thing
I told him that I'd hold him down the whole time that he gone
They kept him locked in a cage but that's cool 'cause he's strong
So mommy keep that first letter I wrote you on the low
I think I wanna stay alive and see if I can grow

You've been runnin' around for so long
You've been hurting yourself too much
You keep messin' around with darkness
You're the one whose losing x2



I know that times were hard
I know that you've been feelin' down
If you only knew how I'm feelin' for you
If I could take your pain




I wish that I could wash it all away
If you only knew how I'm feelin'

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Jedi Mind Tricks' song Razorblade Salvation cover the themes of depression, suicidal thoughts, and the struggle to find hope and meaning in life. The song is addressed to the artist's mother, who he apologizes to for the pain his first suicide letter caused her. He admits to feeling like a burden on others and using alcohol to cope with his distorted view of the world. He reflects on the loss of his father and grandmother, who taught him to "thug" and showed him love through hugs. He also acknowledges the importance of his family in keeping him alive and finding purpose, expressing his desire to see his nephews and help his brother. Overall, the song is a heartfelt plea for hope and a reminder that even in the darkest moments, there are people who care and reasons to push forward.


Line by Line Meaning

I know that times were hard
I understand that life has been difficult for you


I know that you've been feelin' down
I know that you've been struggling emotionally


If you only knew how I'm feelin' for you
If only you knew the depth of my love and concern for you


If I could take your pain
I wish I could relieve your suffering


I wish that I could wash it all away
I want to erase all the pain and struggles that you have experienced


Mommy I'm sorry if my first letter made you cry
I apologize if my previous communication caused you distress


To be honest with you I don't think that I wanna die
I want to live and not give up on life


Sometimes I feel like that I'm cancerous in others lives
At times, I feel like I have a negative influence on other people's lives


That's prolley why I drink at night and sleep till 4 or 5
I turn to alcohol to cope with my feelings and sleep during odd hours


It's kinda hard walking through life with my distorted eyes
It's challenging to navigate life with my distorted perspective


When I was younger I was stupid and I thought I thrived
In my youth, I thought I was doing well when, in reality, I was making poor choices


You think my shorty would be happy if I never met her
Do you believe my child would have been better off if I had never come into her life?


It's too late now mommy I could never forget her
It's too late for me to change things, and I could never forget the impact of my child on my life


Could never forget how she told me to love
I could never forget how my child taught me to love


'cause my father and my grandmother is always above
My father and grandmother are watching over me from heaven


It's glory above you know that daddy taught me to thug
My father taught me to be tough and resilient, even in difficult times


And every time we were with nanny she'd bombard me with hugs
My grandmother would shower me with love and affection whenever we were together


I MISS 'EM mommy and it's hard to believe
I miss them so much, and it's tough to accept that they're gone


That I've grown and I don't understand that why did they leave
I've grown, but I still struggle to understand why my loved ones had to leave me


(Better to die and sleep then never wake and sleep
It's better to die and rest forever than to live a life devoid of meaning


Then linger on and dare to live when your souls life is gone)
To continue living but without inner peace or purpose is to be dead inside


You've been runnin' around for so long
You've been avoiding your problems for a while now


You've been hurting yourself too much
Your actions are causing you harm


You keep messin' around with darkness
You're exploring troubled, negative emotions


You're the one whose losing
Your choices and behavior are causing you to miss out on the best of life


Mommy I think I'm'a that try to stick around a while
I want to keep living and stay in this world for some more time


I got a niece and my nephews they need me around a while
My niece and nephews depend on me, and I want to be there for them for a long time


I think they need me 'cause they hittin that age
My young relatives are reaching a pivotal age and need me as a role model and guide


And mommy speakin of Lenny I think my brother need me
My brother Lenny requires my assistance and support


And we Italian so you know my mother loved to feed me
As an Italian family, food plays an essential role in our culture, and my mother shows her love through cooking for me


And it's the little things you do for me that make it worth it
It's the small gestures of kindness that make life worth living


Like when I play a joint that we did and you say it's perfect
It's gratifying when you appreciate my work and find it excellent


And when Jay got knocked you knew that I was hurt
You empathized with my pain when Jay got arrested


You told me to my heart in a song and it worked
Your words of comfort in a song managed to soothe my heart


I promised him I'd be there when he got out the bing
I made a promise to be there when Jay gets released from prison


You ain't raised me to be a liar ma' that's not my thing
You taught me to be honest and truthful, so I would never entertain the idea of acting deceitfully


They kept him locked in a cage but that's cool 'cause he's strong
Jay may be in prison, but he's mentally and emotionally resilient


So mommy keep that first letter I wrote you on the low
Please don't share my first letter with anyone else


I think I wanna stay alive and see if I can grow
I want to keep living in this world to witness my growth and experiences




Lyrics © DOMINO PUBLISHING COMPANY, Songtrust Ave
Written by: KEVIN BALWIN, SHARA WYVETTE WORDEN, SUFJAN STEVENS, VINCENT LUVINER

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@OE509

I know that times were hard
I know that you've been feelin' down
If you only knew how I'm feelin' for you
If I could take your pain
I wish that I could wash it all away
If you only knew how I'm feelin'
Mommy I'm sorry if my first letter made you cry
To be honest with you I don't think that I wanna die
Sometimes I feel like that I'm cancerous in others lives
That's prolley why I drink at night and sleep till 4 or 5
It's kinda hard walking through life with my distorted eyes
When I was younger I was stupid and I thought I thrived
I thought a lot about everything I said in the letter
And questioned whether or not if I was dead you'd be better
You think my shorty would be happy if I never met her
It's too late now mommy I could never forget her
Could never forget how she told me to love
'cause my father and my grandmother is always above
It's glory above you know that daddy taught me to thug
And everytime we was with nanny she'd bombard me with hugs[damn]
I MISS 'EM mommy and it's hard to believe
That I've grown and I don't understand that why did they leave
(Better to die and sleep then never wake and sleep
Then linger on and dare to live when your souls life is gone)
You've been runnin' around for so long
You've been hurting yourself too much
You keep messin' around with darkness
You're the one whose losin x2
Mommy I think I'm'a that try to stick around a while
I got a niece and my nephews they need me around a while
I think they need me 'cause they hittin that age
And they ain't tryin to speak to Lenny 'cause they spittin' they rage
And mommy speakin of Lenny I think my brother need me
And we Italian so you know my mother loved to feed me
And it's the little things you do for me that make it worth it
Like when I play a joint that we did and you say it's perfect
And when Jay got knocked you knew that I was hurt
You told me to my heart in a song and it worked
I promised him I'd be there when he got out the bing
You ain't raised me to be a liar ma' that's not my thing
I told him that I'd hold him down the whole time that he gone
They kept him locked in a cage but that's cool 'cause he's strong
So mommy keep that first letter I wrote you on the low
I think I wanna stay alive and see if I can grow
You've been runnin' around for so long
You've been hurting yourself too much
You keep messin' around with darkness
You're the one whose losing x2
I know that times were hard
I know that you've been feelin' down
If you only knew how I'm feelin' for you
If I could take your pain
I wish that I could wash it all away
If you only knew how I'm feelin'



All comments from YouTube:

@jackhewett3790

I listned to this song so much when i lost my girlfriend, i was kicked out of home and my mum and dad split, my stepdad is physically and mentally abusive towards me, we had no money and very little food on the table, i was loaded up on speed and ice, i was alone and isolated. It kept me pushing trying to find the light of day. This song helped give me the strenght to keep moving on, to keep fighting with all my strenght mentally and physically. I got my girlfriend back, my relationship with my mum is stable, my dad and i hate each other, im off drugs, im doing year 12, i have a perfect relationship with my girlfriends mum and dad and i love my 5 year old brother and sister and my 3 year old brother with all my heart on my mums side. Thank You Vinnie Paz for bringing a song out which helped me so much in my time of need. You are my role model and idol!!!

@A.D.D.O.C.D.T

Keep ya head up bro keep climbing mate youll get there !!!

@s103792

I'd recommend that you listen to you never know by immortal technique I have a feeling you'll like that song as well

@samturner2139

man holy shit, this brought me to tears!! stay strong bro!

@13madvillain

Respect.

@carnage1231

Respect bro stay strong

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@CarlosMartinez-iz4zz

This song is the reason many of us are still alive and the only time we come back to this track is when we are in the valley of darkness. Anyone who is walking in a dark road just remember that Everything happens for a sole purpose. Not one rock moves or leaf falls without a purpose.
Thank you Vinnie Paz your music has spread your love for hip hop and your struggle is now our struggle. Any one else who has gone through hell and back can relate with your lyrics.

“Self revelation is annihilation of the self” from your first letter. Before the great collapse and this song are 1. Thank you peace

@phazebeast7373

Very well said 👍

@Imperialrev

Carlos Martinez 🙏

@goblinkillahd8396

your comment is inspirational and brings tears of passion

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