Jennifer Trynin (born in New Jersey), commonly Jen Trynin, is a singer-son… Read Full Bio ↴Jennifer Trynin (born in New Jersey), commonly Jen Trynin, is a singer-songwriter from Boston. She recorded her debut Cockamamie (1995) at age thirty-one while running her own desktop publishing business. The track "Better Than Nothing" received considerable airplay on alternative rock radio stations across the United States. She has since gone back to school and released a second album Gun Shy, Trigger Happy (1997).

Trynin currently plays guitar for Dave Wanamaker's band The Loveless, who wrote and sings all the songs on their CD, Gift to the World. The album was produced by her husband Mike Denneen, with whom she is raising a child.

Trynin released a critically acclaimed (yet publicly overlooked) book entitled Everything I'm Cracked Up to Be in 2006 about her experience in the music industry (Warner Brothers).

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Go Ahead
Jennifer Trynin Lyrics

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Yeah yeah yeah

I'll just have one more cigerette
Before I get myself to bed
And though it's killing me I know
I got nowhere else to go

I grab a needle and a ledge

But I don't want to hurt my head
I know I love you or so you said

Go Ahead, I won't be too far behind
Kill the lights and I will try to keep
My mind on you and my body in this bed

I'll have just one last look at
'Cause it's the best that I can do
Don't you dare look me in the eye
'Cause that's when I start to lie

I'd grab a bottle and a shed
Then we go do it in a hedge
I know I love you or so you said.

Go Ahead, I won't be too far behind
Kill the lights and I will try to keep
My mind on you and my body in this bed

Yeah
Yeah

Ah, Yeah yeah yeah yeah
Ah, yeah yeah yeah yeah

Go Ahead Go ahead
Go Ahead Go Ahead

Ah, yeah yeah Yeah Yeah

Go Ahead, I won't be too far behind
Kill the lights and I will try to keep
My mind on you and my body in this bed

Go Ahead, I won't be too far behind
Kill the lights and I will try to keep
My mind on you and my body in this bed

Go ahead
Go ahead

Yeah

Yeah
Yeah

Overall Meaning

In "Go ahead," Jennifer Trynin paints a vivid picture of a restless, self-destructive night spent desperately trying to fend off loneliness. The singer is smoking one last cigarette before retiring for the night, hoping that sleep will bring relief from the loneliness that gnaws at them. However, their mind is kept churning by desperation and that sense of nowhere else to go.

The singer is trying to hold onto their love for another person ("I know I love you, or so you said"), but it is apparent that the love is not enough to fill the void of loneliness. The desperation builds, and the singer fantasizes about using drugs and alcohol to numb their pain and escape.

The chorus, "Go ahead, I won't be too far behind," serves as a reference to the idea that one will follow another, even down a path of self-destruction. The tragedy of the song lies in the destructive behavior born out of vulnerability, loneliness, and despair. The singer is willing to do whatever it takes to forget about their loneliness, even if it means putting themselves in harm's way.

Line by Line Meaning

I'll just have one more cigarette
Before I go to bed, I'll smoke one last cigarette even though I know it's harmful.

Before I get myself to bed
I plan to sleep soon.

And though it's killing me I know
I understand that the cigarette is hurting me.

I got nowhere else to go
I have no other place to be at this moment.

I grab a needle and a ledge
I pick up a needle and rest it on a ledge, but I'm afraid of hurting myself.

But I don't want to hurt my head
I don't want to cause any physical damage to my head or myself.

I know I love you or so you said
You claimed that you loved me, and I'm aware of that.

Go Ahead, I won't be too far behind
You can proceed without me, but I'll soon follow.

Kill the lights and I will try to keep
Please turn off the lights, but I'll attempt to focus on you.

My mind on you and my body in this bed
I'll think about you while lying in bed.

I'll have just one last look at
Just one final look at you before I head to bed.