Delving into country, folk and soul, With Blasphemy, So Heartfelt is a collaborative project on which Mayfield's sultry voice adds flair to edgy lyrics and melodies. With the help of her brother, bassist David Mayfield, Jessica Lea Mayfield's debut includes cameo appearances by Dr. Dog's Scott McMicken and Frank McElroy on backing vocals.
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Fade Away
Jessica Lea Mayfield Lyrics
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and i feel bad for bothering you
and i feel the pain from my heart and my brain
fade away, fade away, fade away
fade away, fade away, fade away
and as i lie to my friends
to pass it never ends
and i feel reborn like a baby
except now i'm not treated like a child
and i just keep hoping that maybe
you'll fade away, fade away, fade away
fade away, fade away, fade away
let me die in this bed
that i made it is not your fault
that i made it, it's not your fault
don't feel bad 'cause it's not your fault
The song "Fade Away" by Jessica Lea Mayfield has a melancholic theme and hauntingly beautiful melody. It is a reflection on the pains of life that sometimes feel insurmountable, and the ways in which we cope with them. The lyrics describe the singer lying awake at night, feeling overwhelmed by her thoughts and fearful of burdening others with her troubles. She longs for the pain in her heart and mind to fade away, as if it were some ephemeral illusion that might disappear if she wished it hard enough.
Mayfield's powerful vocals convey a sense of vulnerability and weariness, as she sings about lying to her friends in an attempt to hide her pain. The lyrics suggest that this is a pattern that has become habitual, something that she is unable to shake no matter how hard she tries. However, amidst the sorrow and despair there is a glimmer of hope. The singer experiences a sense of rebirth, a chance to start anew, and she clings to the possibility that one day her troubles will "fade away."
Line by Line Meaning
as i lie awake my mind's given away
As I lay in bed unable to sleep, my thoughts are racing out of control.
and i feel bad for bothering you
I feel guilty for burdening you with my problems.
and i feel the pain from my heart and my brain
My emotional and mental suffering is overwhelming me.
fade away, fade away, fade away
I wish my pain and suffering would disappear.
and as i lie to my friends
I am deceiving my friends about the extent of my struggles.
to pass it never ends
Trying to ignore my pain only prolongs it.
and it stays til the future comes
My pain will continue to affect me until I confront it and find healing.
and i feel reborn like a baby
After confronting my pain, I feel a sense of renewal and transformation.
except now i'm not treated like a child
Despite feeling vulnerable, I am not being coddled or patronized like a child.
and i just keep hoping that maybe
I am holding out hope that my pain will eventually fade away.
let me die in this bed
I don't want to face my pain and would rather just give up.
that i made it is not your fault
I take responsibility for the consequences of my actions.
don't feel bad 'cause it's not your fault
I don't want you to feel guilty or responsible for my pain.
Contributed by Caroline M. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
Ascended Serenity
And I feel the pain from my heart and my brain fade away.
Kelsey Young
Lovely.