Hard Way
Jodie Manross Lyrics

You came over with flowers
Your arrival accompanied by flowers was a bizarre way to initiate conflict.

What an odd way to start a war
Bringing flowers to the beginning of a dispute is an unusual approach.

But one is fought with words unspoken
However, this kind of conflict is typically verbal and not involving any physical aggression.

The moment you walk through that door.
As soon as you join me, the tension between us becomes palpable.

I wear one face for you
I put on a different persona when I'm around you.

I wear one for me
I switch back to my authentic self when I'm alone.

I don't want to live like this
I dislike the current state of our relationship.

But baby just let me be.
Please give me some space and let me handle it myself.

When I want you to leave,
Times when I request for you to exit

you turn back around.
You tend to come back to me regardless.

I'm tired, worn and talked to the ground.
Interacting with you constantly leaves me exhausted, depleted, and defeated.

But when I need you most,
At my most desperate times,

you're nowhere to be found
you're absent and unavailable.

Except this sad, sad state
Besides the ongoing miserable situation

that's keeping us down.
that is contributing to our downfall as a couple.

I sure am better, but I'm not well
I may seem to be doing okay, but I'm really not feeling great.

'Cause being with you is like welding metal and hammering nails.
Being in a relationship with you feels like joining two unbendable pieces of metal together and then hammering them into place.

Higher we'll build these fences,
We'll continue to reinforce these emotional barriers,

deeper we'll build these wells.
while also digging ourselves deeper into this emotionally draining situation.

Before we can't get out, only time will tell.
It's difficult to discern if we will ever be able to extricate ourselves from this situation.

All you give is coolness,
All you offer is distance,

while I favor fire
When I prefer passion and intensity.

The way you keep stringing me along,
Your penchant for leading me on and keeping me hanging,

I'm feeling so tired
has left me feeling completely worn out and weary.

I favor fire when all you give is coolness
I want intensity when you only provide distance.

The way we keep carrying on,
The way we keep going like this,

I'm feeling so foolish
makes me feel foolish and embarrassed.

But I like a little clutter,
Although I usually prefer order and cleanliness,

things messed a bit
I don't mind if things are a little disorganized or untidy.

I'm not thrilled with this life,
I'm not particularly excited about this situation.

but at least it feels lived in
However, at least it feels like a genuine experience that I'm truly living.

I could put life into place,
I have the power to organize my life.

but it just takes too much time
It would take too long to do all of that.

With all that we do,
With everything we engage in,

I'm just not satisfied.
I'm just not content with the way things are.

We keep doing this the hard way
We maintain the difficult path of our relationship despite knowing of an easier alternative.

Doing this the hard way
Always choosing the strenuous path of our relationship.

Doing this the hard way
Persisting with the much harder route of our relationship.

But we do it so well.
Although difficult, our relationship perseveres exceptionally well.