Say Yes
Joell Ortiz Lyrics

If God came to you
If you had a direct encounter with God

And asked you "Will you give me your all?"
And asked if you were willing to completely surrender yourself to Him

Would you say "yes?"
Would you respond positively and accept His request?

Lord, I'm all your's, forgive me for all flaws
Lord, I belong to you completely, please forgive me for my imperfections

I've been disobeying your laws
I have been knowingly breaking your commandments

I've been living life how I felt, I been saying "yes" when I want
I have been living according to my own desires, saying "yes" to things without considering your will

I've been dipping into temptation, it was that fool's gold that I'd flaunt
I have been indulging in temptation, pursuing temporary pleasures that hold no real value

It was them devil riches I seeked
I was pursuing material wealth and possessions under the influence of evil influences

It was all of your jewels that I lost
I have lost the valuable spiritual treasures and blessings you provided

Lord, I wanna take this time to thank you
Lord, I want to express my gratitude to you in this moment

Even when I starting driving off course
Even when I began straying from the right path

You ain't let me crash into that wall
You prevented me from experiencing a catastrophic failure

Feel like I was never driving at all
I feel like you were always in control, guiding my actions

I felt your hands all on that wheel
I sensed your presence and guidance throughout my journey

Heard your voice in every dope deal
I recognized your voice of warning and conscience in every illicit transaction

Saw your light in every dark thought
I witnessed your grace and wisdom shining through even in my darkest moments

I was out here, ignoring your will
I was deliberately disregarding your divine plan for my life

I left your side, but you ain't leave mine
I distanced myself from your presence, but you remained steadfastly with me

How many times I said "it's the last time"?
I have made countless promises to change my ways, believing each time would be the last

Lord, I just gotta get off this last time
Lord, I have to break free from this cycle of destructive behavior once and for all

I'mma get a job, save every last dime
I am determined to find employment and save every dollar I can

I lied to my god, life is so hard
I deceived myself and betrayed my faith, making life even more challenging

One of my most used excuses for me to just
I frequently rely on excuses as a justification for my actions

Hold tools and live ruthless
Engage in negative behavior and live without consideration for others

Buying that pro tools was just useless
Investing in expensive equipment for music production turned out to be a waste

Dust collecting, wait a fucking second
The equipment is now neglected and gathering dust, hold on for a moment

I just cussed 'cause check it
I used profanity to emphasize my point, listen carefully

Even though I'm rapping, lot of blessings happen
Despite my career as a rapper, I have experienced numerous blessings

It feel like I'm slapping even more than before
I feel a sense of guilt and regret even more intensely than in the past

Am I disrespecting when I'm spitting this message?
Am I showing disrespect by spreading this message through my music?

Every time I can
Whenever I have the opportunity

Will my fans accept it? Should I even care?
Will my fans embrace this message? Do I need to worry about their reaction?

Still second guessing when I know what's first
I continue to doubt myself despite knowing what should come first

I'mma miss this blessing, man I'm just confessing
I am afraid of missing out on the blessings that come with following God's will, and I am openly confessing this fear

Yeah I'm out the hood, but everything ain't good
Yes, I am no longer in the neighborhood, but my life is still filled with struggles and challenges

There's so many things that I could
There are numerous actions and choices I could make

Be out here doing and knowing that I should
I am aware of what I should be doing, but I often fail to act accordingly

And if it's not getting done, I'm adding more wood
If I am not making progress, it is my responsibility to work harder and take more initiative

To the fire, I'mma burn in later, when I turn, the saviour
I will face the consequences of my actions in the future when I inevitably turn to the Savior

Gon be standing there like you would
He will be there standing, just as he always is, ready to receive and forgive me

Be in my kingdom, but I was singing
I could be in His kingdom and enjoy His blessings, but instead, I was focused on my own desires

And your ears was ringing, you would feel that tingling
If only I had heeded His warnings and listened, I would have felt a sense of conviction

Kinda scratch it off and continue mingling
I often brush off these thoughts and continue to socialize and engage in worldly activities

In a party drinking, all that unclean thinking, while it's blasting off
I find myself in parties, consuming alcohol and engaging in morally impure thoughts, all while ignoring the voice of my conscience

Your new record felt good now, didn't it?
You enjoyed the temporary satisfaction and success that came with releasing a new record, didn't you?

You was on fire, now it's infinite
You were once celebrated and praised, but now the fire has burned out and your success seems endless

Man, I'm getting scared as I'm writing this
I am becoming fearful and anxious as I express these thoughts and feelings

But I'm quiet in the flame as I'm spitting it
I may be fearful, but I remain composed and unwavering as I deliver these lyrics

See this is my deliverance
This song is my way of finding redemption and salvation

For the first time I ain't only talking, I'm living it
For the first time, I am not merely speaking about change, but actively living in accordance with my words

No more laying down with women just
I will no longer engage in casual and irresponsible sexual encounters

Lusting disgusting, trust me my faith is unlimited
I am putting an end to my lustful and degrading desires; trust me, my faith knows no boundaries

No more posting and pivoting on blocks like I'm getting it
I will no longer boast and act like I am involved in illegal activities to seem successful

Countin dividends
Focusing on financial gains

Work up in the Timberlands, servin 'em like Wimbleton
Engaging in illegal activities while wearing Timberlands, serving others like a skilled tennis player at Wimbledon

Hurtin my community worse, every person I distributed
Causing harm to my community by distributing harmful substances to individuals

I attributed to they spirit givin in
I contributed to the downfall and negative influence on their spirits

So every time they sin again that's another strike for me
Every time they engage in sinful behavior, it adds to the burden of guilt and responsibility I carry

Can't believe that kind of livin was aight with me
I cannot believe I was once okay with living such a destructive lifestyle

Man fuck my life, they say life's a B
I am frustrated with my life, as some people say life is a bitch

Guess I was fuckin her too, no surprise to me
I realize that I was also engaging in a destructive relationship with a negative influence, so it comes as no surprise

Since I was handin' out pipe for free
Since I was distributing drugs for free to others

5-Foot-3, nice physique, hop up in the ride with me
Even though I am only 5 feet 3 inches tall, I have a good physical appearance, and women willingly accompany me in my car

And lean back in the driver's seat
They comfortably lean back in the passenger seat

Every night with a stranger, but look how I changed up
Every night spent with a different person, but now I have changed my ways

I'm chillin on the road, got my wife with me
I am now content and at peace on my journey, with my wife by my side

And my boobie's smooth while all the groupies drooled
My wife is confident and unruffled by the attention of other women, while they are envious

She just smilin and enjoyin this life with me
She is simply happy and content, enjoying this life we have together

But see lyin to God has only lied to me, so Lord
I have realized that lying to God has ultimately only caused me to deceive myself, so I pray, Lord

Them dopeboys still tied to me
Those drug dealers are still connected to me, figuratively and perhaps literally

I ain't buyin ki's but they'll die for me and I'll die for them
I am no longer purchasing large quantities of drugs, but they are still loyal to me and willing to sacrifice their lives for my sake, and I would do the same for them

That feels right to me
That loyalty and sense of belonging feels natural and comforting to me

If I'm wrong keep your scrawnies ? And fight for me
If I am mistaken in my beliefs, please keep your criticisms and doubts to yourself and continue to support and fight for me

I got a little bit of Christ in me
I possess a small piece of Christ's teachings and spirituality within me

But I ain't perfect, I feel that worship for your word as it grows inside of me
But I am not flawless, I do struggle, yet I feel a growing sense of devotion and reverence for your teachings

But I feel guilty 'cause though I feel it I don't fully embrace it
However, I experience guilt because even though I sense these feelings, I do not fully accept and embody them

Man I just conceal it
I simply hide and suppress these conflicted emotions

'Til we all alone and then my knees get filthy as I drop before you like "lord, you feel me?
But when I am alone in prayer, I kneel before you, confessing my sins and feeling dirty

You must think I'm silly, even I don't feel me
You must view me as foolish, and even I struggle to understand and accept myself

Feel like I'm actin while my conscience filming
I feel like I am playing a role while my conscience is capturing and recording my actions

Feel like my soul is sayin "Joell, really?"
I feel as if my soul is questioning and challenging me, saying "Joell, is this really who you want to be?"

There's so many, there's so many, there's so many, there's so many
There are numerous thoughts, decisions, and temptations

Things I gotta fix for any of your joy really fulfills me
These are the things I must address and correct before I can truly experience the joy and fulfillment that comes from aligning with your will

Forgive me Lord, man
Please forgive me, Lord

Say yes, oh
Please say yes

Say yes, say yes
Please say yes, please say yes

Say yes, oh
Please say yes