My Immortal
Johanna Hämäläinen Lyrics
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Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face, it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice, it chased away all the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
All of me... me... me...
The lyrics of Johanna Hämäläinen's song "My Immortal" speak of the pain and heartbreak of losing someone dear, and the lingering effects that their memory has on the singer. The opening lines express a weariness and a desire to break free from the sense of being held back by fear and emotional turmoil. The singer's wish for the person who left them to leave completely is due to the haunting presence that remains, a constant reminder of what used to be. The repeated phrase "These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real" emphasizes the depth of the pain and the sense of feeling stuck in it. The final verse speaks of the struggle to let go and move on, despite the fact that the person is still with them in their memories.
The imagery of wiping away tears, fighting away fears and holding hands with the person they lost paints a picture of a deep and loving relationship, which makes the loss even more devastating. The line "But you still have all of me" suggests that even in death or departure, that person still has a hold on the singer's heart and mind, and has left an undeniable imprint on their life. The final repetition of "All of me" reinforces this idea of being completely consumed by the memory of the loved one, unable to fully let go and move on.
Overall, the song is a poignant and powerful expression of grief and loss, and the complex and long-lasting effects it can have on a person's life.
Line by Line Meaning
I'm so tired of being here
I am exhausted of being stuck in this emotional state
Suppressed by all my childish fears
My fear and anxiety are holding me back and preventing my growth
And if you have to leave
In the event of your departure
I wish that you would just leave
I would prefer that you make a clean break and leave completely
'Cause your presence still lingers here
Your essence is still present in my surroundings
And it won't leave me alone
It continues to torment me, constantly reminding me of you
These wounds won't seem to heal
The emotional pain inflicted by your absence remains open and unhealed
This pain is just too real
The sorrow and hurt I am experiencing are incredibly intense and genuine
There's just too much that time cannot erase
The passing of time cannot make the pain go away entirely
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
I used to be there for you when you were struggling
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
When you were afraid, I would do my best to make you feel safe
And I held your hand through all of these years
I was your constant support system throughout all the hardships
But you still have all of me
Even though we are separated, I am still emotionally invested in you
You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Your positive qualities once made a significant impact on my life
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
I am still struggling to move on from the life we shared together
Your face, it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your memory is still powerful enough to affect my ability to find peace and happiness
Your voice, it chased away all the sanity in me
The sound of your voice once provided comfort but now only fuels my pain
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
I have attempted to convince myself that I have moved on from you
But though you're still with me
Your presence is still felt in my life
I've been alone all along
Despite the lingering memories of you, I am still lonely without you physically here
But you still have all of me
My emotional attachment to you still remains despite everything
All of me... me... me...
My feelings for you still consume me entirely
Writer(s): AMY LEE, BEN MOODY, DAVID HODGES
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