MODUS
Joji - Nectar Lyrics

Speed it up, slow it down
I want control over the pace of my life, constantly fluctuating between moving fast and slow.

Need control, need it now
I crave control over my life and everything in it, and I want it immediately.

I need to live a thousand times
I want to experience a multitude of different things and live many different lives.

I cannot stop, I cannot cry
I refuse to show any signs of weakness, and will not let anything get in the way of my goals.

I will not fret, I will not die
I will not succumb to obstacles or challenges in my life, and will keep pushing forward no matter what.

I am machine, I stay alive
I maintain a stringent and efficient lifestyle, striving to continue living without any unnecessary emotional attachments.

Sometimes I think, sometimes I think
Occasionally, I contemplate my life and the decisions I've made.

Sometimes I think, sometimes I (woo)
Other times, I simply let loose and enjoy myself.

I've got no aim, a million rounds
I have no particular goal or direction in life, and feel like I have endless opportunities and options to explore.

Is nothing real? A hunnid pounds
I question the meaning and authenticity of everything in my life, even things that seem concrete and undeniable.

Of heavy steel, it feels so loud
The weight of my lifestyle feels deafening and unrelenting at times.

Tied to my chest, it feels so loud
I feel restricted and burdened by my own lifestyle, as if I am weighed down by something heavy.

I'll take a peek to across the peaks
I will occasionally take a moment to look out at the world and see the beauty that surrounds me.

This grass is neat, I'm quite unique
I appreciate the small things in life that make it unique and worth living.

But I'd like to be, but I'd like to be
However, there are times where I wish to be something or someone else, to try on a different lifestyle.

And I hope this is the hardest part
I hope that my current struggles in life are the most difficult ones that I'll face.

We try, we try
It's a continuous effort to keep pushing and persisting through my challenges.

And when they say they're satisfied
When others claim to be content with their lives, I question whether they are truly honest with themselves.

They're lying, they're lying
I believe that people often hide their true emotions and feelings behind a facade of contentment.

Do forgive me, I've seen the treasure is in the bloom
I understand that the beauty and value of life lies in the journey, not just the end result.

But right now I'm just not strong enough for you
However, at this moment, I may not have the strength or capacity to fully appreciate and embrace the journey.

Sorry, you can see it in my retina
I apologize for any weakness or vulnerability that is evident in my behavior or actions.

Focus in and out, I'm doin' better
I am working on improving myself and becoming more in control of my emotions and actions.

Artificial ghost with no perception
I feel like a disconnected and detached entity in the world, lacking understanding or insight.

I wanna be a Chevy not a Sentra (yeah, yeah, yeah-yeah)
I aspire to be successful and powerful, not just average or mediocre.

I don't feel the way they programmed me to feel today
I reject the idea that others have control over my emotions or actions, and refuse to conform to expectations or norms.

Some pieces fallin' from the waist up, I'm so sorry for delays
I acknowledge my own shortcomings and apologize for any delays or issues caused by my own difficulties.

Just need one moment to erase that burning pain before the rage
I need a moment to calm down and address any pain or anger I am feeling, before it turns into something uncontrollable.

I feel good, I feel good, I feel good, I fixed it
I feel proud of myself for addressing my own issues and working towards bettering myself.