Bouquet of Roses
Jordanny Lyrics
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did you stop missing me?
did you lie when i said i love you, and you said it back?
if you wanted to leave why did you stay?
i gave you everything to make you stay.
but we’re gone together forever
use me, abuse me, contusions on my headyou called me, you’re crying, and now i’m on the way to your house
with the shit that you gave me on fire in my eyes
in my hands a bouquet of roses
if another guy falls for you will you tell him you never loved me?
will you tell him that i was the worst and all of the lies that i spread made your name look like shit and i,
i am the bad one.
or will you tell him i miss you i’m crying i miss you.
i’m begging on my knees i’m crying i miss you.
you broke my little heart into three
one for all of the months that i spent all alone.
you made me feel like my only home was in my head where i could pretend i had six rounds and a barrel to me.
two deaths for every broken piece, broken in peace
but sometimes i wish you could take me back to where we kissed in your treehouse
it was burning down but we kissed in your treehouse
you said babe are you scared i said no and i cried
you don’t even know, i’m fucking terrified
i never wanted to die before i saw you then i tried,
i faked my own suicide,
my friends all have better lives
all of my other wives
oded on all my liesi’m stuck with you now but baby that’s just my life
and i don’t wanna live it if it means being with you over and over again
and i don’t wanna live if it means seeing your face in my nightmares, and when i wake up, you’re next to me
i won’t say your name in this song because i know you’ll be singing along and i don’t want to ruin it for you when you realize you broke
me
maybe i hate you, but i don’t hate us
i will miss this, i will miss us
but i don’t miss you
i don’t hate you, but i hate you too
im like you, unlike you
i care
"Bouquet of Roses" by Jordanny is a raw and emotional song that delves into the complexities of a toxic and abusive relationship. The lyrics express the singer's inner turmoil and conflicting feelings towards their partner. The song opens with questions about the authenticity of their partner's love and the confusion that arises from their mixed signals. The singer wonders why their partner stayed if they wanted to leave and reflects on how they gave their all to make the relationship work. They acknowledge the pain caused by their partner's actions but ultimately accepts that they are stuck together.
The second verse reveals the extent of the abuse the singer has endured, both physically and emotionally, with vivid descriptions of contusions on their head and the turmoil in their relationship. They express fears of being replaced and the worry that their partner will paint them as the villain in their new relationship. The lyrics also touch upon the dark moments the singer experienced, such as contemplating suicide and faking their own death, highlighting the destructive impact the relationship had on their mental health.
The chorus reflects the singer's conflicting emotions, expressing a longing for the past where moments of happiness were shared, even in the midst of chaos. However, they also acknowledge the fear and terror that their partner brought into their life. The song concludes with a mixture of resentment and acceptance, with the singer stating that they don't hate their partner but they don't miss them either. They reflect on the bittersweet nature of the relationship and express that although they may hate certain aspects, they still care in some capacity.
Overall, "Bouquet of Roses" captures the complexity of a toxic relationship, exploring themes of abuse, confusion, longing, and self-destructive tendencies within the lyrics.
Line by Line Meaning
when you stopped kissing me
When you stopped showing affection and intimacy towards me
did you stop missing me?
Did you no longer have feelings of longing and longing for me?
did you lie when i said i love you, and you said it back?
Did you deceive me when I expressed my love towards you and you reciprocated?
if you wanted to leave why did you stay?
If you desired to depart, why did you choose to remain?
i gave you everything to make you stay.
I offered you everything I had in order to convince you to remain.
but we’re gone together forever
But our connection and presence in each other's lives will last eternally.
use me, abuse me, contusions on my head
Take advantage of me, mistreat me, leaving me with bruises on my head.
you called me, you’re crying, and now i’m on the way to your house
You contacted me, in tears, and now I'm heading towards your residence.
with the shit that you gave me on fire in my eyes
With the anger and pain you inflicted upon me burning fiercely in my eyes.
in my hands a bouquet of roses
In my hands, a symbol of love and affection, a bouquet of roses.
if another guy falls for you will you tell him you never loved me?
If another man develops feelings for you, will you inform him that you never loved me?
will you tell him that i was the worst and all of the lies that i spread made your name look like shit and i, i am the bad one.
Will you inform him that I was the worst person, and that my spreading of lies tarnished your reputation, making me the villain?
or will you tell him i miss you i’m crying i miss you.
Or will you instead confess to him that I still long for you, that I'm crying and missing you.
i’m begging on my knees i’m crying i miss you.
I am desperately pleading, on my knees, crying and expressing how much I miss you.
you broke my little heart into three
You shattered my fragile heart into three separate pieces.
one for all of the months that i spent all alone.
One piece symbolizing the duration of time I spent feeling lonely and isolated.
you made me feel like my only home was in my head where i could pretend i had six rounds and a barrel to me.
You made me believe that my only source of comfort was within my own thoughts, where I could imagine having six rounds loaded in a gun barrel pointed towards me.
two deaths for every broken piece, broken in peace
Two metaphorical deaths associated with every shattered fragment, broken in a state of tranquility.
but sometimes i wish you could take me back to where we kissed in your treehouse
Occasionally, I yearn for you to transport me back to the place where we shared a kiss in your treehouse.
it was burning down but we kissed in your treehouse
Despite the treehouse being engulfed in flames, we embraced and kissed within its confines.
you said babe are you scared i said no and i cried
You asked if I was afraid, and I falsely replied 'no' while secretly shedding tears.
you don’t even know, i’m fucking terrified
You have no idea, I am incredibly scared and filled with fear.
i never wanted to die before i saw you then i tried
I never had thoughts of ending my life until I met you, and then I made an attempt.
i faked my own suicide
I pretended to take my own life.
my friends all have better lives
All my friends have more fulfilling and happier lives.
all of my other wives
All the other romantic partners I have had.
oded on all my lies
They perished due to the overwhelming amount of lies I told.
i’m stuck with you now but baby that’s just my life
I am now trapped and tied to you, but unfortunately, that's just how my life turned out.
and i don’t wanna live it if it means being with you over and over again
I do not wish to continue living if it entails repeatedly being with you.
and i don’t wanna live if it means seeing your face in my nightmares, and when i wake up, you’re next to me
I do not desire to exist if it implies encountering your visage within my nightmares, and the torment of waking up to find you beside me.
i won’t say your name in this song because i know you’ll be singing along and i don’t want to ruin it for you when you realize you broke me
I refrain from mentioning your name in this song since I am aware that you will be singing along, and I do not want to spoil it for you when you finally comprehend how much you have damaged me.
maybe i hate you, but i don’t hate us
Perhaps I despise you, but I do not despise the connection and history we shared.
i will miss this, i will miss us
I will deeply long for this, I will ache for our past relationship.
but i don’t miss you
However, I do not miss you as an individual.
i don’t hate you, but i hate you too
I do not harbor hatred towards you, but at the same time, I also strongly dislike you.
im like you, unlike you
I share similarities with you, yet I am also different from you.
i care
I still have feelings of concern and care towards you.
Lyrics © O/B/O APRA AMCOS
Written by: jordan decoste
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