Rainy Day
Josh & Larkin Lyrics

I woke up this morning and realized
I came to the sudden realization this morning that I cannot imagine spending my entire life doing any job because I lack the required patience.

I've been thinking as I age,
As I grow older with only 23 years behind me, I have realized that I have become the person that I never wanted to be.

Not that being me is such a bad thing it just sucks
It is not necessarily that being me is terrible, but it is frustrating to realize that rhyming, which was the core of my music, is not all that there is to it.

To go from aw shucks to sho' nuff' then find out
I used to be humble, but now I find myself more confident, only to realize that it does not mean very much in the bigger picture.

That rhyming as I know it isn't what it's all about.
I have come to the understanding that my lyrical abilities are not what define my creativity and music as a whole.

I can't finish anything I start
Sadly, I lack the persistence to complete most projects I choose to embark upon.

I break hearts and grow flowers on the window sill
My life is marked by growing flowers in my windowsill and breaking hearts along the way.

Still I feel like there's nothing lifelike in these hands.
Despite that feeling of breaking new grounds and doing different things, I have grown bored with my life.

Now I have to lie crying foul someone breathed too loud
I find myself getting irritated over mundane things, and my reaction is dramatic, such as getting mad and crying because someone breathed too loudly.

I get another try can I buy a vowel?
I feel like life is a game show, like the one on TV, where I keep asking for more chances to redeem myself.

Oh my god I'm sick of sob stories.
I am exhausted by stories of people complaining about their lives.

Everybody envies any life but their own
Most people are envious of someone else's life, thinking it is better than their own.

Nobody thinks to stop moping
People often do not take the time to stop wallowing in self-pity.

And get open spend some time alone.
People should take time to reflect and understand their own lives.

I gotta read a book, I need to wear more sweaters,
To forget about my problems, I contemplate doing simple things, like reading a book or wearing more sweaters.

I'm glad I cut my hair I'm glad I stopped wearing underwear.
I am comforted by the changes that I have made in my life, such as cutting my hair and ditching underwear.

I'm better off each day less sun shines through my curtain
When it is dreary outside and the sun is not shining through my windows, I feel better about myself.

I'm certain it shouldn't hurt to get up but it does,
I find it harder than it should be to get myself up and motivated for the day ahead.

I love the buzz I get forgetting every day I've wasted,
I take comfort in forgetting the time I have wasted throughout my life.

I remember kissing but can't remember how kissing tasted.
I hold onto memories, but over time, the details and sensations fade away.

I've faced my fears with beers and got wasted
To deal with my fears, I tend to drink and get drunk.

So I suckle on the forty bottle my brain throttled
I drink from a forty-ounce bottle while my mind is suppressed.

It buckled under the weight of my slumber state
My mind gave way to sleep, ceasing to think properly.

I'm way too involved to appreciate.
I am too involved in life to take the time to appreciate it fully.

I'm too evolved to deviate.
I've come too far to deviate from my current path.

All alone in my room the booze I reek of
I am alone in my room, smelling of alcohol.

I'm asleep at the wheel with no windshield to speak of.
I am in control of nothing, lacking both direction and certainty.

And it's just another rainy day.
It is just another typical day, gray and uninspiring.

Can't see the rainbow there's too much gray.
I am unable to see the beauty and color of life, only the bleakness that surrounds me.

Gotta wash this sad face away.
I need to get rid of my sadness and depression.

On a cold muggy Monday in a dark part of town,
My surroundings and mood align perfectly, as I am in a dark place, both physically and mentally.

I used my body as a host for those just floating around,
I let others' problems and negativity drain me and take over my life.

I heard the chant of the cicadas
I heard the cries of the cicadas, which is overwhelming because they are a common summer noise in my area.

And was haunted by the cadence of their stated sound verbatim.
Their sound stuck with me and only made the feelings of emptiness and loneliness worse.

I was vaporized like skies full of napalm calm
I was destroyed and reduced to nothingness, much like a war-torn land.

Raining down like an a-bomb.
The negative thoughts and feelings in my mind are like a bomb going off, destroying everything in its path.

And here I am just trying to stay strong.
Despite everything going wrong, I am still trying to hold strong and make it through.

In the honey-hopping, flower pot to pot,
A scene of life, with people and flowers moving from one apartment to another.

I pan block to block, all I see is spots to shop
As I walk through my city, all I see are stores and shops.

And lots of cheap spots to sleep and flowerpots
There are plenty of cheap places to stay, but they often lack the warmth and liveliness of home.

And coffee grinds empty mugs and lemon rinds.
Other than cheap hotels and flowerpots, all I see are coffee shops and citrus waste.

I jitterbug but cut a better rug after a bitter mug of all black coffee,
I drink strong coffee to inspire me to get up and move, whether it be dancing or doing chores.

Softly I walk into the next room and think soon it will be me standing there
I contemplate the future, imagining myself as someone else altogether.

Awfully scared to commit but shit I don't want to lose
I am terrified of commitment, but I also never want to be left without anything or anyone at all.

Or have to choose between using my music
I fear that I will have to choose whether to pursue music or something else.

And being used to suit dudes
I do not want my work to be taken and changed by other musicians to satisfy their own purposes.

And now I'm feeling I can't do shit
I am feeling hopeless and incapable of accomplishing anything.

I struggle to remain sober rain jump over mud puddles.
To stay sober and avoid relapse, I distract myself, even if it is by jumping over mud puddles in the rain.

I'm passively subtle act all shy and can't raise my voice,
I am an introvert and struggle to speak up and communicate my concerns.

Though I made my choice.
Despite my fears and doubts, I have made choices that I must live with.

I, so surprised, at how this solemn vow I took to self
Reflecting on my life, I am surprised at the promises I have made to myself in the past.

To go for delf soured in my dour smile,
My past promises to chase personal success have left me with a bitter, unhappy demeanor.

Checked my style,
I examine my approach and way of life.

And with soiled shoes decided I would stay a while,
Despite my doubts and struggles, I decide to stick around and continue with my life for the present.

I parked my car but made to leave,
I may take some temporary respite, but ultimately, I am still searching for something more.

Wanting to say what I wore on my sleeve,
I want to express what I feel, even if it means being too open and vulnerable.

Wanting to stay but I couldn't breathe
I want to stick around, but the pressures and challenges prove to be too much for me to handle.

Or read the signs or redefine reasoning
I am unsure of what direction to take in my life and am struggling to justify my choices.

Even though I can't control my own breathing
Despite my efforts, I continue to be anxious and uneasy.

Looking out my window clouds settle low and misty.
The weather and environment around me mirror my internal feelings of sadness and uncertainty.

Watching tracks of tears rolling down my cheek rather swiftly.
I am unable to hold back my tears, and they come down my cheeks quickly.

Sitting on my bed waiting for the sun to lift me.
I remain seated in my bed, waiting for a renewed sense of hope and inspiration to come through the window with the rising sun.

And it's just another rainy day.
It is another day where my life feels miserable and uncertain, reflected in the dreary, rainy weather outside.

Can't see the rainbow there's too much gray.
Despite the possibility of hope and happiness manifesting in my life, I cannot see it, overwhelmed by the darkness and negativity around me.

Gotta wash this sad face away.
I need to remove the sadness and depression from my life.