Endless Nightmare
Josh A Lyrics

I just wanna wake up and feel weightless
I long to be free from the burden of my troubles and worries

Most of the time I hate this
I often despise the situation I find myself in

Post up all the time with a fake grin
I pretend to be happy when I'm not to avoid being a burden on others

And inside it's rainin', I
Though I may appear fine on the outside, I am internally struggling with emotions and pain

Can't seem to find the rays
I cannot see the positive aspects of my life and feel trapped in my negative thoughts

Peek through the dark, see better days
Despite my negative mindset, I am trying to be optimistic and see a brighter future

I know it's comin' just don't know when
I have faith that things will get better in the future, but I don't know when that will be

Wonderin' when I'll laugh again
I miss the feeling of true happiness and wonder when I'll be able to experience it again

And really fuckin' mean it
I want to genuinely feel happy and laugh from the bottom of my heart

Straight to the depths, I've fuckin' seen it
I have experienced the lowest points in life and have been deeply impacted by them

Hell and back
I have faced many difficult challenges and come out the other side, scarred but alive

That's where I been
I have gone through tough times, which have shaped who I am today

I tell 'em that
I share my past experiences with others to help them understand me better

With a pad n' pen
I express myself through writing and storytelling

These days I stay low
I keep to myself and try to avoid attracting attention

Tell me, where's my raincoat?
I feel caught off guard by the struggles that life throws my way, and am unprepared for them

Gotta face the day like usual
I have to push through each day, even when I don't feel up to it

These demons, yeah, I'm used to 'em
I am familiar with my personal struggles and try to handle them as best I can

Won't let 'em get used to me
I refuse to let my demons take over or define me as a person

Wish I was how I used to be
I miss who I was before tough times changed me

So carefree, so optimistic
I was once free from the weight of my struggles and had a positive outlook on life

Never took a moment to stop and listen, I
I was once too consumed by my own happiness to see the struggles of others

Wish for time back, I really gotta stop that
I often dwell on the past and need to learn to live in the present

'Cause livin' in the past is so exhausting
Being preoccupied with the past takes so much mental and emotional effort

I'm gettin' older, it's never stoppin'
I am growing older, and am realizing that life's challenges don't end after a certain age

Yeah, break down
Sometimes I can't hold everything in and break down emotionally

Crawl in the bed, face down
When I reach my emotional breaking point, I often retreat to bed and hide my face to avoid dealing with the world

Is it all in my head? Am I safe now?
At times of weakness, I question if my struggles are all in my head and if I am truly safe, physically and emotionally

Does anybody else relate? Wow
I am often surprised to find that others share my struggles and wondering if anyone can relate

So many that are just like me
There are many others out there who share similar challenges and hardships

But still I feel so alone at sea
Despite this knowledge, I still feel isolated and alone in my struggles

The waves rush in I'm cavin' in
The problems in my life always seem to compound, until I feel overwhelmed and on the verge of collapse

I just wanna fuckin' breathe
Amidst all the chaos and struggles, all I want is a moment to catch my breath and find some peace

Can anybody out there hear me?
I am calling out to anyone who might be listening and willing to help

Is anybody out there near me?
I am looking for someone to support me in my struggles and offer me empathy and understanding

I don't wanna wake up scared
I fear what each new day may bring and don't want to face it alone

I've been runnin' from this endless nightmare
I have been trying to escape the constant cycle of pain and struggle, but it seems to follow me wherever I go

I just wanna wake up with a calm soul
All I want is to have inner peace instead of the constant turmoil I feel

Wish I could overcome my obstacles
I hope to find a way to navigate the challenges in my life and overcome them

Always feel right through the coals
I feel like I am constantly being tested by life and pushed to my limits

Wish the world could find a common goal
I yearn for a world where everyone is working towards a positive common goal, instead of being divided and in conflict

But I, work through the night, and I see that
Despite all my struggles, I am still determined to work hard and persevere

Most people don't like the feedback
I have learned that not everyone is open to constructive criticism or feedback

Most people don't really care
I have realized that many people don't take the time to truly understand others, and can be apathetic to the struggles of others

And most people aren't really there
I have felt let down by others who I thought would be there to support me through my difficult times

So the darkness is my solace
At times, my struggles make me feel like I am in a dark place, and I must learn to find peace and safety within myself

And the studio is my office
For me, music is a way to express my feelings and cope with my struggles

Try to help out all my friends
I try to be supportive of those around me and help them through their challenges

But had to learn that some just don't want it
I have learned that not everyone is ready or willing to accept help, even if it comes from a place of love and kindness

So I, try to move on, keep it goin'
I try to put my struggles behind me and stay positive, even when it's difficult

Always write new songs
Creating new music is a way for me to process my emotions and heal from my struggles

Take a break and then come back strong
I recognize the importance of taking breaks from my struggles and coming back stronger and more resilient

Only path that I've known too long yeah
Navigating the challenges of life through music has become my personal coping mechanism and has been a part of my life for a long time