Heartbreaks
Josh A Lyrics

Oh shit
Oh no, something unexpected or undesirable has occurred.

The clock strikes twelve
It's getting late and time is passing by.

I need four more hours and twenty more minutes
I wish I had more time before I can truly be myself.

'Til I can be myself
I can't truly express who I am until a certain time.

I need a new outlet
I need a new way to express myself or cope with my emotions.

It's starting to get in my head
These thoughts and emotions are beginning to consume and affect me mentally.

Contemplating things I should've never said (yeah)
Reflecting on past words or actions that I regret expressing.

The thought of you gives me chills
Thinking about you evokes intense emotions or sensations within me.

That thrill
This excitement or anticipation I feel when I think about you.

I wanna show you the real me
I desire to reveal my true self to you.

So we can catch some feels
To experience deep emotions or connections together.

Don't trip
Don't worry or stress.

Relax
Calm down and find peace.

Take a hit
Inhale or consume something to alter my mental state.

Feel the lift
Experience a change in mood or perspective.

Take you to cloud nine
Bring you to a state of extreme happiness or euphoria.

'Cuz that's my vibe (yeah)
Because that's the atmosphere or energy I embody.

Every day feels the same
Each day lacks excitement or differentiation.

I think I am going insane
I feel like I am losing my sanity.

Drinking just to numb the pain
I consume alcohol in an attempt to escape or dull my emotional pain.

But I can't take all the blame
I'm not solely responsible for the situation or its outcome.

To see you smile and touch your face (yeah)
The joy of witnessing your happiness and physical connection.

In your arms where I felt safe
I experienced a sense of security and comfort when I was embraced by you.

But every good thing comes to an end
Unfortunately, all positive experiences eventually reach a conclusion.

Lying alone in my bed
I am alone, lying down in my bed, feeling isolated.

Thinkin' bout what you said
Reflecting or replaying the words you expressed to me in my mind.

I be stuck in my head
I get trapped in my own thoughts and cannot escape them.

Tryna forget
Attempting to let go of or erase the memories or emotions associated with you.

About you
Concerning you or related to you.

You (yeah)
Referring to you specifically.

Flippin' through the pages of this book of life
Navigating through the various experiences and phases of my existence.

Stuck on chapter nine
Feeling stagnant or unable to progress beyond a certain point in my life.

Don't know what I wanna do with my time
I lack clarity or direction regarding how to spend my time and what activities to pursue.

Smoking the days away
Engaging in excessive smoking to pass the hours without purpose or fulfillment.

Trying to ease the pain
Attempting to alleviate or alleviate my emotional suffering.

It's all got me feeling insane
All of these circumstances and emotions make me feel mentally unstable.

Don't wanna feel this way (alright)
I desire to no longer experience these negative emotions.

In my head again
Once again, my thoughts and worries overwhelm me.

Thinkin' about the past times
Reflecting on and reminiscing about moments that have already occurred.

Like it was last night
These memories seem as fresh and vivid as if they happened just yesterday.

I don't wanna fight
I don't want to argue or engage in conflict.

Just take me back to all the good times
I long for a return to the enjoyable and positive moments we shared.

Good days
Times when everything felt great and positive.

Back when it was all a vibe
In the past, everything felt harmonious and in sync.

(All a vibe)
Referring to the collective energy and atmosphere of the past.

Yeah
An expression of agreement or affirmation.

I'm over it
I am finished or done with it.

Over all the toxic shit
Fed up with all the negative and harmful aspects or situations.

Don't fuck with no petty bitch
I don't want to associate or engage with someone who is childish or immature.

You don't even know what you did to me
You are unaware of how your actions or behavior have affected me.

So fuck love
I reject or have given up on the concept of romantic love.

Fuck trust
I no longer have faith or belief in trustworthiness.

I'ma get fucked
I will engage in activities that provide temporary pleasure or distraction.

Drink until I'm drunk
Consume alcohol excessively to the point of intoxication.

Fuck until I'm numb can't get enough (yeah)
Engage in sexual activities to the extent that I become desensitized and crave more.

Heartache
Intense emotional pain or sorrow.

Heartbreak
The crushing of one's emotions or spirit due to a broken relationship or experience.

I'm healing just for my sake
I am recovering and undergoing a process of emotional healing for my own well-being.

Feelin' like I'm climbing up a mountain
Experiencing the challenge of overcoming obstacles or difficulties that feel insurmountable.

Never think I'm gonna feel the same
I doubt if I will ever be able to experience similar emotions or connections again.

But oh well
Despite the circumstances, I accept or resign to the situation.

I guess that's the price you pay
This is the consequence or cost of being in love when it is not reciprocated.

When you're in love but they don't feel the same
Being deeply in love with someone who does not share the same feelings.