Suicide Forest
Josh A Lyrics

I got omens, I got demons
I have signs of impending doom and inner demons

Right behind my back they scheming
They are always plotting against me behind my back

This that Josh A, Jake Hill season
This is the time for Josh A and Jake Hill to shine

50 takes, we're never leaving
We will keep working until we get it right, never giving up

Laugh at me, Laugh at me
Mock me, make fun of me

Make you run right for your life
Instill fear in you, make you run away for your safety

Talk that shit, talk that shit
Speak negatively about me, criticize me

Know you 'bout to pay the price!
Be aware that there will be consequences for your actions!

Man I've been dead and so exhausted
I feel emotionally and physically drained, as if I'm already dead

I tripped and fell into the coffin
I stumbled and found myself trapped in a state of despair

My crypt got demons in it often
My inner thoughts and feelings are haunted by demons regularly

These zombies walk but they been rottin'
People around me seem alive, but they are decaying inside

I feel like Ash in evil dead
I feel like the singer from the movie Evil Dead, constantly fighting against evil

Coming for your head
I am determined to conquer and surpass any obstacles or adversaries

Chainsaw hand let the blood run red
Using metaphorical chainsaw hands, I am ready to shed blood to achieve my goals

I've been living in the past
I have been dwelling on past mistakes and experiences

I've been living in the rasp
I have been consumed by a feeling of emptiness and discontent

Better hunt the IRS if I get a death tax
If I were to die, the government would try to take all my money, so I better hide it

Still drivin' right in a Honda
I am humble and continue to strive for success even with limited resources

How the fuck are they taking
I am frustrated and confused about how others are taking advantage of me

Like half of my wealth fuck the feds
The government is unfairly taking a significant portion of my assets, and I resent it

Give 'em so much money
I have given the government a lot of money in taxes

I can't afford to even kill myself
I am in such a financial strain that I cannot even afford to end my own life

My life been trashed, right out the bag
My life has been completely ruined and thrown away

Work so much I don't ever relax
I have devoted so much time and effort to work that I never take a break to rest and rejuvenate

Boy face facts, shit's too trash
Wake up and acknowledge the truth, things are extremely terrible

No awareness I don't fuck wit that yuh
I don't engage with people who lack awareness and understanding

All that shit that you've been playin'
All the nonsense and deception you've been engaging in

Tellin' me this sound like someone
Claiming that my music sounds like someone else's

That I don't fuck with
That I have no connection or interest in

Fuck the motive and then fuck the fame
I don't care about the intentions or the desire for fame

I don't ever wanna join the game
I have no desire to be part of the music industry and its games

Fuck that double XL
I don't care about being featured in the Double XL magazine

That shit's just not in my lane
That is not the path or direction I want to pursue

I got some problems, not everybody sees 'em
I have personal issues that are not visible to everyone

I just keep 'em to myself
I choose to keep my problems and struggles hidden and deal with them alone

Sometimes I wish I wasn't breathing
There are moments when I wish I didn't exist

But I'm still here, I won't go down easy
Despite my struggles, I am determined to continue living and fighting

And I know I'm not the only one
I am aware that there are others who also face similar challenges

Ye everybody's got the demons
Everyone has their own personal struggles and inner demons

Come into my mind, climb up the vines
Enter into my thoughts and emotions, slowly navigating through the tangled mess

Don't ask me questions, yeah I'm fine
Don't inquire about my well-being, as I will always respond with 'I'm fine' even if it's not true

Take a look inside and try
Take a deeper look into my inner self and attempt to understand

To find why I'm alive, i don't know why
Search for the reasons behind my existence, as even I am uncertain

I walked through the valley of the shadow
I have experienced darkness and despair in my life

Of the fuckin' death
A metaphorical representation of the presence and fear of death

I'm clinging to the thread hanging from
I am desperately holding onto a slim hope or lifeline

The ceiling till there's nothing left
Clutching onto existence until there is no more hope