Joshua grew up in Huntersville, NC where at age three he started singing gospel music at Rockwell Baptist Church. From the church, he adopted the gospel hand wave, the rhythm, the wailing, and most importantly the embodiment of spirit. Ever since those early days in the choir, Joshua has oozed with uncontainable emotion and passion.
Integrating such soulful energy into his original pieces, Joshua has captured a spirit in his performance, which encompasses both the flailing of a fervent preacher and the intimacy of your best friend telling you a story
Over My Head
Joshua Panda Lyrics
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Spent some time apart and things got loose
And the closer that we got
Was like another knot in the noose
But we apologized
Tears fell from our eyes we made it work
But after one too many drinks
Your eyes still make me think I am a jerk
And I've tried and tried and more
But it's something that you just cannot ignore
What I did or what I may have said
You say it's fine but darling instead
You hold it over my head
You hold it over my head
The wedding was so quick
It came so fast it made folks sick, oh what a fever
The courtship it was wild
Suddenly there was a child I'll never leave her
So I found some steady pay
Said all the things you say when you have a family
But soon both our fires died
It was too big to hide still you stayed with me
And we've tried and tried and more
But there are no avenues left to explore
We sit in the dark for our fire's dead
And you say it's fine but darling instead
You hold it over my head
You hold it over my head
Your tears fall down like cinder blocks
Making it so hard for you to walk
How will you ever know the sun is so warm
When all you do is sit and think about the storm
Time has aged our skin
But we're still the same within we've just gotten older
We don't get out as much
I can still feel your touch, and it's gotten colder
The kids have moved away
You still call them every day they are your scapegoat
But when you hang up on the phone
Though I am here you are alone, you are a ghost
And it's been so many years
And you're still haunted by all the same fears
So many drunken nights I have heard you say
That you would leave that you would run away
And you hold that over my head
You hold it over my head
When we're layin' in our bed
The lyrics to Joshua Panda's song "Over My Head" tell the story of a couple who have been through a lot together, including a quick wedding, a child, and years of trying to make their relationship work. However, the past still looms large, as the singer of the song acknowledges that they have made mistakes in the past and that these mistakes are still held against them by their partner.
The first verse of the song suggests that there was a time when the couple's relationship was on the rocks, with "things [getting] loose" and the relationship feeling like "another knot in the noose". However, they were able to work things out and "make it work", although the singer still feels like a "jerk" for their previous behavior. Despite trying to move on from the past, the singer acknowledges that their partner "hold[s] it over [their] head".
The second verse of the song suggests that the couple have been together for a long time and have grown apart. The singer acknowledges that they have tried everything to fix the relationship, but there are "no avenues left to explore". They are still together, but their fire has gone out and they are no longer passionate about each other. The singer also acknowledges that their partner is haunted by "the same fears" they have always had, and that these fears are still holding the relationship back.
Overall, "Over My Head" is a poignant song that deals with themes of regret, aging, and the weight of the past on a long-term relationship. Despite the difficulties they have faced, the couple in the song are still together and trying to make things work, but the past continues to loom large and prevent them from moving on.
Line by Line Meaning
We exchanged our heart
We shared our love.
Spent some time apart and things got loose
We were separated and things were not as strong as before when we got back together.
And the closer that we got
As we got closer together again.
Was like another knot in the noose
It felt like we were tying ourselves up again by getting closer.
But we apologized
We said we were sorry.
Tears fell from our eyes we made it work
We cried but we fixed things between us.
But after one too many drinks
But when I drank too much.
Your eyes still make me think I am a jerk
I still feel guilty and bad when I look into your eyes.
And I've tried and tried and more
I have tried countless times.
But it's something that you just cannot ignore
But you cannot forget.
What I did or what I may have said
What I did or what I said before.
You say it's fine but darling instead
Even though you say it's okay, it is not.
You hold it over my head
You remind me of my past wrongs.
The wedding was so quick
We got married hastily.
It came so fast it made folks sick, oh what a fever
It happened so fast that people were shocked.
The courtship it was wild
We were passionate during our dating period.
Suddenly there was a child I'll never leave her
We had a child that I will always take care of.
So I found some steady pay
I found a stable job to support our family.
Said all the things you say when you have a family
I spoke and acted responsibly as a head of the family.
But soon both our fires died
Our love and passion for each other faded over time.
It was too big to hide still you stayed with me
Even though our problems were too great to ignore, you stayed with me.
But there are no avenues left to explore
We have tried everything and there are no more solutions.
We sit in the dark for our fire's dead
We feel lost and hopeless because our love has faded.
Your tears fall down like cinder blocks
You cry so hard that it is painful for you.
Making it so hard for you to walk
Your tears make it difficult for you to move on.
How will you ever know the sun is so warm
You will not be able to appreciate the good things in life.
When all you do is sit and think about the storm
When you only focus on the negative things that happened in the past.
Time has aged our skin
We have grown older.
But we're still the same within we've just gotten older
Even though we have aged, our personalities have not changed much.
We don't get out as much
We do not go out often anymore.
I can still feel your touch, and it's gotten colder
We are not as affectionate with each other as before.
The kids have moved away
Our children have left home.
You still call them every day they are your scapegoat
You use our children as a way to avoid dealing with our issues.
But when you hang up on the phone
But when you finish talking to them.
Though I am here you are alone, you are a ghost
Even though I am physically here with you, emotionally you are alone and disconnected from me.
And you're still haunted by all the same fears
You are still afraid of the same things as before.
So many drunken nights I have heard you say
I have heard you express your frustrations and sadness when you were drunk.
That you would leave that you would run away
That you wanted to leave me and start a new life.
You hold that over my head
You still remember and use it against me.
When we're layin' in our bed
Even when we are in bed together.
You hold it over my head
You cannot let go of the past and our problems.
Contributed by Noah O. Suggest a correction in the comments below.