Behind Closed Doors
Josie Charlwood Lyrics

Maybe I would say to you Everything I wanted to But you′re halfway out the door
I wish I could have shared my feelings, but you were already leaving.

I wish that I could say to you Everything I wanted to You don't listen anymore
I wish you still cared about what I had to say, but it seems like you don't.

We haven′t spoken since, that envelope I found untorn I wasn't proud of what I saw We haven't spoken since that letter that I found on the floor I don′t read it through anymore
We haven't talked since I found the unopened letter, and I'm ashamed for reading it. I don't read it anymore.

Now everything has changed Remember when I wanted you, I needed you I knew that it would make me pay I thought that we could make it through ′cause you could choose I didn't wanna turn away Even though I needed to, I needed you more I needed you more
Things are different now. I used to want and need you, but I knew it wouldn't be easy. I thought we could overcome anything together, but I was wrong. Despite needing to leave you, I still wanted you more.

Walking out to school each day Helped me take my mind away From destruction I called my own You called me a waste of time I offered up this heart of mine When you told me you felt alone.
Going to school was my escape from my own problems. You were unsupportive and critical of me, but I still gave you my love when you felt alone.

Maybe you were right, the times you told me I should leave I had faith in you wanting what was the best for me Maybe you were right, you shouted at me, face pasty-white I learned to recognise you from the state of your eyes.
Maybe you were right when you said I should leave. I trusted you to look out for me, but maybe you just wanted me out of your life. Your pale, angry face became a familiar sight.

You got a substance heart A substance mind It tears you apart, it takes all your time You got a substance heart An infected mind It tears me apart, to watch you turn to white To watch you turn to white It was no fault of mine.
You struggle with addiction, and it consumes you. It's painful to see you waste away, but it's not my fault.

Things have changed Remember when I wanted you, I needed you I knew that it would make me pay I thought that we could make it through when you could choose I didn′t wanna turn away Even though I needed to, I needed you more I needed you more.
Things are different now. I used to want and need you, but I knew it wouldn't be easy. I thought we could overcome anything together, but I was wrong. Despite needing to leave you, I still wanted you more.