The band released two CDs, Metasexual and Viberate, and had notable chart hits in Canada with "Beautiful" and "Sometimes Wanna Die".
Following the band's breakup, Slone released a solo album, and was a contestant on Rock Star: INXS. Tony Rabalao also went solo and put out a CD under the name Lehlo but plays in Tara's band as well. Tom McKay is a producer and worked on Tara's and Tony's CDs. Thomas Payne is writing and producing with other artists.
Sometimes I Wanna Die
Joydrop Lyrics
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Don't worry 'bout nothing
She said I'm not gonna let this one go
Nobody's on my side
Nobody seems to see
How much, how deep, how far these things can be
My eyes are dry and, I
I, I still don't even know you
I, I still wish that I could hold you
I, I sometimes want to die
And everywhere I go
And everyone I see
Somehow almost sets me free
And the space where we meet
Is different from the rest
And I just can't seem to forget that
My eyes are dry and
I, I still don't even know you
I, I still wish that I could hold you
I, I sometimes want to die
I sometimes want to die
I sometimes wanna...
And you were at the start
And now you are the end
And you left me with nothing to defend
I need the voice of a good friend
Can't stop myself from laughing
No matter how sad these things can be
These things can be
My eyes are bright and
I, I still don't even know you
I, I still wish that I could hold you
I, I still don't even know you
I, I sometimes want to die [x3]
Yeah, I sometimes want to die
I, I sometimes want to die [x4]
Yeah, I sometimes wanna...
The first verse of Joydrop's song "Sometimes Wanna Die" describes a woman who is feeling alone in her struggle. She says not to worry about anything because she won't let it go, but no one seems to be there for her. She feels like nobody understands how much she's hurting, and the pain is overwhelming. The chorus of the song repeats the line "my eyes are dry," which could be interpreted in a few different ways. It could mean that the woman has cried all she can and there are no more tears left, or it could signify an emotional shutdown, where she's so hurt that she can't even cry anymore. She says that she wishes she could hold the person she's singing about, but she can't, and sometimes she wants to die.
The second verse touches on how the woman feels when she's out in the world. Even though she's surrounded by people, she still feels alone. She says that there's a "space where we meet" that's different from the rest, but she can't forget it. It's possible that this is referencing the person she's singing about and the relationship they used to have. The chorus repeats, and then the bridge of the song comes in. It's revealed that the person she's singing about was at the start and now is the end. They left her with nothing to defend, and she needs the voice of a good friend. The song ends with the chorus repeating again.
Overall, the song seems to be about a woman who's hurting deeply, possibly from the loss of someone important to her. She feels alone and like nobody understands, and the pain is overwhelming. The chorus repeating the line "sometimes wanna die" is a powerful image that underscores the intensity of her pain. Despite all of this, there's still some hope in the song. She talks about a special connection she had with the person she's singing about, and how that space they shared is still with her.
Line by Line Meaning
Don't worry 'bout one thing
Do not stress about anything specific
Don't worry 'bout nothing
Do not stress about anything at all
She said I'm not gonna let this one go
She promised to hold onto this situation
Nobody's on my side
There is no one to support me
Nobody seems to see
Nobody can understand
How much, how deep, how far these things can be
The extent and gravity of these issues are unfathomable
My eyes are dry and, I
I am not crying, and I
My eyes are dry and
I am not crying
I, I still don't even know you
I do not comprehend you fully
I, I still wish that I could hold you
I yearn to hold you tight
I, I sometimes want to die
In some cases, I wish to cease living
And everywhere I go
Wherever I travel
And everyone I see
And whoever I meet
Somehow almost sets me free
Somehow liberates me slightly
And the space where we meet
The place we encounter
Is different from the rest
Is dissimilar to any other
And I just can't seem to forget that
And I cannot seem to overlook that
And you were at the start
And initially, you were present
And now you are the end
And now, you are the conclusion
And you left me with nothing to defend
You left me with no cause to fight
I need the voice of a good friend
I require the words of a close companion
Can't stop myself from laughing
I cannot prevent myself from laughing
No matter how sad these things can be
Despite how despairing these things may seem
My eyes are bright and
My eyes are shining
I, I still don't even know you
I still do not fully understand you
I, I still wish that I could hold you
I still desire to embrace you
I, I still don't even know you
I still do not comprehend you fully
I, I sometimes want to die [x3]
Occasionally, I long for death
Yeah, I sometimes want to die
Yes, sometimes I wish to die
I, I sometimes want to die [x4]
Occasionally, I desire to end my life
Yeah, I sometimes wanna...
Yes, sometimes I desire...
Lyrics © O/B/O APRA AMCOS
Written by: LEHLOHONOLO TONY RABALAO, TARA KAMALA SLONE, THOMAS PAYNE, THOMAS ALEXANDER MCKAY
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@lonelydwightfrye
This song has aged amazingly well. Could easily be a hit today.
@cannedlaughter2535
IF that shite vomit called autotune didn't push everything else out.
@paladro
@@cannedlaughter2535 you'll be ok, there are still musicians and singers out there... just look.
@CripplingDuality
@@cannedlaughter2535autotune was already in wide use by the early 00s
@maryjane4846
I bought this cd in the early 2000s just because i love this song!!! It just popped up in my head after all those years!! 💜🎸🎶🎙🎶🎧💜 2024😍
@larryhurley2314
Damn the Canadian bands had it going on in the late late 90's and early 00's !!! My tv stayed on Much Music Canada back then.
@BlushResponse1
Same
@mattott4274
They really did. I was in college at the right time... The acts we got to see touring all the little venues were AAA
@cnnlive10
How did Joydrop not make it big?
@catvevo49
This underrated music rocks.