Jucifer is an American doom metal duo, which was founded in 1993. The band'… Read Full Bio ↴Jucifer is an American doom metal duo, which was founded in 1993. The band's members are Gazelle Amber Valentine on lead guitar and vocals, and her husband Edgar Livengood on drums. Jucifer is notable for the extreme volume at which they perform, and the gigantic wall of amplification used for Valentine's guitar, as well as the dichotomy that has existed between much of the recorded material and their live shows. They are also notable for incessant touring beginning in the mid-1990s. In 2000 Jucifer moved into an RV and became completely "nomadic in nature", preferring to tour constantly, living in their tour vehicle, rather than following the normal practice of album release/tour/time at home.

The husband-and-wife duo were starring in a film by Derek Cianfrance titled Metalhead, a drama centering on a drummer suffering from hearing loss and learning the meaning of silence. Livengood and Valentine play as themselves acting a fictitious story in the film. The film was in production since 2009 but was cancelled few years later. Cianfrance would later executive produce Sound of Metal, which is a rework of Metalhead co-written and directed by Darius Marder. Although Cianfrance used Jucifer as inspiration for his original plot, which in turn inspired the reworked version, neither film is biographical.

In 2015, Jucifer previewed teasers for a "music video biopic" called NOMADS: Build To Destroy which features tour footage and documentary materials filmed and assembled by the band. Livengood is credited with photography and Valentine with editing. The film was slated for a 2017 release.

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Jucifer Lyrics

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I can't tell you what i want and i can't tell you what i need
I can't stand the way we live and yesterday i slid again, yeah
I can't touch what i desire and i can't reach to get up higher
And i can't be the way i've been but every day i slip again

And i can't stand
I slide my back down the wall
Can't stand

I slide... and i fall

I can't tell you what i want and i can't tell you what i need
I can't even sell myself another plan that won't succeed, yeah

And i can't stand
I slide my back down the wall
Can't stand
I slide... and i fall

Sometimes i slip
Sometimes i slip
Sometimes i slip
Sometimes i slip

And i fell
Long way down

Night is coming
And i'm alone again...

Overall Meaning

In this song, Jucifer explores the feeling of being stuck in a cycle of failure and inability to change. The singer admits to not being able to articulate what they want or need, and feeling frustrated with the way they are living their life. They describe slipping again and again, unable to reach their desired goals and aspirations. The chorus of "can't stand, I slide my back down the wall, can't stand, I slide... and I fall" conveys a sense of hopelessness and defeat. The repeated phrase of "sometimes I slip" emphasizes the regularity and inevitability of these failures. The final lines of the song express an intense loneliness and isolation, as the singer falls a long way down and is left alone once again.

Overall, this song captures the internal struggle of someone who wants to change but feels trapped in their own patterns of behavior. It speaks to the difficulty of breaking free from these habits and striving towards something better.

Line by Line Meaning

I can't tell you what i want and i can't tell you what i need
I am unable to express or articulate what it is that I truly want or require in my life.

I can't stand the way we live and yesterday i slid again, yeah
The way we are living is unbearable and yesterday I relapsed once more, proving my inability to overcome my addiction or habit.

I can't touch what i desire and i can't reach to get up higher
The things that I truly crave, whether it be success or contentment, seem to be out of my reach and unattainable.

And i can't be the way i've been but every day i slip again
I know that I need to change my ways but I find myself constantly falling back into my old patterns and habits.

I slide my back down the wall
I physically or metaphorically slide down a wall, representing the feeling of defeat or loss of hope.

Can't stand
I am unable to bear or tolerate the situation at hand.

I slide... and i fall
I continue to slip, resulting in my fall or failure.

I can't even sell myself another plan that won't succeed, yeah
I am unable to convince myself of another plan or idea that won't ultimately fail.

Sometimes i slip
Occasionally, I allow myself to make a mistake or give in to temptation.

And i fell
I made a mistake and suffered the consequences, either emotionally or physically.

Long way down
The consequences of my mistake or failure were significant and severe.

Night is coming
I am experiencing a dark and difficult time in my life.

And i'm alone again...
Despite my struggles, I am still isolated and left to deal with my problems alone.

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