Vivien
Judie Tzuke Lyrics


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I want to follow you down this long journey you've begun
I want to wake up next to you and be your moon and your sun
I want to hold you, I want to control you
There's no doorway you can hide, check me I'll be at your side
Stand you up if you should fall, what I've got I'll give it all
Then I could hold you, then I could control you

I've got this madness you should know
(It haunts me, calls me)
Caught in my heart I can't let go
(It haunts me, calls me)
Like Vivien, like Vivien
I close my eyes like Vivien
I smile that smile like Vivien

Demons dancing in my head, I can't give you room to breathe
It's an illness that's been fed by the fear that you might leave
I want to hold you, I want to control you

Mirror, mirror on the wall, my reflection says it all
If I could only change the place with a picture of her face
Then I could hold you, then I could control you.

I've got this madness you should know
(It haunts me, calls me)
Caught in my heart I can't let go
(It haunts me, calls me)
Like Vivien, like Vivien




I close my eyes like Vivien
I smile that smile like Vivien

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to Judie Tzuke's song "Vivien" express a complicated mix of emotions that the singer feels towards their object of desire. They want nothing more than to be with this person, to "follow [them] down this long journey" and be their everything - their "moon and [their] sun". However, at the same time, they are wracked with insecurity and fear that this person will leave them, leading to "demons dancing in [their] head" and an overwhelming need to control and possess.


The singer repeatedly references "Vivien", perhaps alluding to Vivien Leigh, the actress best known for her role as Scarlett O'Hara in "Gone with the Wind". Like Vivien, the singer feels trapped by their own inner turmoil and constant self-examination, unable to fully enjoy or appreciate what they have in front of them. The chorus reinforces this idea, with the repeated phrase "It haunts me, calls me" suggesting that the singer's desire to possess this person is taking over their entire being.


Overall, "Vivien" is a complex and emotionally raw meditation on desire, control, and insecurity. The singer's conflicting emotions are reflected in the contrast between the song's gentle, almost wistful melody and its darker lyrical content.


Line by Line Meaning

I want to follow you down this long journey you've begun
I want to be by your side throughout this long journey that you have started.


I want to wake up next to you and be your moon and your sun
I want to be your everything and provide you with unconditional love and support.


I want to hold you, I want to control you
I want to have power over every aspect of your life.


There's no doorway you can hide, check me I'll be at your side
I will always be there for you, no matter what obstacles you face.


Stand you up if you should fall, what I've got I'll give it all
I will support you when you are down and give everything I have to ensure your happiness.


Then I could hold you, then I could control you
If I have complete power over you, I will finally be able to possess you.


I've got this madness you should know (It haunts me, calls me)
I have a deep obsession that consumes me and won't leave me alone.


Caught in my heart I can't let go (It haunts me, calls me)
This obsession has a strong grip on me, and I am unable to shake it off.


Like Vivien, like Vivien
I am living my life like Vivien, who was notorious for her obsessive personality.


I close my eyes like Vivien
In my mind, I am living out the life of Vivien and her unhealthy desires.


I smile that smile like Vivien
I am displaying the same behavior and emotions as Vivien.


Demons dancing in my head, I can't give you room to breathe
My mind is so consumed with my obsession that I am suffocating you in the process.


It's an illness that's been fed by the fear that you might leave
My obsession has become an illness that is fueled by the fear of losing you.


Mirror, mirror on the wall, my reflection says it all
When I look at myself in the mirror, I see the reflection of my obsessive behavior.


If I could only change the place with a picture of her face
If I could only become the object of my obsession, I would finally be satisfied.




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