Mary Jane
Judy Blank Lyrics

How many times do I need to fix myself
Expressing frustration at inability to improve despite effort

Learn another trick from my better half
Acknowledging that someone close to her has insights she lacks

She knows
Accepting that this person is better and wiser than her

That I try to look at things in a different light
Attempting to adopt a new perspective

And yet I never seem to do it right
Failing to truly change despite trying

I know
Admitting and facing a personal flaw

That I drink too much
Acknowledging a clear unhealthy habit

And I eat too much
Owning up to another negative behaviorPattern

Everybody says I don't sleep enough
Receiving criticism from others about a lack of rest

And yet I don't ever get to see the sunlight in the morning
Being oriented towards a different daily TimeTable by her choices

Right now I don't need the money
Currently not prioritizing financial success for personal reasons

It's all in the game
Seeing life as a process with no guaranteed outcomes but possibly with hidden benefits

And yes I could have a job but it's not the same
Acknowledging that some vocational choices are more fulfilling than others

And boy I'm trying but nothing's ever good enough
Expressing disappointment with her own efforts despite trying really hard

So c'mon sweet Mary Jane
Invoking marijuana as a source of liberation from negative patterns or emotions

Crawl into my head and relieve the pain
Seeking psychological relief or distraction

My cigarettes don't taste as good as you
Valuing marijuana above another substance she commonly uses

I'm gonna make it big someday
Maintaining ambition despite life's obstacles

I'll wake up with my pockets full of gold
Having a materialistic goal that she hopes to achieve

I make up the rules as I move as I do my thing
Living life according to her own volition and intuition

Surprise surprise what the evening brings you know
Not knowing what life or each day will bring but being optimistic

Education has never done the trick for me
Suggesting that formal schooling failed to prepare her for life's challenges

But I've got an A in toxicology
Having succeeded academically in a potentially harmful subject

I still got a million things that I could be tomorrow
Finding her personality open-ended and mutable

But why would I need to see the sunlight in the morning
Questioning the conventional need for a daily routine

Right now I don't got the money
Being at a current financial disadvantage

But pap's got a lot and he don't mind giving me some of what he's got
Benefiting from privileged family support

Cause he knows I'm trying
Receiving unconditional help from someone who believes in her

But nothing's every good enough
Still feeling underappreciated despite the support

Tired of the uptight
Being annoyed with overly controlling or judgmental people

Try to see the good side
Encouraging adaptive positive thinking

'stead of looking down tryin' to criticize on me
Rejecting unhelpful critique

I'll be running shotgun
Riding in the passenger seat of a car

So that I can roll some magical green
Preparing marijuana for consumption while traveling in a car

Till I am living the dream with my baby
Aspiring to an idyllic and fulfilling romantic relationship

It's strictly medicinal
Claiming to use marijuana only for its health benefits

Keeps on telling me that I could be anything
Finding marijuana an empowering source of mental exploration and creativity