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When I hit the water
You can feel it in my soul
I got cripplin' anxiety
Lost a couple close to me
I don't wanna go back home
Go back home
Feel it in my soul
I don't wanna go back home
2,000 miles away from home
Why do I always race to my phone?
I just wanna find a space of my own
Somewhere in outer space where the place is unknown
So many scars for being stabbed in the back
At this point I'm just numb I no longer react
Emotions written on face can everybody see that
Keep going voices in my head keep telling me that
I guess I gotta keep doing the best that I can
No reply to my text but seen you post on the gram
Damn weren't we suppose to be fam
Cuz The pain cuts deep the more closer I am
And you may not understand
I'm Taking off to place in mind I can land
Everything's going the way that I planned
When I realized that my wish is at my command
Trauma got my walls up
When I hit the water
You can feel it in my soul
I got cripplin' anxiety
Lost a couple close to me
I don't wanna go back home
Go back home
Feel it in my soul
In my soul
I don't wanna go back home
I gotta flight in a couple hours
I need my pack bags & after that take a shower
Late nights turn into after hours
And being me is one my super powers
Sorry not sorry this is unapologetic
I fell in love with you and now I'm starting regret it
Forget it I should even sweat it
My hearts broke somebody call me medic
Not too many people in this world I trust
Let go of all the hate that way I can adjust
Way to many problems I can share or discuss
Sick & tired of this shit so I decided to flush
Trauma got my walls up
When I hit the water
You can feel it in my soul
I got cripplin' anxiety
Lost a couple close to me
I don't wanna go back home
Go back home
Feel it in my soul
In my soul
I don't wanna go back home
Said I kill it
Get up
Then I kill it all again
Don't know if I like when I got alotta friends
But a couple stuck around
They my brothas
They my friends
Workin' up a sweat
Always tryna make it better in end
Always tryna make it better in end
The lyrics of the song "Home" by Julia Lester and Disney address themes of trauma, anxiety, distance, and finding a sense of belonging.
In the first verse, the singer acknowledges that they have built emotional barriers as a result of past traumas. When they "hit the water," it symbolizes being vulnerable and exposing their true emotions. This vulnerability can be felt in their soul. They also mention dealing with crippling anxiety and the pain of losing people close to them. The repetition of "I don't wanna go back home" suggests a reluctance to face their past or confront their emotional struggles.
The second verse reflects a sense of distance and detachment from their surroundings. The singer mentions being 2,000 miles away from home and constantly seeking solace through their phone. They express the desire to find a space of their own, somewhere unknown and far away. The reference to scars and being stabbed in the back alludes to past betrayals and emotional pain. They feel numb and emotions are written on their face for all to see. The voices in their head urge them to keep going, despite the challenges.
The third verse conveys a feeling of discontent and regret. The singer talks about a failed romantic relationship and feeling sorry for falling in love. They question the trust they have in others and express a desire to let go of hate and problems. They seek to flush away the negative emotions and move forward.
Overall, the song explores the effects of trauma and anxiety on the singer's emotions and relationship with others. They struggle to find a sense of belonging, desiring to escape and create their own space. However, there is also an underlying determination to overcome these struggles and make things better in the end, expressing a sense of hope and perseverance.
Line by Line Meaning
Trauma got my walls up
The pain and experiences from my past have made me emotionally guarded
When I hit the water
When I face difficult situations or challenges
You can feel it in my soul
The impact of my pain is deeply felt within me
I got cripplin' anxiety
I struggle with overwhelming anxiety that hinders me
Lost a couple close to me
I have experienced the loss of people who were important to me
I don't wanna go back home
I do not want to return to the place where my pain originated
Go back home
Return to the familiar place that brings me discomfort
Feel it in my soul
My pain is deeply ingrained within me
In my soul
Within the depths of my being
I gotta flight in a couple hours
I have a flight scheduled in a few hours
I need my pack bags & after that take a shower
First, I need to pack my bags and then take a shower
Late nights turn into after hours
Nighttime extends into the early morning hours
And being me is one my super powers
Being true to myself and embracing who I am is a strength of mine
Sorry not sorry this is unapologetic
I am unapologetic about the choices I've made and the person I've become
I fell in love with you and now I'm starting regret it
I regret falling in love with you and the pain it has caused me
Forget it I should even sweat it
I shouldn't even waste my energy worrying about it
My hearts broke somebody call me medic
My heart is broken and I need someone to help heal it
Not too many people in this world I trust
I have a limited number of people I trust in this world
Let go of all the hate that way I can adjust
By releasing my feelings of hate, I can adapt and move forward
Way to many problems I can share or discuss
I have too many problems that I can share and talk about
Sick & tired of this shit so I decided to flush
I am fed up with these difficult circumstances and have chosen to let them go
Said I kill it
I confidently succeed
Get up
Rise and continue moving forward
Then I kill it all again
I repeatedly achieve success and overcome challenges
Don't know if I like when I got alotta friends
I'm unsure if having many friends is something I truly enjoy
But a couple stuck around
However, a few friends have remained loyal
They my brothas
They are like my brothers
They my friends
They are my true friends
Workin' up a sweat
Putting in hard work and effort
Always tryna make it better in end
Consistently striving to improve and achieve a positive outcome
Always tryna make it better in end
Consistently striving to improve and achieve a positive outcome
Lyrics © TUNECORE INC, TuneCore Inc., O/B/O DistroKid
Written by: Deston Heiner, Kevin Zulueta
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
Beny
I definitely prefer the calmer melanchonic original version.
But, this is Julia Lester, and she is amazing as always. And even if this isn´t my favourite interpretation of this song,
giving it a rock vibe is still pretty interesting and fun to listen to.
Msawenkosi Mthembu
l agree
Grace Hickey
@Livy with an E did the boys play ffff
Pinkyhotwheels
Totally agree
Growing in His Grace
I totally agree. This goes for all remakes.
Livy with an E
Same
Anaís Silva
The only belle, she knows how to be musical theater, rock, she can do anything, VERSATILITY ❤️
Maria alice tavares moreira Alice
@Allison que vai acontecer 🙏 Mais uma coisa que 💖 ó que eu
Allison
she belle
Jenelle’s World
I’m I the only one who is crying tears of joy? This is making me want season 3 so badly!!! I miss hearing new songs weekly and everyone is so talented. JULIA SLAYED great job!💓