Make It Up to You
Julia Michaels Lyrics

No, you're not really that small
I purposely said hurtful things to you, but I don't actually believe them.

I just said it so I'd hurt you
My intention was to cause you pain and make you feel inferior.

I know I said that I'd call
I made a promise to you, but I didn't specify when I would fulfill that promise.

But I never said when, mmm
I've been neglectful and avoided giving you the attention I promised.

Always holding over your head
I keep bringing up things from the past and using them against you in our present conflicts.

Everything we've been through
Our shared history has been full of ups and downs that have taken a toll on us.

I wish I could be that tender, stable girl
I know what you want and need from me, but I struggle to provide it.

That you want, but I'm not, oh, oh
I recognize that I am not meeting your expectations or needs.

So can I cut you some slack?
Can I ease up on my expectations and demands of you?

Get all that weight off your back? Oh, oh
I want to ease your mental and emotional burden by taking responsibility for my actions and words.

Lift the tension in the air
I recognize that my behavior has caused conflict and want to alleviate the negativity in our relationship.

That I put there, that I put there
I take responsibility for creating the current atmosphere of tension and resentment.

Let me make it up, make it up, make it up, make it up to you
I want to right my wrongs and make amends for the pain and stress I've caused you.

However, whenever, whatever you want me to
I am willing to do whatever it takes to show you my commitment to repairing our relationship.

No, I don't have to go home
I don't want to leave this situation unresolved and avoid addressing my behavior.

I just love to make you anxious, huh
I have a tendency to cause stress and anxiety in the people closest to me.

I always ruin good things
I have a pattern of sabotaging what is good and healthy in my life and my relationships.

Like that time with your friends
I have caused issues in our social circle and potentially damaged your relationships with others.

And I'm probably ruining something now
I am aware of the possibility that my behavior is causing damage to our relationship in the present moment.

And I can't believe you're staying
I am amazed and grateful for your willingness to forgive me and work through our issues together.

So can I help you relax?
I want to make you feel more at ease and less stressed by showing my commitment to making things right.

Eliminate the unfair
I acknowledge that my behavior has been unjust and unfair to you, and I want to rectify that.

Oh, let me make it up, make it up, make it up, make it up to you
I am pleading with you to allow me to make things right between us.

I could apologize but that's not my style
I want to make up for my mistakes in a more meaningful way than just saying words.

I could just write it out, but that takes some time
I recognize that it takes effort and action to truly show my remorse and commitment to improving.

So let me communicate the only way that I know how
I am doing my best to show you how much I care and want to make things right.

But I'm not, so
I accept that I have flaws and imperfections that make it hard for me to be the person you want me to be.

And if it ain't enough, ain't enough, ain't enough, ain't enough for you
I recognize that my efforts may not satisfy you or fully heal the pain I've caused you.

The hurt is so deep it's making you think things that aren't true
I understand that the damage I've caused has created doubt and mistrust in our relationship.

However, whenever, whatever you want me to
I am willing to do whatever it takes to make things right between us and earn back your trust.