okay
Julia Michaels Lyrics

I bought that pillow on the couch 'cause it reminded
The singer has bought a throw pillow that reminds them of their partner's apartment.

Me of the colors on your wall, I thought you'd like it
The pillow's colors match those seen on the partner's apartment's wall

I don't want this to be my last time in this apartment, ooh
The singer is apprehensive that this might be their last time in the partner's apartment.

You took a day and made some space for me to move in
The partner has moved some of their belongings to make space for the artist in their apartment.

Said I could take the bottom drawer so that's what I did
The artist has been given a drawer at the bottom of a chest for their belongings.

You told me I was all you want so now what's changed it? Ooh
The singer is questioning how their partner's feelings for them have changed.

Is it wrong to think you're sadistic?
The singer is wondering if their partner enjoys hurting them emotionally.

I know you're sleeping perfect
The artist is aware that the partner is probably sleeping well, despite their emotional turmoil.

While I'm over here hurting
The artist is struggling with the emotional pain of the situation.

I'm gonna be okay, right?
The artist is trying to convince themself that they will eventually be fine.

I'm gonna be okay, right?
The singer repeats their self-assurance again.

I wish I could tell myself that at night
The artist is having a difficult time sleeping and wishes they could truly convince themself of their own well-being.

I'm gonna be okay, right? (yeah)
The singer tries to convince themselves once again that they will eventually be fine.

Don't check my phone
The singer is actively avoiding the urge to check their phone for messages from their partner.

I know for sure you haven't called me
The singer knows that their partner has not reached out to them.

I fill my days with stupid shit to keep me busy
The artist is trying to distract themself from thoughts of their partner by engaging in idle activities.

Instead of you
These idle activities are a replacement for thoughts of the partner.

I'm ending every night with whiskey, ooh
The singer is drinking alcohol to cope with their emotions.

And if I go insane (if I go insane)
The singer's emotional turmoil is becoming overwhelming and they fear losing their mental stability.

I, I got you to blame, right? (I got you to blame)
The artist is placing blame on their partner for their current emotional state.

At least that's what I tell myself at night
The artist is aware that their assigned blame is more of an internal coping mechanism.

Ooh
An interlude in the lyrics.

I kinda knew this would hurt just a little too much, ooh
The singer knew that the situation would be emotionally taxing, but not to the extent they initially thought.

I'm gonna be okay, right?
The artist repeats their self-assurance once more.

I'm gonna be okay, right?
The singer repeats their self-assurance one last time.

And if I go insane
The singer acknowledges their fear of losing their mental stability once more.

I, I got you to blame, right?
The singer reiterates their perceived attribution of blame to their partner.

(If I do, if I do)
An interjection that links the previous and the next line.

At least that's what I tell myself at night
The artist knows that their blame attribution is simply a method of coping.

I'm gonna be okay, right?
The singer repeats their self-assurance one final time.

(Gonna be okay)
A reassuring affirmation, concluding the song.

Right, right?
An echo of the previous affirmation.