Julian has made many outstanding recordings including his Brit-Award winning Elgar Concerto conducted by Yehudi Menuhin (chosen as the finest ever version by BBC Music Magazine) the Dvorak Concerto with Vaclav Neumann and the Czech Philharmonic, Tchaikovsky's Rococo Variations with the London Symphony under Maxim Shostakovich and a coupling of Britten's Cello Symphony and Walton's Concerto with Sir Neville Marriner and the Academy of St Martin in the Fields, which was described by Gramophone magazine as "beyond any rival". Julian has also recorded several highly successful CD's of short pieces for Universal Classics including Made In England, Cello Moods, and Cradle Song: "It would be difficult to find better performances of this kind of repertoire anywhere on records of today or yesterday" - Gramophone.
Julian has given more than fifty works their premiere recordings and has inspired new compositions for cello from composers as diverse as Malcolm Arnold and Joaquin Rodrigo to James MacMillan and Philip Glass. Recent concert performances have included three further works composed for Julian - Michael Nyman's Double Concerto for Cello and Saxophone on BBC Television, Gavin Bryars' Concerto in Suntory Hall, Tokyo and Philip Glass's Concerto at the Beijing International Festival. Julian's recording of the Glass concerto with the Royal Liverpool Philharmonic conducted by Gerard Schwarz was released on the Orange Mountain label in September 2004.
Julian’s most recent recording, Phantasia, is based on Andrew Lloyd Webber’s Phantom of the Opera and features violinist, Sarah Chang. This is available on EMI and is the first of several planned recordings that Julian will be making for EMI Classics. His new EMI disc, Unexpected Songs, featuring 21 tracks, including collaborations with harpist Catrin Finch and singer Michael Ball will be released in June this year.
Julian Lloyd Webber plays the ‘Barjansky’ Stradivarius cello of c.1690.
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I Don't Know how to Love Him
Julian Lloyd Webber Lyrics
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What to do, how to move him.
I've been changed, yes really changed.
In these past few days, when I've seen myself,
I seem like someone else.
I don't know how to take this.
I don't see why he moves me.
And I've had so many men before,
In very many ways,
He's just one more.
Should I bring him down?
Should I scream and shout?
Should I speak of love,
Let my feelings out?
I never thought I'd come to this.
What's it all about?
Don't you think it's rather funny,
I should be in this position.
I'm the one who's always been
So calm, so cool, no lover's fool,
Running every show.
He scares me so.
I never thought I'd come to this.
What's it all about?
Yet, if he said he loved me,
I'd be lost. I'd be frightened.
I couldn't cope, just couldn't cope.
I'd turn my head. I'd back away.
I wouldn't want to know.
He scares me so.
I want him so.
I love him so.
The song "I Don't Know How to Love Him" is from the rock opera "Jesus Christ Superstar." The song was written by Andrew Lloyd Webber and Tim Rice and originally performed by Yvonne Elliman, who played the role of Mary Magdalene in the musical. In the song, Mary Magdalene is expressing her feelings towards Jesus, who she has fallen in love with but does not know how to express her love.
The lyrics convey the confusion and apprehension that Mary feels about her emotions towards Jesus. She sings about her self-doubt and her uncertainty in expressing her feelings to him. Throughout the song, Mary questions whether her love for Jesus is right or wrong, and whether she should act upon her feelings. She acknowledges her fear of rejection, and her concern that any sort of romantic relationship between herself and Jesus would change the dynamic of their relationship.
The song tackles complex themes of love, faith, and identity, drawing on the characters' emotions and inner struggles. It is a powerful ballad that has resonated with audiences worldwide.
Line by Line Meaning
I don't know how to love him.
I am struggling to understand my feelings towards him and how to express my love for him.
What to do, how to move him.
I am unsure of how to make him reciprocate my feelings and am at a loss for what actions to take.
I've been changed, yes really changed.
I have undergone a significant transformation in my attitudes and emotions as a result of my feelings for him.
In these past few days, when I've seen myself,
Recently, I have observed significant changes in my behavior and attitude towards him.
I seem like someone else.
My current emotional state has resulted in me becoming unrecognizable to myself.
I don't know how to take this.
I am uncertain of how to process or make sense of these new emotions I am experiencing.
I don't see why he moves me.
I cannot explain why I am so deeply affected by him.
He's a man. He's just a man.
I am aware that he is simply another person and nothing more, yet I still find myself drawn to him.
And I've had so many men before,
I have had numerous previous romantic experiences with men.
In very many ways,
Each of these experiences was unique in its own right.
He's just one more.
Compared to my past experiences, he is relatively insignificant.
Should I bring him down?
Should I attempt to bring him down emotionally?
Should I scream and shout?
Should I be outwardly emotional and expressive to show my affection?
Should I speak of love,
Should I express my love for him verbally?
Let my feelings out?
Should I allow my emotions to be openly visible?
I never thought I'd come to this.
I am surprised by my current emotional state in relation to him.
What's it all about?
I am confused about the nature of my feelings for him and am unsure of what they mean.
Don't you think it's rather funny,
Isn't it ironic that I, who have always been in control of my emotions in the past, am now feeling so conflicted?
I should be in this position.
I should be able to handle my emotions and feelings for him without losing my cool.
I'm the one who's always been
I have always been in control and have never allowed myself to be overwhelmed by emotions.
So calm, so cool, no lover's fool,
I am known for my ability to remain calm and level-headed in all situations, including romantic ones.
Running every show.
I am used to being in charge of my emotions and dictating how I feel towards others.
He scares me so.
I am intimidated by the strength and depth of my feelings for him.
Yet, if he said he loved me,
If he were to express his love for me, despite my own feelings, I would be afraid of what that would mean.
I'd be lost. I'd be frightened.
I would be overwhelmed and unsure of how to handle such a revelation from him.
I couldn't cope, just couldn't cope.
I would not be able to handle the emotional weight of his love for me.
I'd turn my head. I'd back away.
I would avoid the situation and try to distance myself from him to avoid the emotional turmoil.
I wouldn't want to know.
I would try to avoid any further emotional difficulties or complications by not allowing myself to acknowledge his feelings.
He scares me so.
My feelings for him are so intense that it is frightening to me.
I want him so.
Despite my fears, my love and desire for him remains strong.
I love him so.
I am deeply and truly in love with him.
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: ANDREW LLOYD WEBBER, TIM RICE
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