Avalanche
Just Friends Lyrics

Well I stepped into an avalanche,
I find myself in a situation that overwhelmed me like an avalanche.

It covered up my soul;
The situation has consumed me entirely, leaving me lost emotionally.

When I am not this hunchback that you see,
I am not the same person that I appear to be from the outside.

I sleep beneath the golden hill.
I find peace and comfort in a hidden, secret place.

You who wish to conquer pain,
If you want to overcome your pain,

You must learn, learn to serve me well.
you need to understand me and my needs first.

You strike my side by accident
You unintentionally hurt me.

As you go down for your gold.
In your pursuit of material riches.

The cripple here that you clothe and feed
The needy person that you support

Is neither starved nor cold;
Is not lacking in basic necessities like food or warmth.

He does not ask for your company,
Does not need your constant presence or attention.

Not at the center, the center of the world.
Does not consider himself to be the most important person in the world.

When I am on a pedestal,
When I am held in high esteem by others,

You did not raise me there.
It was not your efforts that got me to that position.

Your laws do not compel me
I am not bound by your societal norms.

To kneel grotesque and bare.
To humiliate myself in front of others.

I myself am the pedestal
I am the only support I need.

For this ugly hump at which you stare.
For my imperfections that people like to judge.

You who wish to conquer pain,
To heal your own pain,

You must learn what makes me kind;
You must understand what softens my heart,

The crumbs of love that you offer me,
The little bits of affection that you show me,

They're the crumbs I've left behind.
I only respond to them weakly since I have already experienced true love.

Your pain is no credential here,
Your suffering does not make you special in my eyes,

It's just the shadow, shadow of my wound.
It is a mere reflection of my own past hurt.

I have begun to long for you,
I am starting to desire you,

I who have no greed
Even though I do not crave anything.

I have begun to ask for you,
I am starting to request your presence,

I who have no need.
Even though I do not depend on anyone.

You say you've gone away from me,
You claim that you are no longer with me,

But I can feel you when you breathe.
But I am still aware of your existence and your movements.

Do not dress in those rags for me,
Do not wear ragged clothes to impress me,

I know you are not poor
I know that you are not in financial distress.

You don't love me quite so fiercely now
You are not as passionate about your love for me as you used to be,

When you know that you are not sure,
Since you are unsure about our relationship.

It is your turn, beloved,
Now it is your responsibility, my dear,

It is your flesh that I wear.
To fulfill my own needs and desires using your body.