Couch Surfin
Jutes Lyrics

We laugh, we cry get way too high
We find solace in temporary distractions, experiencing both joy and sorrow, often seeking refuge in substances that alter our state of mind excessively.

I'd rather be dead than not alive
I prefer the intensity of a life filled with risks and emotions, even if it means risking my own demise, over a stagnant existence devoid of passion and purpose.

Nails are dirty from scratchin' the surface
I am constantly searching for new experiences, willing to delve deep into unknown territories, even if it means getting my hands dirty in the process.

I'll try almost anything once
I possess a fearless curiosity, always willing to experiment and explore different avenues, refusing to be held back by fear or hesitation.

And I get in trouble
My endeavors often lead me astray, causing me to encounter difficulties and consequences as a result of my risky behavior.

Flirt with death a little
I occasionally engage in activities or behaviors that border on dangerous, gravitating towards the thrilling edge of life, tempting fate.

Rather die young than go numb
I'd rather experience a short but intense existence, filled with emotions and sensations, than an emotionally numb and unfulfilling life, devoid of true experiences.

I know drugs are bad but I'm so fuckin' sad
Although I am aware of the negative consequences of substance abuse, my overwhelming sadness pushes me towards seeking temporary relief through substances.

And alone, yeah, yeah, yeah
In addition to my internal struggles, I feel a profound sense of isolation and loneliness, longing for connection and understanding.

What's my calling? Everyone's got a thing
I am grappling with the concept of finding my true purpose in life, questioning my individuality and uniqueness amidst the existence of everyone else's defined paths.

I'm hangin' by a string (I'm fine)
Metaphorically, I feel precarious, barely holding on to stability, but outwardly, I maintain a facade of being okay and in control.

Sun shine through the curtains
The rays of sunlight filter through the drapes, casting a warm glow within the room, creating a contrasting image to the emotional turmoil within.

On the couch, I'm surfin'
Physically situated on the couch, I navigate through life's uncertainties and challenges, seeking solace and answers within the comfort of my home.

Still lookin' for my purpose (Purpose, oh)
I am still searching for a profound reason or meaning behind my existence, yearning for a sense of direction and significance in my life.

Feel alive when I'm dyin'
Ironically, I derive a sense of vitality and authenticity when I am at my lowest points, as if the rawness of pain brings a heightened sense of being alive.

I need what gets me the highest
I crave the experiences or substances that elevate my emotional state to its peak, providing temporary relief from the overwhelming sadness and emptiness.

I'ma die tryna find it (Find it, yeah)
My relentless pursuit of the ultimate form of fulfillment and purpose may eventually lead me to my demise, as I am willing to risk everything to uncover it.

AC's broken
The air conditioning system is not functioning properly, adding to the discomfort and oppressive atmosphere within the surroundings.

I'm wakin' up in a pool of sweat
I awaken from sleep in a state of intense perspiration, a physical manifestation of the inner turmoil and distress that plague me even during rest.

All my clothes smellin' like shit
The stench emanating from my garments symbolizes the decay and messiness of my life, metaphorically indicating the negative consequences of my choices.

Beer and cigarettes
I find temporary solace and escape in the consumption of alcohol and cigarettes, further contributing to the self-destructive behaviors I engage in.

Call me stupid, I'm careless
Others may perceive me as foolish or negligent due to the risks I take and the lack of consideration I show towards potential harm or consequences.

Wounded and depressed
My emotional state is characterized by deep emotional pain and a profound sense of sadness, metaphorically likened to being wounded and emotionally damaged.

But I can't be like them, no
I refuse to conform to societal expectations or norms, rejecting the idea of leading a conventional life like the majority, preferring my own unique path.

No I can't be like them (O oh)
Repeatedly affirming my divergence from societal norms and expectations, emphasizing the importance of individuality and refusing to conform.

Ooh, ooh (I'd rather be dead than not alive)
An expression of intense emotions, asserting the preference for a life filled with risks and emotions, despite the potential consequences, rather than a life devoid of vibrancy and passion.