Apologies
K.a.a.n & Bleverly Hills Lyrics
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Turning blue
Take me to the rooftop I wanna see the the world when I stop breathing
I've been a liar, I've been a cheat
Broken a heart without finding a beat
I've been a fake, trying to be
Someone I'm not, lying to me
Lying to him, her, misses and sirsTaking my life till I'm getting it slurred
Sipping that shit till my vision gets blurred
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm sorry for being a victim, sorry for leaving my family behind
I know that we'll never be normal again but shit, can't we just try
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, dear God I'm so sorry I made her so sad she just cried
Tears in her, tears in her eyes
Momma I'm sorry I lied
I know you forgive me for all my mistakes but I think I'm still needing some time
I know I don't tell you how much that I love you but momma, I'd give you my life
Dad, I'm so sorry for all of the lies
I thought about you taking all of those flights
I missed you, then I realized how hard that shit must've been all of those nights
If you need me, wanna see me
Better hurry
Cuz I'm leaving soon
I've been in pain, I've been alone
Almost a year up inside of a home
When I get back, I've gotta show
How much I've changed, how much I've grown
How much I've looked back
All of my life I was took back
Flashbacks of packing that book bag
Leaving I ain't even look back, fuck
I remember I was staying up in the night
Looking in the mirror staring up in my eyesStarted not to give a motherfuck if I died
Took me too long to see that just isn't right
Laying back down in that hospital bed
Cold showers broken mirrors, lost in my head
Thinking 'bout the pain I caused my mom and my dad
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
Tell me love is endless
Don't be so pretentious
Leave me, like you do
If you need me
Wanna see me
Better hurry, cuz I'm leaving soon
Sorry can't save me now
The lyrics of "Apologies" by K.a.a.n & Bleverly Hills delve into themes of regret, self-reflection, and seeking forgiveness. The artist expresses a desire to confront their own mortality by being taken to the rooftop to witness the world before they cease breathing, symbolizing a moment of clarity and finality. The repetition of the phrase "I wanna see the world when I stop breathing" underscores a yearning for a deeper understanding or reckoning with their actions.
The confession of past wrongdoings, such as lying, cheating, and pretending to be someone they are not, reveals a sense of guilt and accountability for the pain they have caused to others. The artist's introspection leads to a heartfelt apology to their loved ones, particularly their mother and father, acknowledging the hurt they have inflicted and the need for time to heal and make amends.
The mention of being trapped in isolation and pain for almost a year within the confines of a home hints at a period of self-imposed exile or emotional turmoil. The artist reflects on the impact of their actions on their family and the realization of the consequences of their behavior. The lyrics convey a deep sense of remorse and a longing for redemption through personal growth and transformation.
The plea for love to be unconditional, the urgency of departure, and the acknowledgment that apologies may not be enough to undo the past mistakes all add layers of complexity to the narrative. The repetition of "If you need me, wanna see me, better hurry, cause I'm leaving soon" underscores a sense of impermanence and the urgency to make amends before it is too late. The closing line, "Sorry can't save me now," leaves the listener with a somber realization that words alone may not be sufficient to mend the wounds or erase the repercussions of past actions.
Line by Line Meaning
Take me to the rooftop, I wanna see the world when I stop breathing
I seek a new perspective to understand life's beauty as I face my mortality
I've been a liar, I've been a cheat
I have deceived and betrayed others
Broken a heart without finding a beat
Caused emotional pain without truly caring
I've been a fake, trying to be. Someone I'm not, lying to me. Lying to him, her, misses and sirs
Pretended to be someone I'm not, deceiving others as well as myself
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
Expressing regret and seeking forgiveness
I'm sorry for being a victim, sorry for leaving my family behind
Apologizing for the pain caused by my struggles and for distancing myself from loved ones
I know that we'll never be normal again but shit, can't we just try
Acknowledging the past and hoping for reconciliation despite challenges
Tears in her, tears in her eyes. Momma I'm sorry I lied
Regretting the hurt caused to a loved one and seeking forgiveness
Dad, I'm so sorry for all of the lies
Expressing remorse for deceiving a parent
If you need me, wanna see me. Better hurry, cuz I'm leaving soon
Urging loved ones to connect before it's too late
I've been in pain, I've been alone. Almost a year up inside of a home
Suffering and isolation have been my reality for nearly a year
I remembered I was staying up in the night. Looking in the mirror staring up in my eyes
Reflecting on my struggles and facing my inner demons
Laying back down in that hospital bed. Cold showers broken mirrors, lost in my head
Recounting a difficult time of isolation and self-reflection
Tell me love is endless. Don't be so pretentious
Seeking reassurance and authenticity in relationships
Leave me, like you do. Sorry can't save me now
Accepting that apologies cannot undo past mistakes or heal current pain
Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid
Written by: Chris Cantrell
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@kaidenmartell5769
By far favorite artist for awhile, mans still rising this guys the future goat of goats
@brittanylafleur9105
This is one of the strongest and most believable song ive heard in a good while keep this strength coming kaan
@nthomp8
Keep em comin Kaan
@akshitsingh4724
Blows my mind every fkn time
@kaistross7189
So f***ing beautiful 😍
@bravado0246
What a song
@davidfioretto503
10/10
@ac_one_thirty5499
Flow is like jelly
@frankenstyyn3220
When will these songs be uploaded to spotify
@frankenstyyn3220
Is this and the other songs apart of a new album cuz I'm trying to cop it