Amongst the madness of 2020 Nathan found himself forced back into the home studio like many artists have been. The result of that time saw the creation of a new collection of work - a collection that has strong ties to minimal late seventies yacht rock with references to ‘Christopher Cross’ & ‘The Alessi Brothers’ - that sonic touchpoint extends to the wider aesthetic of the project, with videos and artwork all created by Nathan himself. Nathan wears his inspiration on his sleeve and the result is a magical trip through a seemingly simpler and blissful time.
“I wanted to make a bunch of songs that basically just made me happy and I hope it has the same effect on others” - Kesmar
Up to you
KESMAR Lyrics
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It's hard when you've been and gone
Hold onto the thought of me
I'm confused what we're trying to be
Something's wrong but I never know why
I'm always on my own
And your eyes don't ever meet mine
Whats going on
I don't feel right
When I'm not next to you
I can't deny
There's nothing left to lose
Just take your time
Because it's all up to you
It's all up to you
I'll leave it up to you
I know what we're headed for
Show me you can prove it wrong
And I can't believe here we are again
Something's wrong but I never know why
I'm always on my own
And your eyes don't ever meet mine
So tell me
What's going on
I don't feel right
When I'm not next to you
I can't deny
There's nothing left to lose
Just take your time
Because it's all up to you
It's all up to you
I'll leave it up to you
Why don't you try and understand
Here I am, here I am
Why don't you try and understand
Here I am, here I am
Why don't you try and understand
Here I am, here I am
Why don't you try and understand
Here I am, here I am
I don't feel right
When I'm not next to you
I can't deny
There's nothing left to lose
Just take your time
Because it's all up to you
It's all up to you
I'll leave it up to you
I don't feel right
When I'm not next to you
I can't deny
There's nothing left to lose
Just take your time
Because it's all up to you
It's all up to you
I'll leave it up to you
The lyrics to KESMAR's "Up To You" speak to the complexities of a relationship that is at a crossroads. The singer acknowledges that he has a strong need for his partner's presence and affection, but despite this, there seems to be a distance between the two that he cannot fully comprehend. It is as if he is lost and it seems that his partner is uncertain about the direction of the relationship. The singer pleads with his partner to communicate with him and work towards understanding, but ultimately, he leaves the decision-making up to her.
The first few lines set the tone for the rest of the song, with the singer revealing his vulnerability to the listener. He confesses that there are times when he needs his partner more, indicating a strong emotional connection that exists between the two. However, the second line, "It's hard when you've been and gone," indicates that something has happened between the two, which has led to a rift. Despite this, he implores her to "Hold onto the thought of me," suggesting that he still believes that their relationship is worth fighting for.
The chorus emphasizes the singer's feelings of loss and uncertainty. He doesn't feel right when he's not next to his partner and there's nothing left to lose. Essentially, he's giving his partner an ultimatum, urging her to take her time and decide what she wants. The repeated phrase "I'll leave it up to you" drives this point home, indicating that he's ready to go where she leads.
Line by Line Meaning
There's times when I need you more
Sometimes I feel like I need you more than usual
It's hard when you've been and gone
It's difficult for me to be without you, after you've left
Hold onto the thought of me
Keep thinking about me, even when I'm not around
I'm confused what we're trying to be
I don't understand what direction our relationship is heading
Something's wrong but I never know why
I feel like there's something not right, but I can't figure out what it is
I'm always on my own
I often feel alone and isolated
And your eyes don't ever meet mine
You avoid making eye contact with me
So tell me, what's going on
Can you please explain what's happening
I don't feel right when I'm not next to you
My emotions are affected negatively when you're not around
I can't deny there's nothing left to lose
I acknowledge that there's nothing left to risk or lose in this situation
Just take your time, because it's all up to you
You're in charge of how this plays out, so take your time making decisions
I'll leave it up to you
I trust you to make the final decision
I know what we're headed for
I have a general idea of where our relationship is going
Show me you can prove it wrong
Try to prove me wrong about where I think our relationship is headed
And I can't believe here we are again
I can't believe we're back in this situation again
Why don't you try and understand, here I am, here I am
I want you to try and see things from my perspective, and I'm still here waiting for you to come around
Writer(s): Timothy Ayre, Tobias Jack Priddle, Nathan Hawes
Contributed by Natalie M. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
MP S
Massively Underrated..What a superb song
Nadja Rydén
Good song! I’m always happy when I listen to this song! Good job!
ZekZion
Increible, buen tema.
GlowingTube
A masterfully crafted song, so good
Kingsy191
This shit is incredible, its a crime the first time i heard this was at a stop and shop over the grocery radio station. But holy fuck am I glad I found the actual song
Yvette Karen
yoooo same af! literally heard it yesterday at a stop and shop too
Vox Dei
omg SHIT BRO!! i ALSO HEARD THIS AT STOP AND SHOP ABOUT 3 OR 4 MONTHS AGO!! I TOOK MY PHONE AND SHAZAMMED IT! LOL
JDV Media
was gonna comment to say the same exact thing happened but It looks like some people beat me to it! WTF thats insane we all heard it at stop and shop lol!
Claudio_on_a_journey
Nice song!!
Diana
Lovvvve it!