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KID TRUNKS Lyrics

Won't be reminded of the lost days
I don't want to think about the time when I struggled and had less

Used to rob the plug for all his work so I could maintain
I used to steal from my supplier to keep up with my drug habit

I'm doing drugs so I can maintain
I take drugs to be able to function and not feel pain

Part of the reason that I can handle this damn pain
One of the reasons I can endure the suffering is because of drugs

"I'm fucking numb" said the lonely heart of the drummer boy
The musician admitted to being emotionally deadened by his lifestyle

Who'd rather wreak havoc than play around with a Tonka toy
He prefers to cause chaos and destruction than engage in child's play

Uh, shit, my mirror ain't been clearer lately
I haven't been able to see myself clearly lately

I see my mind becoming blind, material mistaken
I notice my thoughts losing clarity and becoming focused on material things

Heart indulging in the things that are forever broken
My heart is drawn to things that are damaged and unfixable

I seen a father lose his son, why life so fucking hopeless?
I witnessed a father lose his child, and it made me question the point of life

Uh, ayy, concept of my depression is
My understanding of depression is

That there's no fucking recollection when your birth begins
Depression feels like there's no memory or recollection of ever being born

And there's nobody there to hold you when the pain begins
No one is there to comfort you when the pain and suffering starts

But there's somebody there to fold you when you're caving in
There may be someone to help you when you're on the brink of collapse

Uh, yuh, such discussed by such and such
It's a topic often talked about by a lot of people

You're a fucking loser, man
Someone has insulted and called him a loser

Well, life's a fucking uppercut
Life can be brutal and unforgiving

Right inside my fucking gut
It hits him hard and hurts him deeply

Wanna fuckin' end it but
I want to end my life, but

I don't have the balls to
I don't have the courage to do it

Fuck, I'm such a pussy, fuck me up
He's frustrated with himself for not being able to follow through on his suicidal thoughts

No, I can't feel no pain right now
He's numb and doesn't feel any pain at the moment

Lost in the skies while it's rainin' down
He feels detached and removed from reality, while everything else around him is falling apart

Numbness and hell, what we crave right now
He's seeking numbness and a sense of escape from the hellish reality

No, I can't feel no pain right now
He's still numb and not experiencing any pain