Death of Me
KILJ Lyrics

I got all these demons I don't know
The artist is haunted by inner turmoil that they cannot quite put their finger on.

Rolled a spliff up, now my lungs are full of smoke
The artist is using drugs to cope with their internal struggles.

I swear that these niggas do the most
The artist believes that the people around them are overly aggressive or dramatic.

Drinking Bacardi, feel the fire in my torso
The artist is consuming alcohol and feeling its physical effects in their body.

Tired of saying that I'm fine with these tears in my eyes
The artist is exhausted with pretending that everything is okay when they are clearly struggling.

Shawty been wishing for the death of me, go pray for my demise, pray for my demise
Someone close to the artist is hoping for their demise, and the artist is asking them to pray for it.

Know I'm running out of time
The artist feels a sense of urgency and is worried that they are running out of time to fix their problems.

And I know it's all my fault
The artist feels guilty for their own struggles and takes responsibility for them.

Might as well just take the blame for my loss
The artist is willing to accept blame for any mistakes or failures that occur.

Watch the daylight fade, come night fall
The artist is witnessing time pass and feels like they are getting older and closer to death.

Know I said I'm living great, but I'm not
The artist is pretending to be okay when they are not.

Think I need a shot again
The artist believes that another drink will solve their problems.

Another trip up to the bar
The artist is planning to visit a bar again, reflecting their reliance on alcohol to cope.

I just need another fix, don't give a damn 'bout what the cost is
The artist is willing to spend whatever money necessary to feel better, whatever the consequences.

Another dollar in the swear jar
The artist curses frequently and may have developed a habit of speaking inappropriately or dangerously.

I'll just drink all my pain away I don't wanna fall
The artist sees alcohol as a way to numb their emotional pain and avoid hitting rock bottom.

I keep forgetting who I am, who I am
The artist is struggling to maintain a sense of identity and knows that they are losing sight of who they are.

So I don't give a damn 'bout who you are
The artist is indifferent to other people's opinions and is most concerned with their own struggle.

Imma walk off in my Robins
The artist is leaving the situation and moving on, represented by their shoes.

No, I don't do no talking
The artist is refusing to communicate and is choosing to deal with their problems in their own way.

Get that through your head before a bullet's in your noggin
The artist is warning others not to mess with them, as they are in a volatile state of mind.

Drink my sorrows away, then it'll lead me to an early grave
The artist knows that their reliance on alcohol to cope will ultimately harm them.

I got all these demons i don't know
The artist is still haunted by inner turmoil that they can't identify.

Rolled a spliff up, now my lungs are full of smoke
The artist is continuing to use drugs to numb themselves.

I swear that these niggas do the most
The artist is still feeling overwhelmed by other people's drama.

Drinking Bacardi, feel the fire in my torso
The artist continues to rely on alcohol for comfort, despite the physical effects.

Tired of saying that I'm fine with these tears in my eyes
The artist is still pretending to be okay when they are not.

Shawty been wishing for the death of me, go pray for my demise, pray for my demise
The artist is repeating their request for someone close to them to pray for their death.

Know I'm running out of time
The artist is still concerned about losing the battle against their inner demons.