Calling You
KJ-52 feat. J.R. Lyrics

I know shit was picture perfect
I am aware that everything seemed perfect

But it didn't fit the time frame
Unfortunately, it did not fit the timing

I took advantage of my talent when my time came
I used my talent to the fullest when I had the opportunity

Right now I'm drivin' through this boulevard of shame
At the moment, I'm struggling and experiencing shame

I'll get back to you when I don't feel this pain
I'll get in touch with you once I am no longer feeling this pain

Catch me swervin' in my lane
You might see me acting erratically

Blow a couple M's on the new Bugatti, I'm insane
I'm crazy for spending millions on a luxury car

Walk around with my head high like gon' try me
I present a confident demeanor, daring others to challenge me

Gotta keep a low profile 'cause everything I do gets leaked
I need to maintain anonymity because everything I do becomes public knowledge

I got stoned with Rosetta, I'm tryna teach her how I speak
I smoked marijuana with Rosetta and I'm attempting to teach her my ways of communicating

If you bringin' up my flaws, don't televise 'em to the streets
If you're going to criticize me, please do not publicize it for everyone to see

I was sellin' books and CDs on my block so I could eat (yeah)
I was hustling to sell books and CDs in my neighborhood to support myself financially

I kept it a hunnid then I spent that on my piece (yeah)
I was truthful and honest about myself and spent my money on buying expensive jewelry

And until I'm six feet under, I'ma do it for the streets (yeah, uh)
I'll do what I can for the streets until the day I die

I did shit you may never do in your lifetime (uh-huh)
I've accomplished things that you may never experience

If she play her role, I may let her carry my lifeline (oh)
If she fulfills her responsibilities in our relationship, I may allow her to be my support

I know life's a bitch but I fell in love with a better one
Life is challenging, but I have found something better to love

Put her in her Birk' now it's time for me to go get her one
I bought her a Birkin bag and now it's time for me to buy her another one

Yeah, don't put no blame on me 'cause I can't take no more
Don't hold me responsible for anything else because I can't handle it

Yeah, I put this weight on me when I walked out that door
I willingly took on this burden when I left that situation

Yeah, and I can't help that I'm so selfish, I'm ashamed
I acknowledge that I have a selfish nature and I am ashamed of it

And I can't help that I get caught up in my ways
I can't help but get caught up in my own patterns of behavior

And I can't help that I be fuckin' on your bestie
I can't control myself and I end up having sex with your best friend

And I move way too clean and get caught up in somethin' messy
I may seem like I have everything together, but I still sometimes get into messy situations

I know right you feel alone but it's okay 'cause you was better on your own
I understand that you feel alone, but it's okay because you're actually better off by yourself

Pick you up when you're fallin' down
I'll be there to help you when you're struggling

Can you pick it up when I'm callin' out
Can you be there for me when I need someone to turn to?

To you, to you, to you
I'm addressing this message directly to you

I'm still pullin' you up when you're fallin' down
I'm still trying to help you when you're struggling

We ain't never had no hope, so we always took a risk
We grew up in an environment without many opportunities, so we had to take risks to succeed

Rock bottom hit hard, but I took it like a pimp
I hit rock bottom, but I was able to handle it calmly

I took everything I had and put it on a wish
I put everything I had into something I hoped for

Took all the time you wasted and put it on my wrist
I used all the time you wasted and made something valuable out of it

Gotta hold my heart with gloves on
I need to be protective of my feelings

If I spot a opp, I make 'em strip and put these slugs on
If I identify someone as an enemy, I'll force them to strip and then attack them

Nigga this is pain, I ain't tryna make no love songs
This is a song about pain, not about love

She feelin' pain so she don't wanna hear no love song
She's in too much pain to listen to a love song

Feel like I've got this weight on my shoulders and it's holdin' me down
I feel like I have a heavy burden on my shoulders that's weighing me down

My hand glued to my pistol, I might just air out the crowd
I'm holding onto my gun and I might use it to shoot into a crowd

Just sent a prayer to my lost ones, I hope that they proud
I just sent a prayer to my deceased loved ones and I hope they're proud of me

You ain't give up on me then, why you gon' give up on me now?
If you didn't give up on me in the past, why would you do so now?

Top dawg, I've got VVS's on my leash
I'm at the top of my game and I have expensive diamonds on my leash

Get you knocked off, just to earn respect inside these streets
I'll have someone killed in order to prove my worth in these streets

It's a cold world but let me show how my heart beat
The world is a harsh place, but I'll show you how I care

To understand this lane you gotta sit inside this car seat (oh)
You can only understand my life by experiencing it firsthand

I'm still tryna figure out what changed you
I'm still trying to understand what happened to make you different

Niggas mad 'cause I let my dick hang longer than my chains do
People are angry that I'm more proud of my penis than my expensive jewelry

Step inside my world to fully comprehend what pain do
Enter my world in order to understand the severity of pain

You accepted all my flaws just to show the world they painful (no, oh)
You acknowledged all of my flaws to demonstrate how much they hurt

High off my pride like a Perc' but I can't swallow it, nigga
I'm as high on my pride as if I were on Percocet, but I can't handle it

I stood out the way but paved it for a lot of you niggas
I stayed out of the way but made a path for many other people

Put the spotlight on my children 'cause I'm proud of you niggas
I'm showing off my children because I'm proud of their accomplishments

Might just let ya on a track so I could body you niggas (oh)
I might allow you to be featured on a song just so I can outperform you

It's too much levels I could stoop to
I would be willing to sink to any depth

My dawg got laced now he don't move the way he used to
My friend was drugged and now he can't function the way he used to

I wanna hug 'em and tell 'em I love 'em but I'm ashamed
I want to show my friend affection, but I'm embarrassed

It's hard to handle the fact my brother might not be the same (might not be the same)
It's difficult to accept that my friend won't be his old self anymore

And this for all the niggas who supported me
This song is dedicated to all the people who have helped me throughout my career

This for all the engineers I paid when they recorded me
This song is also for all the sound engineers who worked on my music and were paid for their services

This for all the labels who looked down and closed their door on me
This song is even for all the record labels who rejected me in the past

I went platinum in the trenches when these niggas had no loyalty (oh)
I achieved platinum success in a difficult environment where people were not loyal to me

Year later and we only gettin' started
Even after all this time, I still feel like I'm just getting started

She listen to all my songs but still ask me why I'm heartless
She listens to all my music, but still questions why I'm cold and unfeeling

Tried to stab me in my back but I still had your shit regardless (oh)
Even after you betrayed me, I still have your belongings

On this intro I reflected on my pain and went retarded
In this song's introduction, I reflected on my own pain and became overwhelmed by emotion