Kacy Crowley is a musician and singer-songwriter. A New England native, she… Read Full Bio ↴Kacy Crowley is a musician and singer-songwriter. A New England native, she currently resides in Austin, Texas.

Born in Northampton, Massachusetts, her mother was a piano teacher and her father was a construction worker. Her family soon relocated to Connecticut, where Kacy remained until graduating from high school. Her parent's passion for music influenced her from an early age. She started playing the guitar soon after seeing John Denver in concert at age 5. She also began taking piano lessons around that time. After graduating high school, she attended the University of Massachusetts for one semester before dropping out. At 19, she moved out Los Angeles to try and jumpstart her music career. She played in coffeehouses in and around the Los Angeles area. After two years in Los Angeles, she was struggling with a drug habit and moved back into her parent's house in Connecticut.

With her life back together, she started a band, Tragic Sam, and produced a few sessions with Billy Rush, the former guitarist for Southside Johnny & The Asbury Jukes. She moved to New York City around 1992 and tried forming a few ensemble groups, without much success. She began waiting tables, while living with then-boyfriend Karl Anderson in one bedroom apartment (the two were later married, and have since divorced). She devoted whatever free time she had to her music.

Realizing New York City was taking its toll on her, she and Anderson opted to move to Texas, hoping for a fresh start. Once in Austin, she played many open mic nights and would often busk on Sixth Street. She signed a deal with the Dallas-based indie label, Carpe Diem and began recording her debut album Anchorless. The album, which was produced by Dave McNair, was recorded with several local musicians.

After performing at South By Southwest, Kacy signed a deal with Atlantic Records, which brought her music to a wider audience. The label released Anchorless in 1997, including two new tracks on this release. The album received some critical praise from publications such as Billboard, Vanity Fair and USA Today, but many of the critics had a lukewarm response to the record. Despite the response from critics, her songs were featured in films such as Anywhere But Here and Three to Tango. She went out on tour in support of the record, playing at Lilith Fair and the H.O.R.D.E. festival and opening for artists Chantal Kreviazuk and Marc Cohn. She went into the studio in 2001 and recorded her second album Boys in the Attic which was shelved by Atlantic.

Kacy eventually parted ways with Atlantic. She spent the next few years writing and found time to record her third album Moodswing. Released in 2003, the album quickly became a favorite in the Austin area. She released an acoustic album entitled Tramps Like Us in 2004. In 2008, she collaborated with singer-songwriter Billy Harvey to produce her most recent album, Cave.

BLOOD
Kacy Crowley Lyrics

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He was too deep for his own good
He was the kind of person that nobody understood
I said I'd love you more than you love me
but I meant something entirely ugly

One year it rained on Christmas
He said lets just pretend we're in heaven
but I wasn't having it

No I was killing it
I think his soul his soul had a drain in it

Ooh, his blood rushed somewhere silent
Ooh, his words j ust disappeared
He was fragile and sometimes I liked that
I've got his blood on my hands
And my hands in a trap

It was the year that my heart was broke
It was the year that I almost lost everything
I pushed him away
Only for my freedom
It tasted like salt
like salt on my skin

Ooh, his blood rushed somewhere silent
Ooh, his words just disappeared
He was fragile and sometimes I liked that
I've got his blood on my hands
and my hands in a trap

I can't make whats wrong right again, but
I can shine it all bright again

just when you think you're forgiven
theres no material left for confession
you'll be standing there
sorry and unworthy
look closer guilty and bloody

Ooh, his blood rushed somewhere silent
Ooh, his words just disappeared
He was fragile and sometimes I liked that
I've got his blood on my hands
and my hands

Ooh, his blood rushed somewhere silent
Ooh, his words just disappeared
He was fragile and sometimes I liked that
I've got his blood on my hands
and my hands
I've got his blood on my hands
and my hands

I've got his blood on my hands
and my hands in a trap

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to Kacy Crowley's song "Blood" seemingly speak of a toxic and tumultuous relationship. The singer describes a man who was "too deep for his own good" and "the kind of person that nobody understood." Despite the singer initially expressing love for the man, it quickly becomes clear that their feelings are conflicted and negative, as they admit to meaning something "entirely ugly" when they said they loved him more than he loved them.

The song jumps to a memory of a rainy Christmas where the man suggests they "pretend we're in heaven" but the singer is resistant, as their heart is broken and they feel as though they've lost everything. They admit to pushing the man away for their own freedom, and while they find his fragility intriguing at times, they ultimately end up with "his blood on [their] hands… and [their] hands in a trap." The final lines suggest that while the singer cannot make things right again, they can "shine it all bright again."

There's much left to interpretation when it comes to "Blood," but the lyrics seem to indicate that the relationship described had a sense of toxicity or danger, and ended in some sort of tragedy. It's possible that the "blood" referred to in the title and lyrics could be metaphorical, symbolizing emotional damage or guilt rather than a physical harm or death.

Line by Line Meaning

He was too deep for his own good
He was a person who constantly over-analyzed everything, causing himself more harm than good.

He was the kind of person that nobody understood
He was unique and complicated, and others struggled to understand his complexity.

I said I'd love you more than you love me, but I meant something entirely ugly
She made a promise to love him more than he loved her, but she had selfish motives and didn't truly mean it from her heart.

One year it rained on Christmas
It was a difficult and unhappy Christmas season, symbolized by the rain.

He said let's just pretend we're in heaven
He was trying to find a way to escape their troubled reality and imagine a perfect world.

But I wasn't having it, no I was killing it
She was opposed to his idealistic approach and wanted to face reality head-on, even if it was uncomfortable.

I think his soul had a drain in it
She believes that his soul was drained and worn down, making him fragile and vulnerable.

Ooh, his blood rushed somewhere silent
During critical moments, his circulation and energy were redirected to a silent, hidden place within himself.

Ooh, his words just disappeared
He struggled to express himself effectively, often losing his ability to speak clearly and directly.

He was fragile and sometimes I liked that
Despite his flaws, she found his vulnerability and sensitivity appealing.

I've got his blood on my hands and my hands in a trap
She feels responsible for his struggles and pain, and feels trapped by their relationship's complicated nature.

It was the year that my heart was broke
She experienced a traumatic and emotionally damaging event that affected her deeply.

It was the year that I almost lost everything
She faced significant challenges and obstacles that nearly led to her downfall.

I pushed him away, only for my freedom
She distanced herself from him in order to gain a sense of independence and freedom, even though it hurt him.

It tasted like salt, like salt on my skin
Her actions were painful and uncomfortable, like the feeling of salt on a wound.

I can't make what's wrong right again, but I can shine it all bright again
She can't undo her mistakes and fix what's broken, but she can try to move forward and create positive changes.

Just when you think you're forgiven, there's no material left for confession
Even if you believe you've been forgiven, there's often still a sense of guilt and shame that can't be easily confessed or resolved.

You'll be standing there, sorry and unworthy, look closer guilty and bloody
Even if you're repentant and seeking forgiveness, you may still carry the weight of your actions and feel guilty or responsible for harm caused.

I've got his blood on my hands and my hands
She's consumed by guilt and feels responsible for his struggles.

I've got his blood on my hands and my hands in a trap
She feels trapped and stuck in a difficult situation, where she can't escape her responsibility or undo her mistakes.

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