Close to Me
Kaki King Lyrics


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I've waited hours for this
I've made myself so sick
I wish i'd stayed asleep today
I never thought that this day would end
I never thought that tonight could ever be
This close to me

Just try to see in the dark
Just try to make it work
To feel the fear before you're here
I make the shapes come much too close
I pull my eyes out
Hold my breath
And wait until i shake

But if i had your faith
Then i could make it safe and clean
If only i was sure
That my head on the door was a dream

I've waited hours for this
I've made myself so sick
I wish i'd stayed asleep today
I never thought that this day would end
I never thought that tonight could ever be
This close to me

But if i had your face
I could make it safe and clean
If only i was sure




That my head on the door
Was a dream

Overall Meaning

In Kaki King's song Close to Me, the lyrics express mixed emotions of anxiety and comfort. The singer is waiting for something to happen but she is making herself sick in anticipation. She wishes she stayed asleep instead of facing the day. The singer is quite fearful, but she still tries to make things work. She wants to feel the fear rather than being numb to it. The singer then goes on to describe how she makes the shapes come closer than they should, and she tries to cope by pulling her eyes out and holding her breath until she shakes.


However, salvation comes in the form of faith. The singer believes that if she had someone's faith, she too could feel safe and clean. She wishes that she was sure that her head on the door was just a dream. The repetitive lines, "I've waited hours for this, I've made myself so sick, I wish I'd stayed asleep today," contrast with the hopeful lyrics of finding safety and peace. The singer feels overwhelmed but also desperately needs to feel safe and secure.


Line by Line Meaning

I've waited hours for this
I've been waiting for this for a long time


I've made myself so sick
I've become physically and mentally unwell due to my anticipation for this


I wish i'd stayed asleep today
I regret waking up today and facing the reality of the situation


I never thought that this day would end
I never anticipated this day to come to a close


I never thought that tonight could ever be
I never thought that tonight could be as close as it is


This close to me
This physically and emotionally close to me right now


Just try to see in the dark
Attempt to understand despite the lack of clarity


Just try to make it work
Attempt to resolve the situation even if it might prove difficult


To feel the fear before you're here
To experience apprehension prior to the impending experience


I make the shapes come much too close
I interpret certain things to be too close to me


I pull my eyes out
I intentionally distort my perception of reality


Hold my breath
I feel severe anxiety


And wait until i shake
I wait until I calm down from my anxious state


But if i had your faith
If I had your trust and confidence


Then i could make it safe and clean
I could make the situation devoid of harm or danger


If only i was sure
If only I was certain


That my head on the door was a dream
That my unrealistic expectations and negative feelings were merely a figment of my imagination




Writer(s): Laurence Andrew Tolhurst, Simon Gallup, Boris Williams, Robert James Smith, Porl Thompson Copyright: Fiction Songs Ltd.

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Alice

I swear, The Cure are the only band that always seem to inspire amazing covers - I don't think I've ever heard a bad version of one of their songs

Chris

i thought this was one of those songs that could never be sucessfully covered i was so very very wrong this is genius

Ellie Martin

I love this song so much! She has a great voice!

muir66

this is a great cover. i love her voice. =D

madamaphilippa

such a gentle version.....such a godness of guitar!

Heinrich Liebniz

This is the best combination in music ever.

Snafu Art

great song, missing the pain of the original, but still made it her own :)

Dingus 2Chodus

Kaki King should totally do a cover of Lullaby by The Cure!

AlexTD6

Great guitar playing and singing, she's obviously talented. That's guitar playing fom a young age for you!

snugglebear97653

oh man...this is amazing.

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