LOST LOVE
Kalle Mattson Lyrics

I woke up high & my heart was a hummingbird
Feeling alive and overjoyed, my heart beats like a hummingbird's wings after waking up with a high.

I fell into the night all my singing slurred
I got lost in the night, unable to sing properly due to a drunken or drugged state.

I tear out the sun & I spit out the clouds
Feeling angry, I metaphorically remove the bright-side and spit out negativity.

But what was just the same is so much different now
My perception and attitude, while originating from old experiences, have been significantly changed or evolved.

Bring the bells of Babyblon
A request to create an environment or sound similar to the one heard in Babylon, known for its grand and lively nature.

I sing another sing another sing a song
I keep singing another song, as if it helps me focus or cope.

I walk alone no leaving light
I am walking by myself without any source of light to show the way.

But memory is a maze & I've seen the sight
Memories can be confusing and tricky to navigate through, and I have experienced this firsthand.

Darkened halls into the hide of the night
Darkness provides a sense of obscurity and mystery as I move down halls and deeper into the night.

Lost love is a liar
The pain of losing someone makes it seem like love was never real or simply lying.

Lost love let me find her
I wish to find the person whom I lost my love to.

Lost love is a leaving
A lost love is the act of someone leaving or departing away from me.

Lost love is a feeling
The sadness and despair of a lost love is a powerful emotion.

And I let her go
Despite my yearning and wishful thinking, I accept that I had to let go of the person I lost love with.

I fell & fell for the girl on the screen
I developed an infatuation or obsession with a person portrayed on a screen.

I fell for every stranger that would never leave
I grew attached to people who I knew would eventually disappear and leave my life.

I fill my heart with a crucified doubt
I burden myself with doubt and worry, which can be compared to a crucifixion, a term for extreme punishment and suffering.

But my name just gets crossed in & in & out out out
No matter how much I try or care, my name or existence keeps getting figuratively brushed aside or dismissed.

I'm making plans just to waste my time
I create plans and ideas, despite deep down knowing they are futile and unproductive.

I'm dreaming of the days that just pass by
Instead of being present, I find myself reminisicing about the past, hoping to relive the moments that have already passed.

Well late at night I need a little help just to get to sleep
I struggle with insomnia and use an external aid to fall asleep, usually late into the evening.

I take a couple pills a chest of human heat
The 'pills' could refer to a medication or a drug that helps calm me down, and essentially cools down the burning feeling of human emotion inside me.

I was left a lush I was left for dead
I treated myself excessively with some form of addiction or pleasure, leading to my downfall and being metaphorically 'left for dead'.

Just a pretty little piece of a thickening thread
Despite my impermanence and fragility, I keep growing and becoming stronger, like a thread that thickens as it is spun.

While bleeding hearts bleed a heavenly head
As I struggle with my own emotional pain, I am reminded that other individuals also face their own struggles.

A pyramid piece of a blackened thread
I am like a piece of a black, deteriorating thread that is a part of a larger object or structure (in this case, a pyramid), but still remains integrated.

In the dark, in the night of the dead
The darkness of night and figurative death pervades my surroundings and state of being.