Bittersweet
Kanye West Ft John Mayer & Keysha Cole Lyrics

Bittersweet
This relationship is a mix of both pleasure and pain.

You're gonna be the death of me
Your actions are causing me immense emotional pain and distress.

I don't want you, but I need you
My heart is conflicted because I don't want to be with you, but I can't seem to let go either.

I love you and hate you at the very same time
My emotions are a tumultuous mix of both love and hate for you.

See what I want so much, shit never hurt this bad
The desire and longing for you is so strong that the pain of not having you feels unbearable.

Never did this before, that's what the virgin says
This intense emotional experience is new to me and I don't know how to handle it.

We've been generally warned, that's what the surgeon says
Others have warned me about the dangers of this relationship, but I chose to ignore them.

God talk to me now, this is an emergency
I am in desperate need of divine intervention to help me navigate through this difficult situation.

And she claim she only with me for the currency
She is only interested in me for my money and financial status.

You cut me deep bitch, cut me like surgery
Your words and actions have hurt me deeply, as if I underwent a surgical procedure.

And I was too proud to admit that it was hurting me
I couldn't bring myself to admit that your behavior was causing me emotional pain because of my ego.

We breaking up again, we making up again
Our relationship is characterized by frequent breakups and reconciliations.

But we don't love no more, I guess we fucking then
Our physical attraction for each other is the only thing that's keeping this relationship going.

Have you ever felt you ever want to kill her?
Have you ever been so angry with someone that you experience homicidal thoughts towards them?

And you mix them emotions with tequila
Alcohol intensifies the already strong and conflicting emotions I am experiencing.

And you mix that with a little bad advice
In my drunken state, I am more likely to take bad advice from others.

On one of those bad nights, ya'll have a bad fight
On some of those nights when we drink and allow our emotions to get out of control, we end up having a terrible fight.

And you talking 'bout her family, her aunts and shit
In the heat of the moment, I am capable of saying hurtful things about her family members.

And she say "Motherfucker, yo momma's a bitch!"
She retaliates with equally hurtful insults towards me and my family.

You know, domestic drama and shit, all that attitude
Our relationship problems have escalated into domestic drama, fueled by our negative attitudes towards each other.

I'll never hit a girl, but I'll shake the shit outta you!
I will never resort to physical violence, but I will express my anger and frustration towards you in other aggressive ways.

But I'mma be the bigger man, Big Pimpin' like Jiggaman
Despite the challenges, I will take the high road and be the bigger person in this relationship.

And my nigga said I shouldn't let it worry me
One of my friends advised me to not let the relationship problems affect me too much.

I need to focus on the girls we getting currently
I should direct my attention towards other girls I am currently getting, rather than dwelling on the relationship problems.

But I been thinking and it got me back to sinking and
Despite the advice, I am finding it hard to let go of the pain and hurt in our relationship.

This relationship it even got me back to drinking all this
The emotional distress in this relationship has led me to drinking excessively.

Hennessy
A type of alcohol that the singer mentions drinking excessively.

And I always thought that you having our child was our destiny
The artist believed that having a child together was the fate of their relationship.

But I can't even vibe with you sexually
The emotional turmoil in the relationship has made it difficult for the artist to feel connected with the partner on a sexual level.

'Cause every time I would try, you would question me
The partner's trust issues make it difficult for the singer to engage in sexual intimacy without being questioned.

Saying "You fucking them girls, disrespecting me?
The partner assumes that the singer is being unfaithful and disrespecting the commitment of the relationship.

You don't see how ya lies is affecting me
The artist is unaware of how their lies and secretive behavior are negatively impacting the partner's emotional wellbeing.

You don't see how our life was supposed to be
The artist is unaware of how the current state of the relationship goes against what the partner envisioned for their life together.

And I never let a nigga get that close to me
The partner believes that the artist is not living up to expectations and hasn't let anyone get as close to them as the partner has.

And you ain't cracked up to what you was supposed to be
The partner believes that the singer is not living up to their potential and has not fulfilled certain expectations.

You always gone, you'll always be where them hoes'll be"
The artist's absence and tendency to be around other women fuels the partner's trust issues and negative perception of the relationship.

And this the first time she ever spilled her soul to me
The partner is opening up to the singer about their deepest thoughts and feelings for the first time.