I Need A Doctor
Karmin Lyrics

I'm about to lose my mind
I am on the brink of losing control of my emotions and thoughts

You've been gone for so long
You have been absent from my life for an extended period

I'm runnin' outta time
I am quickly approaching a deadline or time of reckoning

I need a doctor, call me a doctor
I require the assistance of a medical professional to heal me

I need a doctor, doctor
I am expressing a desperate need for help and healing

To bring me back to life
I am hoping that the doctor can restore me to vitality and health

I told the world one day I would pay it back
I made a promise to repay a debt or show gratitude to those who have helped me

Say it on tape, and lay it, record it
I preserved my promise on a recording to keep myself accountable

So that one day I could play it back
I intended to revisit the recording in the future as a reminder of my promise

But I don't even know if I believe it
I am uncertain if I can fulfill my promise or if it was feasible to begin with

When I'm sayin' that
During the act of expressing my promise

Doubts startin' to creep in, every day
I am increasingly skeptical of my ability to fulfill my promise

It's just so grey and black
My situation is bleak, unclear, and without hope

Hope, I just need a ray of that
I crave a glimmer of hope and positivity in my gloomy circumstances

'Cause no one sees my vision
Others do not understand or appreciate my goals and aspirations

When I play it for 'em, they just say it's wack
People dismiss or criticize my ideas and dreams

They don't know what dope is
My critics do not have a good sense of what is impressive or valuable

And I don't know if I was awake or asleep when I wrote this
I cannot remember the details or the inspiration behind my creative output

All I know is you came to me when I was at my lowest
You provided me with support and care when I was in a deeply troubled and vulnerable state

You picked me up, breathed new life in me, I owe my life to you
You gave me a new chance at life and saved me from despair, and I am indebted to you for it

But for the life of me, I don't see why you don't see like I do
I do not understand why you cannot perceive things the way I do

But it just dawned on me you lost a son, demons fighting you, it's dark
I only now realize that you have been struggling with personal tragedies and challenges in your life

Let me turn on the lights and brighten me and enlighten you
I want to offer you guidance and illuminate your paths towards betterment

I don't think you realize what you mean to me, not the slightest clue
You have no idea how much I value and appreciate you in my life

You and me were like a crew, I was like your sidekick
We used to have a strong, supportive dynamic where I played a lesser role to yours

You gon' either wanna fight me when I get off this fuckin' mic
You will either confront me or embrace me after I finish expressing myself through music

Or you gon' hug me, but I'm outta options, there's nothin' else I can do 'cause
You might greet me warmly, but regardless, I have run out of choices or plans to fix my problems

It hurts when I see you struggle, you come to me with ideas
It pains me to witness your difficulties and to see you seeking my help

You say they're just pieces, so I'm puzzled, cause I hear is crazy
You describe your ideas as fragments or unconventional, which confuses me because they sound unrealistic or irrational

But you're either gettin' lazy or you don't believe in you no more
You are either losing motivation or confidence in yourself

Seems like your own opinions, not one you can form
You struggle to come to a conclusion or make a decision on your own

Can't make a decision you keep questionin' yourself
You repeatedly doubt or second-guess your choices and abilities

Second guessin' and it's almost like your beggin' for my help
Your indecisiveness and insecurity make it seem like you are imploring me for aid

Like I'm your leader, but you're supposed to be my mentor
You defer to me as if I were in charge, but in reality, you are meant to be my guide and teacher

I can endure no more I demand you remember who you are
I cannot endure this situation any longer, and I request that you regain your sense of identity and purpose

It was you, who believed in me when everyone was tellin'
You were the only person to have faith in my abilities and potential when everyone else doubted me

You don't sign me, everyone at the fuckin' label, let's tell the truth
You went against the decision of the record label, which refused to sign me

You risked your career for me, I know it as well as you
You endangered your own professional reputation and future prospects to help me

Nobody wanted to fuck with the white girl, I'm cryin' in this booth
As a white woman in the music industry, no one was interested in working with me, and I am upset about it

You saved my life, now maybe it's my turn to save yours
You rescued me from a difficult situation, and now I want to repay you by helping you in return

But I can never repay you, what you did for me is way more
I cannot fully reciprocate the immense good you have done for me, as it surpasses anything I could possibly do for you

But I ain't givin' up faith and you ain't givin' up on me
I still maintain my hope and belief in a positive outcome, and you will not abandon me

Get up now I'm dyin', I need you, come back for heaven's sake
I am struggling to survive and need your support to continue, so please return to help me

Bring me back to life
I request that someone or something restore my vitality and energy