Vanish
Kat Von D Lyrics

Vanish in the world around me
Feeling like disappearing from the surroundings

Leaving ash and bone
Feeling like there is nothing left

My crown of thorns that shows no mercy
Feeling of being in a conflicted emotional and mental state

But it's my own
Accepting self-responsibility

I grace these walls with all my failures
Being surrounded by one's own mistakes

What have I become?
Questioning one’s worth and identity

I think it's time for my forgiveness
Acknowledging the need for self-love and forgiveness

Lick these wounds to heal
Dealing with one's pain to get better

I'm losing faith, the silent poison
Falling into despair

Pain I'd like to feel
Wanting to feel emotions other than despair

I know it's time
Realizing the need for change

Lay down, surrender
Giving up control to someone else

Someone take control
Wishing for someone else to be in charge

Cause I'm afraid to love
Fear of attachment due to possible heartbreak

Cause I'm afraid I'll leave
Fear of abandonment and hurting others

I'm living with these lies
Hiding one's true self from the world

That only I believe
Knowing that these lies are just that- lies

And I don't want to walk
Little desire to move forward

But I don't want to run
Fear of failure in quick progression

Cause I'm afraid of failing
Fear of failure and how others perceive it

In front of everyone
Humiliation in judgment of everyone

Hold me down and hurt my feelings
Accepting harm from someone else

I won't do the same
Not inflicting the same harm on others

I'll cry in silent disappointment
Feeling disappointment with oneself but not expressing it

Taking all the blame
Assuming responsibility for everything

But the darkest hour always finds me
Feeling as if one will always struggle

Pulling far away
Retreating from the world and the issues it brings

Cause I'm afraid to win
Fear of success and being seen as unworthy of it

Cause I don't wanna lose
Preferring not to try so as not to fail

And I'm afraid of falling
Fear of making mistakes

Under harsh review
Likely negative response and criticism

And I'm afraid to live
Fear of facing and living life

And I'm too tired to try
Exhausted from attempting to overcome challenges

I hide behind these shadows
Choosing not to face the light and concealment

Turn off all the lights
Preferring darkness to light

This never-ending longing feeling
A constant desire for something one cannot have

Waiting to be loved
Desiring love from someone else

I still believe in 'In Forever'
Retaining hope for long-lasting love and happiness

But it never comes
Realizing that the hope may be unfounded

And I'm afraid of hurting
Fear of causing pain to oneself or others

Myself and everyone
Wishing to avoid the pain that comes with human interaction