Balance
Katherine Lynn-Rose Lyrics

I am the life of the party, why do I feel so boring?
Despite being the center of attention, I feel uninteresting and dull.

Psychopath when I don’t show emotion, drama queen when I’m crying in public
People perceive me as cold and heartless when I suppress my feelings, and as overly dramatic when I express my emotions openly.

Giving everyone too much attention
I tend to focus too much on others and neglect myself.

Then they go and get offended
Despite my best intentions, people sometimes take offense to my actions or words.

Every time I get distracted
My attention easily gets diverted, causing me to lose focus on what's important.

Balance, where’s the balance
I am searching for stability and equilibrium in my life.

Think I got it, then I lost it
Just when I thought I found balance, something throws me off balance again.

These million dollar questions
My existential inquiries are profound issues that almost appear insurmountable.

Gonna make me broke
My preoccupation with these questions is costing me a great deal mentally, emotionally, and financially.

Make me feel alone
My quest for answers has left me feeling isolated and lonely.

I don’t go out enough, my mom thinks I’m out too much
My mother perceives my social life differently than I do, causing me to question my own habits.

Walls up, no one gets in, spill my guts now they say I’m too open
I often maintain emotional barriers, but some people criticize me for being too vulnerable when I finally open up.

Giving too much weight to people's opinions
I tend to care too much about what others think of me, which affects my self-esteem.

Over the top reactions, till I don’t care and go silent
At times, I overreact to situations, but eventually, I become indifferent and withdraw entirely.

I keep on asking
Despite not finding answers, I continue to ask the same questions in search of enlightenment.

Wishing I could take all my questions
I desire clarity and understanding, so I could resolve the uncertainties that consume me.

Turn them into explanations
I crave explanations for the enigmatic issues that puzzle and distress me daily.

Making a million dollars
Having the answers to my existential questions is worth more than any amount of money, as it would give me a profound sense of purpose and direction.

Selling them to all my friends
I would love to help others grappling with similar complex issues by offering them answers I've found for myself.

Thought I had till I dropped it
I had achieved balance temporarily but lost it eventually, causing me to repeat my search.