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Kendall Payne Lyrics

It's a big girl world now
Life has become more complex and mature

Full of big girl things
There are now important matters to consider and handle

And everyday I wish I was small
Feeling overwhelmed, wishing for simpler times

I've been counting on nothing
Hoping for something, but feeling uncertain and insecure

But he keeps giving me his word
Someone has made promises, but trust is waning

And I am tired of hearing myself speak
Words have lost their impact, feeling unheard

Do you ever get weary?
Asking if others have ever felt the same fatigue

Do you ever get weak?
Wondering if others have experienced the feeling of being unable to handle situations

How do you dream
Questioning how to have hope during difficult times

When you can't fall asleep?
If life is overwhelming, finding it difficult to relax and rest

I've been wondering what you're thinking
Curious about someone's thoughts about oneself

And if you like my dress tonight?
Concerned about others' opinions and approval

Would you still say you love me
Questioning the authenticity of love despite faults and mistakes

Under this ordinary moonlight?
Asking if love persists even during mundane moments

I'm so afraid of what you'll say.
Fearful of negative reactions and consequences

I used to think I was special
Previously had high self-esteem and confidence

And only I have proved me wrong
Life and experiences have revealed self-doubt

I thought I could change
Believed in the power of oneself to make an impact

The world with a song
Expressing oneself through music as a way to initiate change

But I have ended up in India
Unexpected and unfamiliar situation

With no lamp to guide me home.
Feeling lost and without direction

The strangest place I think
A location that is bizarre or surreal

I have ever been
Personal experience that is bewildering

And all this time
Recognizing how long it has taken to reach this moment

I thought that we were friends
Assuming a relationship existed based on mutual understanding

My stubborn will is learning to bend.
Recognizing the need to compromise and adapt

I'd like to know if you'd be open
Asking for someone's willingness to consider a new beginning

To starting over from scratch
To remove old ways and rebuild anew

To giving me a second chance
Asking for another opportunity or forgiveness

I'd like to know if you'd be open
Reiterating the desire for someone's willingness

To starting over from scratch
Stressing the need to start anew

To giving me a second chance
To emphasize the request for forgiveness