Abstract touches on some reoccurring topics like being ridiculed by family, and friends, his childhood, and feeling like he’s let the people he cares about down. It’s also the first time Abstract mentions former BROCKHAMPTON member Ameer Vann by name since his departure in May, 2018.
During his #THE1999 live stream, Abstract said Corpus Christi is his favorite song he’s ever written.
Corpus Christi
Kevin Abstract Lyrics
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We was on tour in Europe
I tried coke with this kid
See I need anything that make me feel less lonely
I get called a snake, a liar, a faggot, and a phony
Sometimes I feel like all I'm gon' have is my money
And my day one homies just gon' be left with their money
And I'll stare at the skies until they start to fade away
All our childhood dreams found a way to fade away
Tyler Perry movies dawg, and Michael Jackson videos
My aunt Becky passed on my pride, won't let me call her
I've been a bad nephew, son, boyfriend whatever they call it
I just hope when it's my turn, to not see tomorrow
Y'all can forgive me for any pain that I ever seemed to cause you
If you wake up feelin' more lonely, than you felt yesterday
The more you got to let me go then
If you wake up feelin' more lonely, than you felt yesterday
The more you got to let me go then
I wonder if Ameer think about me, or what he think about me
See when I think about me, I barely think about me
I think about the people that surround me, and how I let 'em down
I'm doing that right now by even fucking talking about this
I'm sorry Dom
I probably shouldn't be putting all our problems on the front lawn
Like that scene in Blow when George's mom called the feds 'cause it was hurting her rep
At what point do I do it for myself
Instead of thinking 'bout the set?
I helped niggas get deals
I help niggas get healed
But I still feel like niggas wanna see me killed
Probably 'cause my brother thought I was trying to see him killed
My sister be on Instagram trying to air me out
All because I won't give my niece a fucking shout out
If I ain't have Kelly I probably would've stayed in Hawaii
My boyfriend more than an angel, it's a miracle he stuck by me
If you wake up feelin' more lonely, than you felt yesterday
The more you got to let me go then
If you wake up feelin' more lonely, than you felt yesterday
The more you got to let me go then
Why me, why me, why me, why me?
Why me, why me, why me, why me?
Why me, why me, why me, why me?
Why me, why me, why me, why me?
In "Corpus Christi," Kevin Abstract reflects on his struggles with loneliness and the weight of his own self-doubt. He starts by expressing the isolation he feels, highlighting that even his closest friends don't understand how to cope with his situation. This feeling leads him to experiment with drugs like cocaine, seeking any escape from his emotional state. He shares the negative labels he's been given, such as being called a snake, a liar, a faggot, and a phony, which further contribute to his sense of loneliness and self-doubt.
Abstract contemplates the transient nature of relationships and success, fearing that his money will be the only constant in his life and that his cherished friendships will fade away. He reminisces about childhood dreams and the innocence of watching Tyler Perry movies and Michael Jackson videos with his cousin. He expresses regret for neglecting his aunt, Becky, who passed away, and acknowledges the negative impact he may have had on others, hoping for their forgiveness.
In the second verse, Abstract mentions Ameer, a former member of his group, Brockhampton, whom he wonders about and feels guilty for letting down. He also feels remorse for sharing personal problems with the public, specifically apologizing to Dom, another member of Brockhampton, for airing their issues publicly. He questions his motivations and whether he should prioritize his own well-being instead of being consumed by the group's reputation.
Abstract acknowledges that he has helped people in the past, both in their career pursuits and personal growth, but still feels a pervasive sense of mistrust and hostility from others. He mentions his brother's paranoia, believing that Kevin was involved in an attempt on his life, and his sister's attempts to publicly shame him on social media. Despite these challenges, Abstract finds solace in his relationship with his boyfriend, Kelly, who has stood by him steadfastly.
Overall, "Corpus Christi" is a vulnerable and introspective song in which Kevin Abstract grapples with feelings of loneliness, guilt, and the constant struggle to find his place in the world.
Line by Line Meaning
None of my boys know how to cope with this shit
My friends are unable to handle the difficulties I'm going through
We was on tour in Europe
We were traveling and performing in European cities
I tried coke with this kid
I experimented with cocaine along with another person
See I need anything that make me feel less lonely
I crave anything that can alleviate my feelings of loneliness
I get called a snake, a liar, a faggot, and a phony
People label me with hurtful names like deceiver, liar, homosexual, and fake
Sometimes I feel like all I'm gon' have is my money
At times, I believe that the only thing I'll have left is my wealth
And my day one homies just gon' be left with their money
Meanwhile, my closest friends will only have their wealth as well
And I'll stare at the skies until they start to fade away
I will gaze at the heavens until they gradually vanish
Me and my cousin would play ball all day trying to perfect that fade-away
My cousin and I would spend hours playing basketball, attempting to master the fade-away shot
All our childhood dreams found a way to fade away
Our aspirations from our youth somehow dissipated
Tyler Perry movies dawg, and Michael Jackson videos
I have fond memories of watching Tyler Perry movies and Michael Jackson music videos
My aunt Becky passed on my pride, won't let me call her
My aunt Becky, who has passed away, denied me the ability to reach out to her due to my own stubbornness
I've been a bad nephew, son, boyfriend whatever they call it
I have failed in my roles as both a nephew, a son, and a boyfriend, or whatever label you want to give it
I just hope when it's my turn, to not see tomorrow
I simply wish that when my time comes, I won't wake up to see another day
Y'all can forgive me for any pain that I ever seemed to cause you
I hope you can find it in your hearts to forgive me for any suffering I may have inflicted upon you
If you wake up feelin' more lonely, than you felt yesterday
If you wake up feeling even more isolated than the previous day
The more you got to let me go then
It would be better for you to distance yourself from me
I wonder if Ameer think about me, or what he think about me
I contemplate whether Ameer reflects on me, or how he perceives me
See when I think about me, I barely think about me
When I consider myself, I hardly focus on myself
I think about the people that surround me, and how I let 'em down
I reflect on the individuals who are in my life and how I have disappointed them
I'm doing that right now by even fucking talking about this
By discussing these matters, I am currently letting them down
I'm sorry Dom
I apologize to Dom for my actions
I probably shouldn't be putting all our problems on the front lawn
Perhaps I shouldn't be publicly airing all of our issues
Like that scene in Blow when George's mom called the feds 'cause it was hurting her rep
Similar to the situation in the movie Blow, where George's mother contacted the authorities to protect her reputation
At what point do I do it for myself instead of thinking 'bout the set?
When will I prioritize my own well-being instead of constantly worrying about the group?
I helped niggas get deals
I assisted individuals in securing business agreements
I help niggas get healed
I aid others in their emotional and mental healing
But I still feel like niggas wanna see me killed
Nevertheless, I sense that some people desire my demise
Probably 'cause my brother thought I was trying to see him killed
This could be because my brother believed I had ill intentions towards him
My sister be on Instagram trying to air me out
My sister goes on Instagram attempting to publicly expose my flaws
All because I won't give my niece a fucking shout out
This entire situation arose simply because I refused to give my niece a publicly acknowledged greeting
If I ain't have Kelly I probably would've stayed in Hawaii
If it weren't for Kelly, my significant other, I likely would have remained in Hawaii
My boyfriend more than an angel, it's a miracle he stuck by me
My boyfriend is not just an ordinary person; his loyalty to me is truly remarkable
Why me, why me, why me, why me?
Why am I the one facing these difficulties?
Why me, why me, why me, why me?
Why do I have to endure these challenges?
Why me, why me, why me, why me?
Why am I dealt with these burdens?
Why me, why me, why me, why me?
Why am I the one who must face these struggles?
Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
Written by: Ian Simpson, Jack Antonoff, Romil Hemnani
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