Twenty One
Khalid Lyrics

You just turned twenty one
You recently hit a significant milestone in your life.

So lately you've been drinking
You're using alcohol as a coping mechanism to deal with your emotions.

Wasted on alcohol
You've been excessively drinking alcohol.

You chase to fight the feeling
You're trying to fight off negative emotions and thoughts by drinking.

Thinking 'bout letting go
You're contemplating surrendering to negative feelings you've been holding in.

Would that be easy for you then, then
You're wondering if giving in to your negative thoughts would be the easiest path forward.

So lay with me, lay with me
You want someone to comfort you and be there for you during this difficult time.

We're underneath the bleachers
You and this person are hiding away from the world, both physically and emotionally.

Stay or leave, stay or leave
You're unsure of what you want, whether to stay in the current moment or leave it behind.

I hope you're never leaving
You want this person to stay with you and support you during this time.

All of these memories
You're reflecting on past experiences that are contributing to your current struggles.

Crawling underneath your skin, skin
Your emotions and thoughts are consuming you, and it's starting to show.

'Cause you're in pain
You're hurting.

But who's to blame?
You're not sure who or what to hold responsible for your pain.

All our lives
Throughout our lives.

You're never it
You've never been the source of happiness or positivity in your life.

Don't believe everything
You're warning yourself against easily buying into things that may cause you more harm than good.

The shit you like gives you anxiety
Things that you previously enjoyed or that brought you pleasure now bring you anxiety.

But finally, I see you smiling
Despite your struggles, you're finding moments of happiness and contentment.

When you say you need privacy
You're trying to create space for yourself to deal with your emotions on your own.

You're only hiding from yourself mm
You're realizing that the only person you're really hiding from is yourself.

Same fire, coming home
You're still dealing with the same struggles and emotions no matter where you go or what you do.

I see the sun come up and
You're witnessing time continuing to pass, but your pain is still present.

Shut the blinds
You're shutting off the outside world to deal with your inner struggles.

Episodes
You're dealing with recurring episodes of pain and negative emotions.

I know I never take my own advice
You recognize that you often know what you need to do, but struggle to actually follow through with it.

When I'm wrong
Even though you're struggling right now, you're acknowledging that you're not perfect and make mistakes.

But I can't do it by myself
You need support and help from others to overcome your struggles.

Cause I'm in pain
You're acknowledging your own pain.

But I'm to blame
You're taking responsibility for your own struggles and pain.

To win this fight
You see yourself dealing with a battle, a struggle which needs to be dealt with.

I have to change
You know it's time for you to make some changes in your life.

Hold on tight
You're reminding yourself to stay strong and resilient during this difficult time.