Kid Cudi was born in Cleveland, Ohio and lived in the diverse upper class suburb of Shaker Heights. Just prior to receiving his GED he attended Shaker Heights High School in Shaker Heights, Ohio and also Solon High School in Solon, Ohio. Cudi first began rapping towards the end of high school, inspired by alternative hip hop groups such as The Pharcyde and A Tribe Called Quest. He moved to Brooklyn, New York to pursue a music career. In July 2008, Kid Cudi released his first mixtape, A Kid Named Cudi, in collaboration with New York street wear brand 10. Deep as a free download in 2008. The mixtape has had so much continued success that on May 18, 2009 10.Deep announced they were going to be doing a re-release of the "Up There" t-shirt and hard copies A Kid Named Cudi mixtape in their webstore on May 20, 2009 at 12:00 PM EST. Shortly after the shirt went up for sale the server crashed due to heavy traffic of fans wanting to buy the t-shirt and the mixtape.
Kid Cudi has a guest feature on Kanye West's 2008 album, 808s & Heartbreak, singing with him on the track Welcome to Heartbreak, providing additional vocals on Paranoid with Mr Hudson and helped with songwriting on the second single Heartless. A music video has been made and released for Welcome to Heartbreak with him in it. He also featured on the song Welcome 2 the World with Kevin Rudolf from his album In The City, and on 88-Keys debut album The Death of Adam on the track Ho' is Short for Honey.
He has been featured in many medias such as XXL and BBC News's Sound of 2009 poll of up-and-coming acts. He has also been featured in Vibe, Complex, The Source, Rolling Stone, URB and Interview magazine.
Kid Cudi first appeared on shows in 2008, when he performed at the 2008 VMA's alongside Travis Barker and DJ AM. On February 17, 2009, Kid Cudi made his TV debut on Snoop Dogg's new MTV talk show Dogg After Dark, performing Day 'n' Nite at the end of the show. Two days later on February 19, 2009, Cudi appeared on BET's 106 & Park with Kanye West to debut the video of Day 'n' Nite . On March 16, 2009 Kid Cudi performed on mtvU's 2009 Spring Break special. On March 17, 2009 Cudi appeared on Last Call with Carson Daly where he performed three songs. Kid Cudi has also made cameo appearances in Solange's video for her song T.O.N.Y. and in the Black Eyed Peas video for I Gotta Feeling.
Kid Cudi, along with Emile, produced an exclusive single called "Switchin Lanes" for the video game Midnight Club: Los Angeles, part of its "South Central Premium Upgrade" Downloadable Content (DLC) which came out March 19, 2009 for the PlayStation 3 and March 27, 2009 for the Xbox 360. He contributed to the soundtrack for Capcom's Super Street Fighter IV: Arcade Edition. The game was released on June 24 2010.
CONFUSED!
KiD CuDi Lyrics
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I might go losing it and drive off of a cliff
Fall in the void
And if I blow my brains out all over the scene
That's madness curing sadness
These walls ain't talking back
Might as well finally paint them black, I'm out of ideas
Who am I? Who are we?
Who am I? Who are we?
All I want is to feel complete
Who am I? Who are we?
Confused, truth is what I choose
Heal I never do
Asking, "Who are you?"
I don't have one clue
Seems I hate him too
Seems my color's blue
Who?
I always end up back in a cycle of shame
Looking in the mirror is hard, hmm
Some days I hurt myself to distract me from distraction
That's madness fixing sadness, hmm
Go on adventures to find that the answers aren't plain
But there's comfort in tears, hmm
Decoding my sacred heart flying from here
No more falling apart, ahh
Who am I? Who are we?
Who am I? Who are we?
All I want is to feel complete
Who am I? Who are we?
I hate the drugs but I love the numb, mhm, mhm
I hate the gun but I want the sun, mhm, mhm
I hate the drugs but I love the numb, mhm, mhm
I hate the gun but I want the sun
Confused
Confused, truth is what I choose (truth is what I choose)
Heal I never do (heal I never do)
Asking, "Who are you?" (Asking, "Who are you?")
I don't have one clue (I don't have one clue)
Seems I hate him too (seems I hate him too)
Seems my color's blue (seems my color's blue, whoa whoa)
Who?
I hate the drugs but I love the numb, mhm, mhm
I hate the gun but I want the sun, mhm, mhm
I hate the drugs but I love the numb, mhm, mhm
I hate the gun but I want the sun
(Ohh, ohh)
(Ohh, ohh)
(Ohh, ohh)
(Ohh, ohh)
(Ohh, ohh)
(Ohh, ohh)
In Kid Cudi's song "CONFUSED!", the artist expresses his feelings of confusion and despair. He discusses the possibility of driving off a cliff and falling into the void or even committing suicide to end his pain, but ultimately recognizes the madness of these thoughts. He acknowledges the lack of communication with the walls and ceiling but feels that they are his only sources of comfort. Kid Cudi then questions his identity and wonders who he truly is. He admits to being lost, hurt, and confused, which leads him to hurt himself. He seems to recognize that his pain is a result of not understanding who he is or what he needs to heal.
The chorus of the song revolves around Kid Cudi's desire to feel complete and figure out who he really is. He indicates that he hates the drugs but finds comfort in them, feeling numb and disconnected from the world. He hates the gun but wants the sun, metaphorically implying that he desires happiness and fulfillment.
The song overall portrays a deeply troubled mind struggling to find its identity and purpose while experiencing pain and frustration. The artist recognizes the paradoxical nature of his thoughts and emotions but still feels lost in the end. Ultimately, the song highlights the importance of understanding oneself, communicating with others, and seeking help to overcome internal battles.
Line by Line Meaning
I might go losing it and drive off of a cliff
I am feeling unstable and considering dangerous actions
Fall in the void
I fear emptiness and meaninglessness
And if I blow my brains out all over the scene
My destructive impulses could make matters worse
That's madness curing sadness
My extreme behavior is an attempt to cope with my pain and confusion
These walls ain't talking back
I am isolated and feel unheard
Might as well finally paint them black, I'm out of ideas
I have lost hope and am resigned to negativity
The ceiling is all I have downward from here, I'm ripping apart
My despair and anxiety are overwhelming me
Who am I? Who are we?
I am questioning my own identity and the meaning of existence
All I want is to feel complete
I am seeking fulfillment and inner peace
Confused, truth is what I choose
I am conflicted and trying to find my own truth
Heal I never do
I feel stuck in my pain and unable to move forward
Asking who are you
I am struggling to understand my own identity
I don't have one clue
I am lost and confused about who I am
Seems I hate him too
I am feeling self-hatred and dissatisfaction
Seems my color's blue
I feel sad and depressed
I always end up back in a cycle of shame
I am trapped in negative patterns and struggling to break free
Looking in the mirror is hard, hmm
I am uncomfortable with my own reflection and self-image
Some days I hurt myself to distract me from distraction
I engage in self-harm as a way to numb my emotional pain
Going on adventures to find that the answers aren't plain
I am searching for meaning and purpose, but finding it elusive
But there's comfort in tears
I find solace in expressing my emotions
Decoding my sacred heart flying from here
I am exploring my inner self and seeking to evolve beyond my current state
No more falling apart
I am committed to healing and growth
I hate the drugs but I love the numb, hmm
I am conflicted about substance use and its effects on me
I hate the gun but I want the sun, hmm
I am struggling with conflicting desires and emotions
Lyrics © Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Written by: Scott Mescudi
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