Don't Play This Song
KiD CuDi Lyrics

Wanna know what this sound like when I'm not on drugs?
I wonder what my music would sound like without being under the influence.

Please please don't play this song r-r-r-r-right r-right r-right right right
Please don't play this song because it brings up painful memories.

Trynna get my mind m-mind m-mind right right
I'm trying to get my mind in a better place emotionally.

People think they're really being helpful by telling me please be careful
People think they're being helpful by warning me to beware of the dangers of fame and success.

Yeah right r-r-r-r-right r-right r-right right right please don't play this song
Despite the warnings, playing this song still brings up painful memories so please don't play it.

Pain, hurt, sadness and loneliness
I struggle with a lot of emotional pain and loneliness.

Bought all that shit right up
I've been trying to cope with my emotions by indulging in drugs.

Tossed away to the bottomless pit
My emotions have gotten so intense that I can't keep up with them, and they keep piling up.

Of the part of my mind that slips
I struggle with a part of my mind that I can't control.

The part of my mind so sick
My emotional struggles have made my mind unhealthy.

I don't even like to take that trip
I don't like getting high anymore because it just makes my emotional struggles worse.

Unless I'm sloppy drunk I pray for my mom,
The only time I really let myself go is when I'm drunk; otherwise, I keep things together for the sake of my mom.

I teach her the son that never gave a fuck about a scantron
I want to teach my mom, and others like her, that there's more to life than just conforming to society's expectations.

All I wanted was to be a human being
Despite what people may think, I just want to be a regular human being with normal emotions and experiences.

And show the world some new colors and scene
I want to use my music to show people a new perspective on life and emotions.

Imagine all types of beautiful scenery
I want to inspire people to imagine a world that's full of beauty and positivity.

I remember when I first had tree smoked
I remember the first time I got high (tree = weed) and how naive I was about the consequences.

Black and Mild, how dumb of me now,
Looking back, I realize how foolish it was to start smoking Black and Mild cigars.

I'm grape cigarello man
Now I smoke grape-flavored cigarellos instead of weed or cigars.

Any young black kid a guaranteed fan
I know that a lot of young black kids can relate to my music and my struggles.

On a downhill grind and I'm humble
Even though I'm struggling emotionally, I try to stay humble and grounded.

And I treat normal girls like models
Despite my fame, I try not to treat girls like objects or put them on a pedestal.

Reckless and young, am I my mom's calling,
I know that my behavior can affect my mom, and I don't want to disappoint her.

Thank god she hit decline
I'm glad my mom didn't answer my call because I was in a really bad place emotionally.

I'm numb faced while I'm thinking about suicide
Sometimes I feel so lost and hopeless that I contemplate ending my own life.

Hey, black Robin Hood ridin high,
I see myself as a modern-day Robin Hood who fights for the underdogs of society.

Just like we should you know the saying,
We should all strive to do the right thing and help those in need.

Ain't no delaying
We shouldn't wait to do the right thing; we should act right away.

Gotta gets the gettin' while the gettin's good
We should take advantage of opportunities while they're available.

Yeah demented, my brain was forced to transform wise up,
My struggles have forced me to grow and mature in ways I didn't expect.

I'm checkin' the gate on humble tales
I'm trying to stay humble and grounded in the midst of my success.

And minimum wage the girls tell it, Cudi's lame
Despite my success, some girls still think I'm uncool or lame because of my struggles with mental health.

Wearing a kilt, he must be gay
People make assumptions about me based on my appearance, even if they're not true.

Let's keep it chill, fuck being discrete
Let's be honest and authentic with each other instead of hiding behind a facade of coolness or indifference.

But some girls tweet how they miss my meat ya,
Even though some girls judge me, others still appreciate me and my music.

Cudders, HBO, that Vitamin Water
These are some of the brands that sponsor me or feature my music.

That's money to blow cause your money for blow
Even though I make a lot of money, I still struggle with drug addiction that eats into my earnings.

Don't take no shit you can blame my Ma I'm in the maze,
If I seem stubborn or difficult to work with, it's because I'm lost in my own mental maze and my struggles with my emotions.

I'm in a daze, I'm losing it
Sometimes I feel like I'm losing grip on my own life and my own emotions.

I'm locking in my rocket ship I be a blip in your radar bitch
I'm working hard to pursue my dreams and launch myself to success even if other people don't see the value of my music or my struggles.

It feels like things can be covered
Sometimes it feels like I can hide my emotional struggles or my drug use, but that just makes it worse.

Until the day I'm above myself hover
I hope one day I can rise above my emotional struggles and live a happier, healthier life.