This track is about loneliness at it’s core. Many people that are truly lonely will attempt to cope through the use of addiction. Scott is apologetic about his addictions and wishes that he could take some of the things he has done to hurt the people he loves back. At the end of the track Scott contemplates if “his daddy’s gun” suicide would be the best way to get rid of his loneliness.
Fuchsia Butterflies
KiD CuDi Lyrics
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Yeah, I'm feeling I'm a goner, I'm feeling I'm a goner
I'm feeling I'm a goner, and I don't know where I am
I'm feeling I'm a goner, I'm feeling I'm a goner
I'm feeling I'm a goner and I
Fuchsia butterflies dizzy, now what am I?
Climb in the shadows, honey I'm home
It's all by design if I pass out on the lawn
Then I'll be happy, happy getting shitfaced by myself
Just loathing in my sweet misery
Oh, such manic luxury
Happy, happy getting shitfaced by myself
Just loathing in my sweet misery
Oh, such manic company
Such manic company
Such manic company
Such manic company
Na, na, na, na
I got my mind gone but I love it, when you know
Fumble and mess things up, I can be such an asshole
I'm saying I'm sorry my lady, I'm so sorry (so sorry)
Keep doing the right thing, you just stay, stay away
Then I'll be happy, happy getting shitfaced by myself
Just loathing in my sweet misery
Oh, such manic luxury
Happy, happy getting shitfaced by myself
Just loathing in my sweet misery
Oh, such manic company
Such manic company
Such manic company
Such manic company
Na, na, na, na
And I got my daddy's gun, oh, oh
Such manic company
And I got my daddy's gun, oh, oh
The lyrics of "Fuchsia Butterflies" by Kid Cudi are a reflection of the artist's struggle with his mental health. In the opening verse, Cudi admits to feeling like a goner and not knowing where he is. He sings about fuchsia butterflies, which represents confusion and the dizzying feeling that comes with navigating his emotions. He talks about climbing in the shadows and coming home, which is a metaphor for the darkness he feels when dealing with depression. He accepts that he is alone and that he always has his bed waiting for him, which is both comforting and debilitating.
In the chorus, Kid Cudi explains why he turns to alcohol to cope with his troubles. He expresses that he is content being alone and drunk, surrounded by his sweet misery instead of facing his problems. The manic company that he keeps is a reference to the company he keeps in his mind, the voices that drive him to self-destruct.
In the second verse, Kid Cudi takes accountability for his actions and admits that he can be an asshole. He apologizes to the woman in his life and acknowledges that she just needs to stay away from him while he works on himself. The line "And I got my daddy's gun" is a poignant reminder of the possibility of suicide, which is a tragic reality for many who struggle with mental illness.
Overall, "Fuchsia Butterflies" is a candid depiction of mental health struggles, paranoia, and substance abuse. It's a heartbreaking representation of Kid Cudi's personal experiences with mental illness, and it shows that even success and fame can't shield one from the challenges of mental health.
Line by Line Meaning
Yeah, I'm feeling I'm a goner, I'm feeling I'm a goner
I'm overwhelmed and feel like I'm going to die
I'm feeling I'm a goner, and I don't know where I am
I'm lost and don't know where I stand in life
Got my bed made so long, sweet dreams
I'm ready to sleep and forget about everything
Fuchsia butterflies dizzy, now what am I?
I'm confused and don't know what to do next
Climb in the shadows, honey I'm home
I seek refuge and safety in the darkness
It's all by design if I pass out on the lawn
I don't care about the consequences of my actions
Then I'll be happy, happy getting shitfaced by myself
I find temporary joy in drinking and being alone
Just loathing in my sweet misery
I'm embracing my sadness and negativity
Oh, such manic luxury
My chaos and dysfunction feel like a lavish lifestyle
I got my mind gone but I love it, when you know
I'm lost in my thoughts but I find comfort in it
Fumble and mess things up, I can be such an asshole
I make mistakes and can be unpleasant to be around
I'm saying I'm sorry my lady, I'm so sorry (so sorry)
I'm apologizing to my partner for my behavior
Keep doing the right thing, you just stay, stay away
I'm causing harm and want my partner to distance herself from me
And I got my daddy's gun, oh, oh
I have a dangerous weapon that I shouldn't have
Such manic company
I'm surrounded by chaos and dysfunction
Na, na, na, na
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Lyrics © Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Written by: Scott Ramon Seguro Mescudi
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