While on their first Indonesian tour in late 2008, Sansan left the band, for (according to the band's MySpace blog) "personal reasons." For the remainder of the tour, Onadio Leonardo filled in for vocals while playing bass. When Sansan later attempted to return to Killing Me Inside, the band members decided not to let him back in, preferring to move on without him.
After the Indonesian tour, the band decided to look for a temporary fill in bass player so that Onadio Leonardo could concentrate on vocals. Agung Anak Gde, bassist of Synystra, was added to the group to fill in the bass and backup vocals. This was their lineup for Java Rockin’ Land 2009.
In early 2010, Killing Me Inside released a new video for the song "Tanpa Dirimu" as the new single. The video, (directed by Rizal Mantovani), is the first to not include Sansan.
On June 3, the band announced via Facebook that they were officially finished with the recording of their new album and that it was to be released in the fall. They announced that the album would be self-titled. In early August, Killing Me Inside released a music video on their Facebook blog titled "Biarlah". The album was released August 30, 2010.
Now the band on their Indonesian tour as promo new album, also introducing new additional bassist, Angga Tetsuya.
Band members :
Current :
Onadio Leonardo : Vocals (sometimes play Bass) [2006-Present]
Josaphat Klemens : Guitars [2006-Present]
Davi Frisya : Drums [2008-Present]
Former :
Sansan : Vocals [2006-2008] (now on Pee Wee Gaskins)
Raka Cyril : Guitars [2006-2007] (now on Vierra)
Rendy : Drums [2006-2008]
Touring :
Agung Anak Gde : Bass/Scream [2008-2010] (now on Synystra & Leica)
Rudye Nugraha : Bass/Scream [2010] (now on Thirteen)
Angga Tetsuya : Bass/Scream [2010-Present] (also in Sunset Groove)
Awake
Killing Me Inside Lyrics
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And don't let me out to get a terrible day
I cant feel my hearth and That youre sharing me is killing me
And i just want to wake up and say
(What is like to be loved to be killed to be dying?)
That the feeling here inside my heart
I want you back to me i need you now
I want you back to me i need you now
And with the blood shattered all over the blade
I got to say, the way that you are counting me
Its scaring me
But baby i just came here to say
(What is like to be loved to be killed to be dying?)
That the feeling here inside my heart
I want u back to me i need want you now
DIstressed
Out between you bit me
No more danger makes me feel
Just like dying now
Cut out my finger and pull the trigger
Right on my disaster
I felt its like (i want to celebrate the day)
Just like the kids with their lollypop
Just like i have the dagger in my hand
And i know it felt, i know it felt it is so wonderful
(I cry myself but with the happyness and joy
I dyed the sky with the colour of red
Because i dont want to miss a thing
I finally free just like i'm the almighty)
The lyrics to Killing Me Inside's song Awake depict the intense pain and suffering of the singer as a result of a failed relationship. The singer pleads for his lover to take his heart and carry him away, as he cannot handle the pain of being left alone. The feeling of being abandoned is so overwhelming that it is causing physical pain, as the singer cannot feel his heart and the thought of his lover moving on is killing him. The singer seems to be contemplating suicide when he says that he cut his vein and is waiting in pain. There is a sense of desperation in the lines "I want you back to me I need you now," as the singer realizes that his life is incomplete without his lover.
The chorus of the song, which asks the question "What is like to be loved to be killed to be dying?" seems to signify the internal turmoil of the singer. He is in a state of confusion and despair, questioning the nature of love and the pain that comes with it. The use of imagery in the lines "Cut out my finger and pull the trigger" suggests that the singer is considering ending his own life as a way to escape the pain of his current situation.
Overall, the song is a poignant depiction of heartbreak and the intense emotions that come with it.
Line by Line Meaning
Take my heart and carry me now
Please carry me and take my heart away with you.
And don't let me out to get a terrible day
Make sure I don't face a difficult day outside.
I cant feel my hearth and That youre sharing me is killing me
I can't feel love anymore and your leaving me is killing me.
And i just want to wake up and say
I just want to wake up and tell you something.
(What is like to be loved to be killed to be dying?)
What does it feel like to be loved, hurt and dying?
That the feeling here inside my heart
My heart is filled with a certain emotion.
I want you back to me i need you now
I want you back in my life immediately.
I cut my vain, i'm waiting in pain
I have cut my vein and am waiting in agony.
And with the blood shattered all over the blade
The blade is covered in blood and I am in pain.
I got to say, the way that you are counting me
I have to say, the way you are treating me is concerning me.
Its scaring me
It's making me scared.
But baby i just came here to say
But babe, I came here just to tell you something.
(What is like to be loved to be killed to be dying?)
What does it feel like to be loved, hurt and dying?
That the feeling here inside my heart
My heart is filled with a certain emotion.
I want u back to me i need want you now
I need you back in my life now.
DIstressed
I am distressed.
Out between you bit me
You have hurt me with your actions.
No more danger makes me feel
I feel safe with no danger around me.
Just like dying now
I feel like I am dying right now.
Cut out my finger and pull the trigger
I cut my finger and pull the trigger on a gun.
Right on my disaster
On my tragedy.
I felt its like (i want to celebrate the day)
I felt a certain way, like I want to celebrate the day.
Just like the kids with their lollypop
Just like the way kids enjoy their lollypops.
Just like i have the dagger in my hand
Just like I am holding a dagger in my hand.
And i know it felt, i know it felt it is so wonderful
And I know the feeling was wonderful.
(I cry myself but with the happyness and joy
I cry tears of joy and happiness.
I dyed the sky with the colour of red
I coloured the sky red with my emotions.
Because i dont want to miss a thing
Because I don't want to miss anything.
I finally free just like i'm the almighty)
I feel liberated and powerful.
Contributed by Bella R. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@christiankurniawan915
Take my heart and carry me now
And don't let me out to get a terrible day
I can't feel my heart and the blood
That you're sharing me is killing me
And I just want to wake up and say
What is like to be loved to be killed to be dying?
That the feeling here inside my heart
I want you back to me I need you now
I want you back to me I need you now
I cut my vain, I'm waiting in pain
And with the blood shattered all over the blade
I got to say, the way that you are counting me
It's scaring me
But baby I just came here to say
What is like to be loved to be killed to be dying?
That the feeling here inside my heart
I want you back to me I need want you now
What is like to be loved
To be killed to be dying?
Distressed
Out between you bit me
No more danger makes me feel
Just like dying now
Cut out my finger and pull the trigger
Right on my disaster
I felt it's like I want to celebrate the day
Just like the kids with their lollipop
Just like I have the dagger in my hand
And I know it felt, I know it felt its so wonderful
I cry myself but with the happiness and joy
I dyed the sky with the colour of red
Because I don't want to miss a thing
I finally free just like I'm the almighty
@salmannashiir17593
Ambil hatiku dan bawa aku sekarang
Dan jangan biarkan aku keluar untuk mengalami hari yang buruk
Aku tidak bisa merasakan jantung dan darahku
Bahwa Anda berbagi saya membunuh saya
Dan saya hanya ingin bangun dan berkata
Bagaimana rasanya dicintai untuk dibunuh menjadi sekarat?
Bahwa perasaan di sini di dalam hati saya
Aku ingin kau kembali padaku, aku membutuhkanmu sekarang
Aku ingin kau kembali padaku, aku membutuhkanmu sekarang
Saya memotong kesia-siaan saya, saya menunggu dengan kesakitan
Dan dengan darah yang hancur di seluruh bilahnya
Saya harus mengatakan, cara Anda menghitung saya
Itu membuatku takut
Tapi sayang aku hanya datang ke sini untuk mengatakan
Bagaimana rasanya dicintai untuk dibunuh menjadi sekarat?
Bahwa perasaan di sini di dalam hati saya
Aku ingin kau kembali padaku, aku butuh menginginkanmu sekarang
Seperti apa dicintai
Dibunuh untuk mati?
Tertekan
Di antara Anda menggigit saya
Tidak ada lagi bahaya yang membuatku merasa
Sama seperti sekarat sekarang
Potong jari saya dan tarik pelatuknya
Tepat pada bencana saya
Aku merasa seperti ingin merayakan hari itu
Sama seperti anak-anak dengan permen lolipop mereka
Sama seperti saya memiliki belati di tangan saya
Dan saya tahu rasanya, saya tahu rasanya begitu indah
Saya menangis sendiri tetapi dengan kebahagiaan dan kegembiraan
Saya mewarnai langit dengan warna merah
Karena aku tidak ingin melewatkan sesuatu
Saya akhirnya bebas seperti saya yang maha kuasa
@DressedToKill13
Take my heart and carry me now
And don't let me out to get a terrible day
I can’t feel my heart and blood that you shared with me is killing me
And i just want to wake up and say
(What is like to be loved to be killed to be dying?)
That the feeling’s here inside my heart
...
I want you back to me I do want you now
I cut my vain, I’m waiting in pain
And with the blood shattered all over the blade
I got to say, the way that you’re counting me
It’s scaring me
But baby I just came here to say
(What is like to be loved to be killed to be dying?)
That the feeling’s here inside my heart
...
I want you back to me I do want you now
...
Distressed
Out between you bit me
No more danger makes me feel
Just like dying now
Cut out my finger and pull the trigger
Right on my disaster
I felt it’s like (i want to celebrate the day)
Just like the kids with their lollipops
...
Just like i have the dagger in my hand
And i know it felt, i know it felt it’s so wonderful to me
...
(I cry myself but with the happiness and joy
I dyed the sky with the colour of red
Because i don’t want to miss a thing
I finally free just like i'm the almighty)
@rickydermawan9347
Take my heart and carry me now
And don't let me out to get a terrible day
I cant feel my hearth and That youre sharing me is killing me
And i just want to wake up and say
(What is like to be loved to be killed to be dying?)
That the feeling here inside my heart
...
I want you back to me i need you now
I want you back to me i need you now
I cut my vain, i'm waiting in pain
...
And with the blood shattered all over the blade
I got to say, the way that you are counting me
Its scaring me
But baby i just came here to say
(What is like to be loved to be killed to be dying?)
That the feeling here inside my heart
...
I want u back to me i need want you now
...
DIstressed
Out between you bit me
No more danger makes me feel
...
Just like dying now
Cut out my finger and pull the trigger
Right on my disaster
...
I felt its like (i want to celebrate the day)
Just like the kids with their lollypop
...
Just like i have the dagger in my hand
...
And i know it felt, i know it felt it is so wonderful
...
(I cry myself but with the happyness and joy
...
I dyed the sky with the colour of red
Because i dont want to miss a thing
...
I finally free just like i'm the almighty)
@christiankurniawan915
Take my heart and carry me now
And don't let me out to get a terrible day
I can't feel my heart and the blood
That you're sharing me is killing me
And I just want to wake up and say
What is like to be loved to be killed to be dying?
That the feeling here inside my heart
I want you back to me I need you now
I want you back to me I need you now
I cut my vain, I'm waiting in pain
And with the blood shattered all over the blade
I got to say, the way that you are counting me
It's scaring me
But baby I just came here to say
What is like to be loved to be killed to be dying?
That the feeling here inside my heart
I want you back to me I need want you now
What is like to be loved
To be killed to be dying?
Distressed
Out between you bit me
No more danger makes me feel
Just like dying now
Cut out my finger and pull the trigger
Right on my disaster
I felt it's like I want to celebrate the day
Just like the kids with their lollipop
Just like I have the dagger in my hand
And I know it felt, I know it felt its so wonderful
I cry myself but with the happiness and joy
I dyed the sky with the colour of red
Because I don't want to miss a thing
I finally free just like I'm the almighty
@salmannashiir17593
Ambil hatiku dan bawa aku sekarang
Dan jangan biarkan aku keluar untuk mengalami hari yang buruk
Aku tidak bisa merasakan jantung dan darahku
Bahwa Anda berbagi saya membunuh saya
Dan saya hanya ingin bangun dan berkata
Bagaimana rasanya dicintai untuk dibunuh menjadi sekarat?
Bahwa perasaan di sini di dalam hati saya
Aku ingin kau kembali padaku, aku membutuhkanmu sekarang
Aku ingin kau kembali padaku, aku membutuhkanmu sekarang
Saya memotong kesia-siaan saya, saya menunggu dengan kesakitan
Dan dengan darah yang hancur di seluruh bilahnya
Saya harus mengatakan, cara Anda menghitung saya
Itu membuatku takut
Tapi sayang aku hanya datang ke sini untuk mengatakan
Bagaimana rasanya dicintai untuk dibunuh menjadi sekarat?
Bahwa perasaan di sini di dalam hati saya
Aku ingin kau kembali padaku, aku butuh menginginkanmu sekarang
Seperti apa dicintai
Dibunuh untuk mati?
Tertekan
Di antara Anda menggigit saya
Tidak ada lagi bahaya yang membuatku merasa
Sama seperti sekarat sekarang
Potong jari saya dan tarik pelatuknya
Tepat pada bencana saya
Aku merasa seperti ingin merayakan hari itu
Sama seperti anak-anak dengan permen lolipop mereka
Sama seperti saya memiliki belati di tangan saya
Dan saya tahu rasanya, saya tahu rasanya begitu indah
Saya menangis sendiri tetapi dengan kebahagiaan dan kegembiraan
Saya mewarnai langit dengan warna merah
Karena aku tidak ingin melewatkan sesuatu
Saya akhirnya bebas seperti saya yang maha kuasa
@DressedToKill13
Take my heart and carry me now
And don't let me out to get a terrible day
I can’t feel my heart and blood that you shared with me is killing me
And i just want to wake up and say
(What is like to be loved to be killed to be dying?)
That the feeling’s here inside my heart
...
I want you back to me I do want you now
I cut my vain, I’m waiting in pain
And with the blood shattered all over the blade
I got to say, the way that you’re counting me
It’s scaring me
But baby I just came here to say
(What is like to be loved to be killed to be dying?)
That the feeling’s here inside my heart
...
I want you back to me I do want you now
...
Distressed
Out between you bit me
No more danger makes me feel
Just like dying now
Cut out my finger and pull the trigger
Right on my disaster
I felt it’s like (i want to celebrate the day)
Just like the kids with their lollipops
...
Just like i have the dagger in my hand
And i know it felt, i know it felt it’s so wonderful to me
...
(I cry myself but with the happiness and joy
I dyed the sky with the colour of red
Because i don’t want to miss a thing
I finally free just like i'm the almighty)
@wtfchanel.8274
2021 still loving it 🔥🔥🔥
@jefrimaulana2104
Biarkan lagu ini menjadi saksi semua kenangan di masa lalu 😄
@irfanaprojectrip9245
Mantap bg....lgu ini mengingat kan masa lalu...
@galihrosadasaafa135
neber baget bang jaman jaman emo bergejolak wkwk
@rifanroll5461
2022 masih dnerin lgu ini gak bosen suara sama musik nya kerennn
@rickydermawan9347
Take my heart and carry me now
And don't let me out to get a terrible day
I cant feel my hearth and That youre sharing me is killing me
And i just want to wake up and say
(What is like to be loved to be killed to be dying?)
That the feeling here inside my heart
...
I want you back to me i need you now
I want you back to me i need you now
I cut my vain, i'm waiting in pain
...
And with the blood shattered all over the blade
I got to say, the way that you are counting me
Its scaring me
But baby i just came here to say
(What is like to be loved to be killed to be dying?)
That the feeling here inside my heart
...
I want u back to me i need want you now
...
DIstressed
Out between you bit me
No more danger makes me feel
...
Just like dying now
Cut out my finger and pull the trigger
Right on my disaster
...
I felt its like (i want to celebrate the day)
Just like the kids with their lollypop
...
Just like i have the dagger in my hand
...
And i know it felt, i know it felt it is so wonderful
...
(I cry myself but with the happyness and joy
...
I dyed the sky with the colour of red
Because i dont want to miss a thing
...
I finally free just like i'm the almighty)
@himawanardyn2593
tak bisa move on dari lagu2 killing me inside saat itu, cadas abisss